It was Slyvester that give a name to my insatiable hunger for sex and over the years, I have read up on it but yet to find any solution. All the articles online pointed to therapy but made it very clear that nymphomania is incurable. I have come to a place of acceptance of this fact and I have made up my mind that once I get to New York, I would start therapy so I could manage it better. After finding out that Mum and Uncle Ron were cheating on Dad, I tried to blame her for my condition but now I am finding out that she wasn't cheating with the man. In fact the only time she cheated, she cheated with Joseph, Daddy's lover and that was why they were fighting. There was a sense of relief when I thought that mum gave me the disease. There was someone to blame and hate instead of myself. But now that I knew it was never from her, I felt lost and confused.
At one point, I concluded that it was because I wasn't conceived in the right and natural way and by the time it was dark, I decided to stick to that conclusion. This made me feel better. And broken. Like a toy faulty from the factory.
I got into my car and made a U-Turn. My phone was still ringing but completely ignored. I travelled for 45 mins at 80kh before I realized how far I had driven. Not one used to driving long distances, I was already at my fastest but an hour after and I was still nowhere near home, I started getting worried. I have never been out at night, alone at such a long distance. The farthest I have ever travelled alone was the 20 minutes ride to town. It was already around 9pm when I stumbled on a has station. My gas was down by half anyway so I refilled my car and asked about the area. It was another hour away from home and I was tired, madly needed to masturbate and really not ready to go home. I doubted if I would ever be ready to go home again. How was I going to face Dad and Mum?
I asked for the nearest town or village around. I was pointed to one that was just off the main road by the right side of the road. I ate a quick meal and bought things I could need for the night then turned off the road exactly where the sales boy told me. Less than ten minutes later and I was in a small single street, farmers' town. It looked like some western cowboy movie set. But it was quite familiar not because I have been there before but because we also have something like this on our land. This place is more a village than a town because it is one of the backyard exits of a large farmland.
Not everybody can access a large land through the main gate. So places like this are built at the other exits with a bar, houses for the guards and some of the staff and a small market where the women can sell their produce. There is a small school for staff kids and other kids in the area, a church and even a small mall at our own gates.
Since it was a replica of all other farmland backyard exits, I knew my way around. I went to where the noise was the loudest after parking my car and as expected, it was the bar stroke motel reception. And as expected, my entrance generated some hoots and whistles. At this moment, I was regretting not picking Liam's calls. I even contemplated getting in my car and getting out of there but that wasn't a choice I could make at that moment. I G-spot wouldn't let me.
I got a room using my card and exited the place immediately as I was scared. I have always been scared of the crowd. Especially When it is made up of men. They are always leering and smirking the creepiest way possible. Meeting a stranger's gaze gives me the creeps. Like some slimy things are moving all over my body.
Getting to my room, I tried my best to sleep after three rounds of masturbation using my bullet but no matter what I did, I was deprived of sleep. Around 12pm, I decided to face my fear. For the first time, I decided to approach a total stranger. Way I saw it, considering the things happening in my home, sleeping with random men shouldn't be a big deal. I don't think anything I do from now onward could ever outdo what dad and mum had done over the years. So why not have a free fall?
Even though I have never been to a bar alone before, I have read enough novels and watched enough films to know that all I had to do was sit at the bar and a man will ask to buy my drink. That was exactly what I did and soon, a scruffy looking thing came and joined me. Just like in the movies, he asked to buy my drink but I declined. I was desperate for a dick to enter me but that doesn't mean I have no standards. The guy looked like he would have lice on him. There is no way I would let something that dirty and smelly come near me.
Just as I was about to leave since the smelly man decided to order and have his drink beside me, a guy in his 18 or so walked up to me and smiled a sexy, lopsided smirk at me. "At last!" was what came to mind. It was clear that he was young but worldly.
"Seeing that you already have a drink, what if you wait for me to get a drink of my own and we can share a table together instead of drinking alone." He said to me with a sexy drawl. "Or we get out of here once your drink is ready." I winked then looked straight into his eyes, letting him see all the pent up desire I could reveal.
"Wow! Cool. That is also good my lady." He replied, almost jumping. Seems like the law has no say in a place such as this because instead of a pint, a glass or a shot of any drink, the boy asked for a whole bottle of vodka and it was instantly placed in a brown paper bag and handed to him. "Shall we?" he asked me and pretending to know what I was doing, I climbed down my tall stool and elegantly walked out of the bar with several men hoots and whistles accompanying every step. The bar's counter to the door was the longest distance I have ever walked. If I could, I would have disappeared. I was thoroughly embarrassed.
Once we got outside, it was as if I left all my confidence at the bar because I started questioning my decision to let a total stranger have sex with me but no matter how much I question myself, the itch between my legs made sure I went ahead with this ridiculous arrangement. So I shut down that fear and grabbed his free hand. We then proceeded to my room.