....Thank You Mrs Amira
I took out my computer note book from my backpack started with my homework, I did the assignments easily from the explanations I jotted and the little note Mr victor gave us.
It was already Early evening by the time I was done, I then decided since I still have time I should also do my mathematics homework.
I kept my computer note book back in my bag and got out my mathematics homework, It looked easy now I am really glad I listened in class today.
I finished it quite quickly and I put it away in my backpack I then quickly rushed to the kitchen to get started on dinner.
I made yam flour and vegetable sauce with chicken for dinner. I could not risk getting caught so I decided to make a chicken sandwich for myself and I took it straight to my room.
I held it in my hands so I do not have to return any dishes and get caught, I ate my dinner quickly he might come in anytime, I wonder what keeps him out in the day.
When we were in Lagos he was home 24\7 and I never had the chance to steal food like this, he was always home but I am glad he is not always around if not only God knows what would have happened to me, when we first got here I was super malnourished but now I look a bit better
I am really happy my mom did not marry him, we only moved in with him and they decided to get married only after my mom has completely gotten over my father's death.
But she liked to think of the two of them as a married couple because they lived together and they both had confessed their love to each other and they had both planned on getting married.
A monster like him can never be capable of loving anyone, one question crossed my mind, "did he ever truly love my mom or was he just playing her."
He was not like this when we moved in with him, he never showed any sign of aggression, and the only fight he ever had with my mom was normal couple fight, I just really hope that he truly loved my mom.
I pray that the reason for all this torture is revealed to me some day.
It was already night and I was really tired I was about to shut my eyes and sleep, just as my step father threw the door open almost removing it from its hinges.
I saw about three sex toys in his hands, I just took off my clothes quietly I did not want him to rip it apart.
I have little clothes I do not want him to rip them all apart, after which I laid on the bed for him to do with me what he wants.
"Good girl it seems you are learning." He was wearing a ugly smug I wished I could wipe off his face.
He took of his clothes and used me over and over again I could not help but scream as loud as I could i told him to stop I know my screams make him happy and it gives him the satisfaction that he has successfully hurt me.
He slapped me. "Keep your mouth shut, if you make another sound I will use my whip on you, I am sure you do not want that."
He was right I do not want that so I tried to muffle my screams.
When he was done he went out of me and he hit me twice again, my cheeks stung.
"You are nothing but a worthless murderer, do not forget that." Then he grabbed his clothes and left me alone to my thoughts.
"You are nothing but a worthless murderer" His words rang in my ear.
No I am not I did not kill her! I did not kill her!!
I kept mumbling over and over again, a feeling of numbness gripped my entire form and my chest heaved, I don't want to live like this anymore I'm tired, I want to die, he should just kill me already, I kept crying, I tried to think of the good days but It didn't soothe me, I kept crying until I eventually fell asleep cold and empty.
Next day.
I woke up the next day, and I just laid in bed, still and lonely I eventually got up and I wobbled to bed my whole legs hurt.
I brushed my teeth, did my business and I got out I dressed and brushed my hair and I went to lay on my bed, till the pain resides.
My stepfather managed to bring back the headache I was feeling yesterday, I laid there for like thirty minutes and the pain did indeed reside.
I only felt a sting when I walked, I walked to the living room so I could clean it but it was clean, very neat I wondered what made my step father not to make a mess in the living room.
I then walked to the kitchen on shaking legs and I made his usual breakfast for him, I took some pain reliever and went back to my room.
I will try to steal food from the kitchen once he leaves, I laid on my bed doing nothing, I just hope he does not make up something just so he could beat me.
I rather clean the house than lay down and do nothing, just then my father barged into my room, oh no what did I do now?!
"You get up what are you doing?, he didn't even allow me to reply "Go and clean my room now it is a mess."
Of course now I get it, he made a mess in his room instead of the living room.
"Okay."
"Hurry, and do not dare snoop around, do what I asked of you and get out."
"Yes sir." I rushed past him into his bedroom.
He did not make a huge mess like he would have to the living room, I grabbed the bottles of vodka and took them to the kitchen downstairs.
I threw them into the trash can and I grabbed a broom, trash bag and a mop with water, I dusted and re laid the bed making sure there was not even a speck of dust on it.
I do not want to give him a reason to hit me again, I then proceeded to sweeping the room, I had to sweep it twice because some dirt stuck to the carpet.
After I was done I put the mop into the water and mopped the place clean with bleach, I did not put too much so he will not complain about the smell and hit me.
I grabbed everything with difficulty and took them to the kitchen downstairs, after which I went out to dispose the garbage and I washed and dried the mop then I poured the mop water away and I rinsed the bucket.
After I was done I went to my room and continued doing nothing, my head started to hurt really bad again so I went to the kitchen to put bandage on it.
I then saw my father go up the stairs into his room, this is probably a good time to eat breakfast, and I dared for the first time to make tea and bread with egg for myself.
I was scared out of my mind because he might smell the fried egg and come downstairs to check if I am frying egg, so I tried to make it quickly, I made scrambled eggs, after I finished making it, I served myself and I ate.
I took my time to eat good food for the very first time in a very long time but I was mindful of the fact that he could come downstairs any time.
As soon as I was done, I washed the dishes and I went to my room,I brushed my teeth so that even if he comes to my room to check if I ate anything, and he smells my mouth he will not smell that I ate breakfast.
Shortly after my step father came in and looked around my room then he asked me if I cooked anything after he went upstairs.
I have never lied to him before,I was really scared what if he finds out that I am lying, I cannot live by his harsh rules that is why I have to lie to him,I thought to myself.
"What were you cooking?"
"Nothing."
My first lie,you can do this Axymah, do not show him that you are afraid of him, wear an unbreakable mask.
"I did not cook anything after you went upstairs." He gave me a hard stare but I did not quaver.
"Open your mouth." He commanded.
He smelt my mouth and I am sure all he would be able to smell is the taste of my tooth paste, mint.
"Okay."
Then he left, I went to close my door and I released my breathe, I did not even know I was holding it in.
I went back to laying on my bed and just thinking about the happy moments I had with my parents before they left me with this cruel, heartless man.
I heard the door bell rang, it has been so long I heard the sound of a door bell, I did not bother to get up because if he is home I am not allowed to answer the door.
I soon heard the sound of the front door open but obviously I can not hear what they are saying, I did not want to bother about that so I went back to what I was doing, nothing, I am so bored.
I heard the door slam shut quite hard, now I am curious to know what happened and who it was at the door.
He barged into my room. "It was our new neighbour that was at the door, she came to invite us to her house for dinner but I declined. Then she told me that she heard loud and heart breaking screams coming from in here last night, you did it on purpose did you not?"
"Did what on purpose?"
"Do not act dumb with me, you screamed really loud last night so that the new neighbours will hear you and come to your aid did you not?"
"No, I did not even think about that."
"She will have her suspicions, so I will have to be careful, from now on I will no longer rape you."
"Instead I will just beat you and torture you, you should be thankful to God. And hey, I do not want to ever see you with that woman again or else whatever happens next will be all your fault then that he exited my room."
I went to shut the door and I smiled to myself, I am so happy, he will no longer rape me, all because we got a new neighbour.
I did not know he was scared of anything but apparently he is scared of getting caught, I smiled so hard my face froze and my head began to hurt again.
I pray I never encounter that woman called Mrs Amira again, if my step father sees me with her only God knows what he will do.
I laid on my back and I kept on smiling like a maniac, then a thought crossed my mind, what if he was lying? What if he was just pulling my legs, he is a bastard lying cheat, after all.
If only I could say it to his face,I will use today to confirm that he is not lying, if he does not come to my room tonight I will believe him.
I am really great full that Mrs Amira Issah moved here and she saved me without even knowing it thank you Mrs Amira Issah I am very great full I said to myself.