"Ngh... Jaxon, slower— ahh!"
I covered my mouth and quickly hid behind the wall. I forced my two palms to cover my mouth so that even the wind would not make any noise. Jaxon was sharp in everything and I was afraid that he could hear my heartbeat.
'What the hell...' The thirst I felt was gone and the scenario I accidentally caught was worse than any dry throat I was feeling.
Helene was laid on the table while Jaxon was thrusting inside her. He took the water and poured it into her mouth— mouth to mouth like a ravish beast that was craving its prey.
That was all I witnessed but it was like a mantra that Jaxon's every move played over and over again in my mind. It took my reverie, and because I didn't want to see what would happen next, I hurriedly ran.
I ran like I was a criminal who did a hideous crime and as soon as I took my first step, I stumbled.
I tried to stand up again but it was only followed by another trip. My knees turned to jelly, my whole body shook with shock. The tears I was trying to hold back earlier formed in the corners of my eyes and later on dripped with big beads.
I desperately wiped those pitiful hot water and tried to stand up again but it seemed that the game of life did not want to play with me because I tripped again.
"Fuck you, Veronica! What's wrong with you!" I punched my legs one after another because they didn't have the strength and my knee was hurting as it hit the edges of each step of the stairs. "Fuck! Fuck! Shit!”
My tears did not stop falling while I continued to punch my legs. 'When did I become this fragile? I am Veronica Silva, an Alpha female! So... why?'
As my heart was wailing, a soft voice spoke.
"Do you need some help, Princess?"
I slowly looked up at the leg in front of me towards the face of its owner—and when I discovered who he was, I wanted to hurl different words at him because I was torn between whether to believe he was my savior at this time or blame him for why mislead information crammed into my mind about where Jaxon was.
"What are you doing here?" he asked and squatted in front of me.
Due to my blurry vision from the tears and the dim surroundings, I was unable to see his face well. I narrowed my eyes for a while and forced my hands to be raised to grab his collar. After that, I pushed myself to pronounce the prohibited word after giving it some thought because it had never occurred to me to ask him.
"Why did you tell me that he was visiting Caroline instead telling me that—"
"Didn't you tell me that you had no wish to know?" He questioned back and shrugged. "There is only one thing you stated that I assumed you were certain of—that you didn't care—regardless of whether I told the truth or not."
My hold on his collar gradually relaxed. Right... No matter what transpired between Jaxon and I, I had to tell myself that it wasn't our place. 'Will I still be shocked by Helene's role in his life given that I should already be aware of it?'
"Princess," Uriel called me again and I was astonished when he abruptly hoisted me like a bride after I entirely released my hand from his collar.
I didn't argue because, first of all, I was exhausted. Second, if Jaxon saw us, he wouldn't be upset. Nothing was a concern for me.
Nothing...
I was speaking to myself incoherently because even though I no longer believed in the phrases I wanted to believe myself, it appeared that those were just words and had no other meaning.
As Uriel walked back into my chamber with me in his arms, I couldn't help but think it was him, a White Shining Armor that everyone dreamed of. A man who would save the woman he loved while she was in danger. The distinction, I was not in peril— I was just in danger of falling completely into the hollow void where I was serving my dark love for the only Alpha I could ever love.
In the middle of my thoughts, Uriel's voice brought me back to my consciousness, "The Alpha ordered me to tell you that reason, as his Beta, it is my responsibility to convey his words."
"..." I didn't answer what he said; instead, I buried my face in his chest like a child and let my hot tears flow. I didn't care if he would feel and notice them, I just wanted to release the pain and hope that died.
"Princess, we've known each other for a long time and I've always worried about you from then until now so..." he tightened his grip on my arm while his voice weakened. "You and Morgan don't belong here."
Only then did I calm myself down. It was timing that we were in front of the door, so I tried to get off his arm, and faced him.
“But you are the reason why Jaxon accepted me into this pack. You stood and served as my proof that Morgan is indeed his son."
"And that was my big mistake."
I frowned at what he said and even though I wanted to ask what he meant, I didn't do it. Watching Jaxon make out with Helene after we did "that" a while ago was enough for me for the day. I couldn't take it anymore if something else would reveal to me now.
I just sighed and didn't wipe the dried tears from my cheeks. I nodded and had no intention of listening to what he had to say next.
And thankfully, he didn't even bother anymore. He just watched me turn my back on him.
"And anyway—" When I turned around again to say something, he was immediately gone from behind me.
I wanted to tell him not to mention it to Jaxon but... forget it.
I wandered my eyes once more and observed the darkness. Suddenly, I felt my weariness as I fondled the tips of my fingers.
'I had never been weak like this before...' I thought in my heart and vulnerably carried my body to the door.
Nonetheless, as I was about to close the door, I was startled by the hand that aggressively prevented it from shutting.