Luana
One month later
- It is a beautiful dress, Luana, but you don't seem to like it, or is it just me?
- It's beautiful, I just need to get used to my new reality. Bernardino will be my husband, he's good, honest, funny and an excellent friend.
Today is my wedding day and I keep thinking that I'm going to make a good person suffer because I can't love him as he deserves. This past month, Bernardino has been a wonderful man and friend but I still can't see him as anything more than that.
- Luana, I understand that it is not easy for you, you have been through a lot of bad things and you will have to live with this but you need to open your heart as hard as it may seem. My brother is overjoyed with this marriage, planning to live a lifetime with you, he is not afraid of the present and the future and doesn't even look to the past all the time. You should try to do the same, I will let you finish getting ready, try to see this marriage as an opportunity to be happy, there is no one else in this world who deserves it more than you.
I looked at my reflection in the mirror, I was wearing a simple white dress with a beautiful veil adorning my loose hair and a light makeup that I did myself, I didn't want anything that would draw too much attention to myself, I sat on my bed thinking about everything that had happened in my life, this was a moment of reflection with myself.
As hard as it was I needed to give a chance not only to him but also to myself, I forced myself to believe that I couldn't be happy and that for the harm done to me I was reserved to be alone but I don't want to live like that. The only person who deserves to suffer for what happened is Caetano Pacino and not me. It doesn't seem fair, just me suffering for something that was not my fault, I come out of my thoughts when I see my mama entering the room with the beautiful smile on her face.
- Daughter, are you ready?
- Yes, Mom, I'm ready!
I gave her a confident smile, knowing the great happiness she felt to see her youngest daughter getting married, it would be a simple ceremony with only a few guests, Bernardino was smiling at everyone but when he saw me going to where he was he became serious even so it was possible to see the brightness in his eyes, he held my hand firmly as we stood face to face with the priest at an altar set up in the back garden of the mansion.
- We are gathered here today to concretize the union of these young people in holy matrimony, marriage is much more than the union of two people different from each other but it is the union of two hearts that love each other and want to live together. Marriage is not something easy, so keep in mind that there will be moments that both of you will want to give up, but love, understanding, and patience should be the links of union between the two of you.
The priest joined our hands with a rosary made of pearls that was certainly very beautiful. Everyone was moved by the priest's speech, but I was thinking about what he had said about God. I didn't really believe that He would call me after all that had happened to me but I needed to believe that maybe God had put Bernardino in my path to change my life.
- Romeo Bernardino, do you take Luana Vitorino to be your lawfully wedded wife to protect, love, and cherish in the joys and sorrows of life until death do you part?
Bernardino directed his gaze next to mine, saying his yes to me with just that look, and then his yes sounded loud and clear for all to hear.
- Luana Vitorino, do you take Romeo Bernardino to be your lawful wedded husband to love and respect all the days of your life?
- Yes!
Unlike Bernardino, I didn't have the courage to look at him, bowing my head in shame for not being able to correspond to the feeling he had for me.
- By the powers vested in me by the Roman Catholic Apostolic Church, I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride, my boy!
Bernardino joined his lips to mine in a tender kiss, I had only been kissed in this way by Nathanael but with Caetano it was always a forced kiss where there was nothing but fear and dread at not doing it the way the monster took pleasure in. Bernardino caressed my face and hugged me while we heard the applause and celebrations from everyone, he came close to my ear whispering to me.
- I know you don't have love for me yet, but my love will be enough for both of us! I love you, Luana!
I didn't want to hurt him or seem boring by insisting on something that would hurt him, so I just returned the hug, trying not to think about how my life would be from now on.
The party was in the living room of the mansion Bernardino and dinner would be served soon after the congratulations, greeted the few guests accompanied by Bernardino who smiled and drank with everyone, Cecilia was adapting very well to the new life making the difference as it was expected to be successor of the great lady Bernardino, all of the mafia here in a short time already admired Cecilia Bernardino for his intelligence, sweetness, insight and kindness.
We were all at the dinner table when we heard a noise coming from the living room, it was Camilo Alvares accompanied by some soldiers and a beautiful woman, probably one of his many girlfriends.
- You little whore, is this time to arrive at my wedding? You missed the priest's blessing, you excommunicate!
- Romeo, my dear, I couldn't bear to see a soldier so valiant in the art of eating pussy being slaughtered so I decided to come only in the part of the party to eat and drink, you know me. Now let me see the beautiful Luana, ex-murderer and his fiancée.
Camilo measured me from head to toe and I could see the way his lustful eyes changed direction to look at my sister-in-law while he was holding Melina in his arms.
- It's really a waste for both the groom and the bride but anyway, at least I can eat, drink and admire your beautiful sister, Romeo! When you told me about the beautiful black rose you could never have thought that she would be your missing sister, how small this world is, isn't it my friend?
Bernardino stood next to his niece and sister, pulling me by the waist to be close to him, a clear gesture of protection and jealousy. He might have been a friend of Camilo's, but one scoundrel knows another scoundrel.
- Of course, Colombian! Cecilia is my sister and Luana is now my wife, so put away those dirty thoughts about them, you are my friend and as such you know how I am.
Camilo raised his hands in a sign of redemption as if he was only joking, but I'm already too smart to know it's no joke. He did not desire me so much but with my sister-in-law, the situation was quite different, the Colombian wants Cecilia and I know that he did not bother a bit with Bernardino's warning.
- Rest assured, I would never disrespect your beautiful little sister, my friend, nor your beautiful wife, if you have not noticed I came here accompanied by this beautiful woman who I can not remember the name so you know that I would never go beyond the sign with you.
- I will believe you, Camilo! After all, today is a day for a party, not for arguing about how I'll rip your balls off if you make a joke of the women in my family. Come to the table, dinner will be served soon.
During dinner, everyone was excited and happy about the wedding, I tried not to think too much about what would come after this party after all Bernardino will want me to fulfill my obligations as a wife and I certainly will not know how to act.
I know I won't be able to deny it, but I really don't know if I'm ready to have sex with him yet. As the hours passed, the mansion was emptying, making me more apprehensive, Bernardino was a little euphoric because of the drink, which increased my fear even more.
- Little daughter, we are going! Cecilia, Cecilia and I are going to sleep in our house so that you can have some privacy. Tomorrow we'll be back to help you pack for your honeymoon, I'm very happy to know that I gave my daughter to a good and honest man, your brother and your father would be proud of you.
To see my mother happy was already worth any sacrifice, losing the man she loves and her son was very hard for her. Mama deserved the happiness of seeing me married even if she's not so sure about my union with Bernardino. Cecilia also approached me while Melina slept in her arms, in my sister-in-law I have a friend and confidant so I listened to her advice.
- Romeo is my brother but before that he is a good man, give him a chance but also give yourself a chance!
I looked toward the door as I watched Bernardino say goodbye to Camilo. I was so afraid for what was to come that I said goodbye to Cecilia and Melina with a sweet kiss hugging my mom very tight as if I wanted to be that little 5 year old girl who hid in her arms in fear but I was no longer that little girl now I am a woman who needed to face adult life.
I went up the stairs to go to the room that would be ours, the place was full of rose petals and a bucket of ice with a bottle of champagne, I was very nervous and in the act of madness I grabbed one of the glasses filling it to the brim with liquor, as the minutes passed the more anxious I became.
I ended up drinking three glasses and I could already feel the effect of the drink in my body, I'm not used to drinking so the champagne went faster to my head. In the fourth glass that I drank, Bernardino appeared, he was holding a glass of liquor in his hand and as soon as he saw me barefoot, without the veil and with the bottle of champagne by my side he became serious, perhaps not believing that I was drinking.
- I know it took me a while, but Camilo started to be patient enough to come here next week to talk business, he said he had a very advantageous proposal for me but I already told him I won't be in town for the next few days, I apologize for making you wait, this night is ours!
He slowly took off his clothes, standing in front of me in his underwear when he finished explaining his delay. I had to drink another glass to calm my nervousness, I'm really not ready to have sex with my husband.
Bernardino calmly approached me, I couldn't move away as if I were trapped in some kind of mental spell cast by his gaze.
- I can't believe you're finally mine, Luana, I imagine you have no idea how I feel when I'm near you, I'm a little anxious and even nervous to be here in front of you I must confess!
I kept quiet just listening to my husband say those things that seemed so sincere and beautiful, his hands went to the zipper of the dress that was under my right arm, gently removing my clothes, leaving my lingerie exposed to his eyes.
- I want to go slow with you, my moon! I know that all you know about sex is something connected to violence and pain, but I want to show you that with me you will have only pleasure.
- It's alright!
He put my cup and his drinking glass on top of the shelf where the ice bucket was, surprising me with a strong hug. Bernardino is much bigger than I am, so much so that my head went to his chest where it was possible to hear his heart beating strongly, he was really anxious like me.
- I know you are afraid, Moon. I am also afraid because I know that you may never love me as I love you but trust me and what I can give you, I promise you that if you feel pain or any discomfort we will stop immediately. I want you to feel good and not uncomfortable with something that should only give you pleasure!
His hands went straight to my bra strap taking off my panties soon after, leaving me naked in front of him, Bernardino moved away a little to look at me as if he was admiring my body, it was impossible not to be amused.
- Don't look at me like that, Bernardino, I'm getting embarrassed.
He laughed loudly, coming closer to me again and giving me a strong hug. I felt it when he came closer to my neck, feeling the perfume he wore lingering there for a long time, kissing my neck.
- I'm admiring you, my moon! You shouldn't be embarrassed, you're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.
I don't know if it was the drink or the very sincere compliment, but when he kissed me I responded with the same intensity, allowing Bernardino to touch my body and bring my intimacy closer to his obvious erection.
I closed my eyes expecting a sudden invasion like the times Caetano abused me but what I felt was totally different I had to open my eyes to see what he was doing, Romeo was between my legs kissing my thighs while looking at my intimacy, he stroked and kissed my thighs giving me sensations never felt before.
Suddenly he stopped going to the bookcase getting an ice and putting it in my mouth, he returned to the bed getting again between my legs was when I felt his tongue in my intimacy, the feeling of having something cold there gave me goose bumps all over and it was possible to feel the cold and at the same time the heat coming from his tongue while his fingers entered and left my entrance in a delightful back and forth movement.
I had never felt this in my entire life, and it was certainly everything I had never imagined it would be. The pleasure that Bernardino gave me was something I never thought I would ever feel in my life so much so that I only realized he was rubbing his member against my pussy when I felt his hands smoothing the sides of my thighs.
- I need to feel you, but I want you to tell me if you're in pain or if there's anything bothering you, please ask me to stop!
I took a deep breath trying not to think about the times Caetano had touched me always being wild and rough focusing only on this moment with my husband who cared about me, all the time watching over and caring about my pleasure so when I felt his member entering me I just gave a low moan for the first time having the sensation of pleasure as Bernardino entered and exited me calmly but still there was firmness in his movements, I caught myself wanting more of him, to feel that I was really having pleasure with him. I pulled on his waist and entwined my legs around his so that he could go deeper and faster, and I felt my pussy contract around his cock.
- If you keep doing this, I'm going to cum!
- I can't help it, keep going, please!
I found myself begging for more, feeling a strange but at the same time delicious sensation in my belly, my moans, which had been low before, were now loud, making my husband as excited as I was.
- Are you okay, Moon?
- Yes, I didn't imagine it would be this good and pleasurable at the same time! What happens after today?
Bernardino put my head on his chest and lovingly petted my hair while he just enjoyed that moment.
- Well, let's live one day at a time, I said I was going to win you over and I've already started to do that today when I took you as my own with the passage of time I will make you love me like I love you.
Romeo seemed so convinced that I would love him that I didn't want to say anything more and just closed my eyes enjoying his caresses and having to admit that today he conquered much more than he imagined.