6 Months Later:-
I was sitting on the rooftop, gazing at the stars. I smiled a little as I stared at them. I am much skinnier now. I feel so empty now. I felt too numb to even comprehend a beautiful thing. My Shy and Optimistic nature had been replaced by a cold and void one. Like, I am in a bottomless pit. And I am falling deeper and deeper into that abyss. I felt like my soul was being tormented over and over again. I have lost my strength.
I want to release myself from this agony. Last month, I tried to free myself by cutting my wrist and surprisingly, It felt good. This physical pain is far more pleasurable than my mental torture. My mind is being tormented endlessly. I am losing hope by each passing second. I am stuck in the maze of anguish; filled with doubts. If I love him that much, then, Why did I let him go? Desmond took my will to live with him. Breaking the little part which was only left. Desmond was right, It will break me...
I went downstairs for dinner. I sat down and stared at my food. I stared at it for a long time.
"Ester.." Mother called as I shot my head up at her.
"Yes?" I asked in my usual soft tone.
"Dear... Eat." She said as I looked down at the untouched food.
"I am not hungry..." I said as I got up.
"Miss Ester," Sarah said, Miss, right. That's what I am. Miss Ester Willows. Just how many dreams I had. And he broke them one by one. A divorced woman whose ex-husband hadn't even kissed her lips. I just want to cry at my misfortune. How many times will I be tested?
"Miss?" Sarah called again, dragging me out of my thoughts, I turned my head towards her and asked her,
"What is it?"
"Mr and Mrs Corte have come to visit you." I close my eyes for a second.
"Okay... I am coming." I said.
"Are you sure?" Father asked as I nodded and went to the drawing-room.
"Good Evening. What brings you here Mr Corte?" I said, my voice was void of any emotions.
"Ester... Please help us..." Mrs Corte sobbing. I raised both of my eyebrows in confusion.
"How?" I said.
"Only you can save him. Please We beg you. Please, Ester. Save him..." Mr Corte cried this time. My throat dried in dread.
"You are scaring me. Please tell me.." I said in a vague tone.
"Desmond... A few days ago.. He tried to commit suicide...he poisoned himself ... They're saying he's mentally unstable and if this remains... They'll take him to a mental asylum... Please... He can't live with you... Save him.." Mrs Corte said between the sobs.
I gulped and exhaled. My lips began to tremble. I let out a convulsed gasp. My mind went blank. I lost my senses as I stood still.
You have suffered without me just as much I have suffered without you...
Without caring for a thing, I grabbed the keys of my car and drove to Desmond's home. I entered and went to his room. My eyes widened when I saw a portrait of mine in that black dress. It's an extremely large portrait. I looked around the room. It was filled with my pictures which I never knew he had ever taken. The room is a total mess. My heart ached as I took a step closer to the portrait. I looked at it sadly. Just how much you have suffered? I covered my mouth as I walked down the stairs. Savannah came to me as I asked her,
"Where's Desmond?" I said.
"Sir is in the music room." I nodded and turned to leave but, Savannah stopped me,
"Please don't go Ma'am. Sir is very violent when he is drunk." She said in a scared tone.
"I am his Subjugation " I smiled at her as I left the music room.
Today, I realized, nothing can overcome my love for you.
I opened the door and went inside.
"GET LOST!" Desmond said in a completely drunk tone.
"Desmond... It's alright... It's me.." Desmond looks at me. He was holding the flute I gave him. He was utterly in a state of devastation. His hair is messy. His shirt's buttons are opened, revealing his toned chest. His shirt is tucked out of his pants. And the room is in a complete mess. My heart broke looking at him like that. He narrowed his eyes at me and said,
"Ester..?" I took a step towards him.
"It's me," I said as a tear rolled onto my cheek.
"Please go away. You'll leave me again." He said in a broken tone as he put his hand over his eyes and leaned back. I went closer and put my hands over his and removed his hands over his eyes.
"Please..." Desmond said as tears brimmed in his eyes. My shaky lips formed a smile as tears rolled onto my cheek without any control over them. I bend on my knees. Without breaking the stare, I gave his hands a gentle squeeze. His eyes are filled with immense depression and unfathomable despair. So are mine.
We continued to look at each other as our silence screamed the loud cries of endless suffering.
"You will leave me..." Desmond said almost in a breathless tone.
I smiled as I pulled my hands away and put my head in his laps. I closed my eyes.
"I can't leave the love of my life.." I whispered as tears fell.