My alarm went off and I had to literarily drag myself out of bed, I'm glad today is the last day of work, I finally reached the bathroom and I took a long hot bathe, that did the trick, I was feeling a bit like myself again, I got dressed and ready for work. I looked at my bed and it looked like a slug bear had seizure on it, my sheets were wet and it had a few holes in it l, I should clip my toe nails soon, I made my bed and left my room.
"Good morning mom." I greeted as I sat on the dining table, breakfast was already served.
"Morning dear how are you?"
"Fine." I tried to say but my voice came out low, shaky and hoarse.
"What the... What's wrong with your voice?"
"I think I'm using it too hard, that screaming did something to my voice."
"I'll call the doctor and tell him what's going on, he'll tell us what to do."
"Okay." Mom called the doctor and I sat patiently waiting for her to give me feedback.
"Okay thank you doctor." Mom said. She hung up and turned to me.
"Dear, the doctor said you should not speak for the next twenty four hours, you need to rest your vocal cords."
"How w-i-ll I do t-h-a-t? I h-a-a-ve work to-d-ay." I tried to say but my voice broke as I spoke.
"No more speaking got it, send a text to your boss telling him you have a really bad cold and your throat hurts." Mom advised, I think this is my perfect day off, my throat really does hurt.
I took out my phone and texted my boss and waited for his reply.
Bull: so because you have a cold you want to skip work? Unbelievable.
Me: the doctor said I shouldn't use my voice for the next twenty four hours, if you still want me to come to work despite that, I will.
Bull: whatever but this is coming out of your pay check.
Me: but sir...
Bull: end of discussion.
Me: okay sir.
I can't believe this man, gosh.
"What did he say? Oh no wait don't speak, type it in your phone I'll read it."
He said its coming out of my paycheck I typed into my phone and gave it to her.
She read it "that man is impossible, anyways eat your breakfast and go rest." She said as she handed me my phone back.
Dad joined us and I ate my egg sauce and bread with tea as slowly as I could because my throat hurts a lot. Every bite causing me to flinch and whimper, my eyes even started to water.
"Honey are you okay?" Mom asked as looked up at me in concern, mom filled him in on what happened and what the doctor said, I put my hand on my throat, letting her guess what's up with it.
"Your throat?" She said and I nodded.
"What's up with it? Does it hurt?" She asked and I nodded vigorously.
"It hurts a lot doesn't it? Especially when you eat right?" She asked and I nodded.
"Maybe we should go to the hospital for a check up and also I heard there is a girl being violated in a neighborhood in Gwarimpa so I have to go see what's going on, I am still one of the members of girls voices team and I was thinking if you would come with."
"How will she come with when she can't speak?" Dad asked.
"She can speak after twenty four hours which is tomorrow and that's when I have to go see what's going on." She explained and I nodded.
"You'll come with?" She asked and I nodded again, "that's great."
"Yeah and don't forget you are pregnant be careful please, I'm running late, thanks for the breakfast."
"No problem, later, bye." She said to dad and I just waved unable to speak.
I remember when mom first moved to this neighborhood.
Flashback
I walked back home, as I was reaching my house when I saw a car parked in the driveway of the house next to my house, I decided to mind my own business and I kept walking towards my house, as I reached my house, a woman came out of the house next to mine and politely greeted me.
"I am Mrs Amira Issah my husband and I just moved into this house that is apparently next to yours."
"I guess I just got myself a new neighbour," I told her with a sweet smile "my name is Axymah Adam, I live here with my step father."
"I would have loved to stay here and chat with you so we would have a good neighboring relationship but I have a lot of work, so till next time, said my new neighbour, okay bye."
"Have a nice day." She told me.
"You too." I replied her.
She then left and went back to her house, I entered my home not knowing what was awaiting me inside.
End of flashback
Did you move to the neighborhood because you heard I was being violated? I typed into my phone and handed it to her.
"No dear, I moved to this neighborhood for a change of scenery, when I then moved here I started hearing that you're being violated so I decided to help you, the first day I moved here, I didn't know you were violated."
Thank you for helping me, I'm very great full
"Its nothing dear, I'm glad I never gave up on you, I wanted to the day you told me Mr Dario loves you but I didn't fortunately."
She said and I frowned a bit at the memory
Flashback
I heard the door bell ring,maybe my step father is home,oh no!! I have not even made lunch yet.
I walked slowly to the front door,I opened the door expecting to see my step father but instead I saw Mrs Amira, what could she want now?
"Good afternoon Mrs Amira."
"Afternoon dear,how are you feeling now?"
"I am better thank you."
"You are welcome."
"Can I come in?"
"No."
"Okay..., can I ask you something?"
"Yes of course.
"Why did you scream yesterday?"
"Well you see...uhm...I...well the reason is because i slept off and i was having a bad dream that was why I screamed,in the afternoon."
"It was in the evening"
"What?" She asked confused, now I think I'm pretty sure she is lying.
"It was in the evening you collapsed, yesterday evening." I explained to her.
"Oh yes, of course, slip of tongue."
"Yes!! Is there a specific time that one can have a bad dream."
"I guess not, there are chances of bad dreams whenever one sleeps, or take a nap in the evening."
"So why did you say I should not touch you even after you woke up? You said that I betrayed you, I want to know why you said all of those things to me." She said and I have no idea what lie to tell her so I just tried to avoid the question.
"What exactly are you trying to say?"
"Is your step dad hurting you in any way?"
"No he is not, why would he?"
"Axymah I need you to tell me the truth please."
"You know because you accused him of doing all of those things to me does not make it true, I did not say anything about it yesterday, not because what you said is true because it is not, I kept quiet because I did not want to cause a scene,my step father also kept quiet because of the same thing, now you are here for what reason exactly."
"I want to know if he is abusing you or not."
"I will answer you."
"That's good, I'm listening
"He is not abusing me he is my step father for goodness sake!!,my step father loves me and he cares for me so much, he can not even bear to see me in pain talk less of him abusing me, he cares for me a lot more than you can imagine I have just answered your question so now you can leave."
I was about to shut the door when she asked me.
"If it is true,if what you are saying is really true, if he really is not abusing you then why?"
"Why what?"
"He gave you tattered clothes to wear, he never let you out of this house only when necessary, you walk to school with your legs apart, you look starved and enslaved, how is that love?"
"He loves me, he does not let me out of the house to protect me."
"Protect you from what? I went to the gathering and I collapsed, if I did not go then that would not have happened."
"If that is the case then he should be protecting you from what made you scream, what really made you scream, your nightmares!! And the tattered clothes, why do you wear tattered clothes to school?"
"I wear it because it is my choice."
"Really?"
"Yes, there is no need to waste money on clothes."
"Why do you walk with your legs apart?"
"Everyone has different ways they walk, I can walk any how I like,I can even walk like an imbecile if I like."
"Okay one last thing."
"What?"
"You ask me not to touch you yesterday, you told me I betrayed you you told..."
"What you are saying does not make any sense Mrs Amira, why would I tell you that? Why would I say that to you?" I denied it even though it is true.
"That is what I want to know from you?"
"If I am asking you then why are you asking me? What answers do you want me to give you? What do you want me to tell you?"
"The truth, tell me the truth Axymah."
"I just told you the truth, my step father is not abusing me."
"Okay I will pretend as though I believe you Axymah."
"Okay Mrs Amira."
"You know you can call me Amira."
"Okay but I prefer to call you Mrs Amira."
"Okay as you wish but just know you can..."
"Good bye Mrs Amira." I said and slammed the door on her face.
End of flashback.
I was a real fool, I should have allowed you to help me, I thought you would betray me like the other people that promised they will help me did.
"Its okay dear, you were helpless, Dario will be caught soon."
Let's live our lives normally like we did five years ago.
"As you wish my love." Mom said and hugged me tight.
I stood up and went to my room, I need to initiate operation catch the mole soon, but first I need to rest first, my head is starting to hurt, looks like I have to be quiet for a day, its better than being voiceless for over two years.