It was the worst weekend of my life. I was locked in my room the whole time. I didn't want to meet her or argue with anyone, let alone look Enzo in the face. I barely eat. I barely talked like all of them.
And when we got back home, I came quietly. I didn't even say a word. And when he spoke, I'd just shake my head or smile.
"Do I need to ask you if yesterday's event had ever happened before? I'll swing my head that I do. "I saw it in a dream and found it strange. But I didn't talk to him, I was to hurt. I didn't want to argue anymore or fight. And why talk about what happened? He wouldn't believe it. He'd just think she's right. I'm wrong. Because he jumped in the water and saved her and not me.
But it's okay, I put my hand in my womb and took a deep breath, remembering every moment I've lived well with him and every time we fight, every time we promised we'd try to make it work.
For sure today I'm here again looking for answers and looking for a way out so I can get out of this marriage, and I can't, I keep saying I want to leave, but it seems like something holds me. I know it's the love I feel for Enzo, but I can't let that love destroy me, that makes me think only of him.
I need to think about my baby. That's when I made that decision and I had to talk to my mom. It was our moment. After all the disastrous weekend, I come to the hospital to visit my mother and I needed both a hug, a conversation, or a cuddle that I was tired of talking to people who just say.
"Try to understand and do everything to make it work, you need him, he needs you, he's lost his memory."
I want someone who really love me. That's the real one.
I come and hug and she smiles holding my hand was with weak breath and I sit next to her and thinking how much she was suffering from this damn disease.
"But my daughter is seeing that you are very downcast. What happened?
"Then, Mom, I'm so discouraged. Then I don't know what else to do. Enzo every day is different, and it makes me sick to see him like this. It's so hard for us to relationship.
"But what do you mean, daughter? After everything you've been through and now you need to see what's best for you.
"And you know what makes me sadder? It's his indifference. Oh! as for me. It's okay that he forgot me. But he's so cold to me, I try to take him to the wedding, but it's so hard, it's so complicated our relationship.
"But you have sat down and talked, and you have to press it and put an end to this suffering.
"We've talked about this, we've talked and we're going to get divorced, after you get out of here, I want to have a new life, you know? I want to start over, take care of myself, and let him live his life. He chose that. She passes her hands in my hair and shakes my hand. "I can't make you like me.
"No, child, easy. You're right about that. You need to have your life and you can't live anyone's life. She started saying and I saw her sad. "You need to think of yourself. Be selfish right now. I breathe and I said it all and I kept looking at how hurt she was. "I thought a lot about the man, and I just got screwed. Be different and I don't want you to be like me.
"It's Mom, that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to wait for you to get out of here and we're going to go out inland. I'm going to start my life over away from all this. Away from the troubled Enzo. I'm very tired of all this.
"Yes, my child. And you deserve to be happy. Because she's a sweet, struggling girl, and that's what my dear thinks is positive. You have to do what's best for you. And not thinking about him or anyone else. Think of yourself. And remember, be selfish when it comes to your happiness.
Yes, Mom...
"You understand if you're not happy, you're not satisfied the way you're living, so don't stay and I'll be on your side, we'll go inland together and start over.
"I need to leave because today I took the day off, but tomorrow I'm going to have a tiring day and I'm going to sort out a few things. And get well soon.
"Go with God, dear.
Leaving the hospital after I fired my mother thinking about everything that happened and that I had already just decided and when I crossed the street, I saw that a man followed me, I looked again and he stood at the point as if he was waiting for the bus. But I'm sure you don't. He was after me. I think I see something. I must be a little distressed and that must be it. I looked again and it still continued at the bus stop.
I went my way. And he didn't come after him. At least I didn't see it anymore I went into the baby store and started buying some things and so I also thought of something else, I was not thinking about Enzo or that slut Cecilia and I was going to think only of me, I spent my hand in my womb and bought some things still having cell phone and seeing that it was going to start raining.
"Gee, Carol, I thought you weren't going to call me today. I walked slowly.
"Gee, girlfriend, this company is crazy. I'm so sure you're off duty. Because this is really crazy. You have no notion. Look at the customers complaining, the projects being rejected, Enzo Bravo already yelled in the room and called you about three times, I said you were off duty, he shook his head and then he got that ass face.
"He is just like that. But tell me if everything worked out? yes, what happened, I want to see if you don't want to go to dinner with me. So, I don't get home too early. I'm so tired and I don't want to be alone.
Of course, my friend. I'll leave my groceries at home and then we'll meet. Is that all right?
Yes, I’m sorry. Then we go out to dinner, talk, you tell me what happened over the weekend, so Enzo is in that bad mood.
"I don't even want to think about Enzo, but we'll talk.
I took my groceries, and I was leaving when I lowered my face to put the phone inside my bag that I lifted and I came face to two men.
I kept looking at them and not understanding anything there with their legs wobbly and burning their tears wanting to roll. I look again and I'm looking for a way out.
Looking at the two men like this staring at me looking badly, I still take a deep breath and look into their eyes again. I didn't understand much, is it because they were surrounding me? I trembled and had only one impulse.
Evil was in their faces. I threw all my baby's packages on him. And I ran out and looked back and ran so hard. I didn't understand much and kept looking for answers, but I only had legs to run and even without strength.
I look back again trying to see if he was coming towards me, I took a deep breath and ran as fast as I could run and everyone looking at me, I am holding the little bag in my hand, that's when I was going to hide in
a shop and they behind me and I was standing by a strong arm held me hugging me as if he knew me as if he wanted to protect me from all that, there he looked into my eyes and saw his bright clear eyes and smiled.
The strong arms and the pectoral defined, took a deep breath and I lost there when I try to return to the real world I hear his thick voice hoarse on my face.
"Is everything all right, lady? Breathe.
He hugged me hard and I look back I see that the men were no longer, and I feel safe, and he says again. "Calm down.
- I was chased by two men and I don't know who they are.
"Calm down, they've gone, and I saw that they were running after you. He passed his hand on my hair and said, "Calm down. I'm going to help you. I'm Noah, but my name is Noah.
"I'm Valentina.
"Sit here and calm down and tell me everything. But come on, you're very nervous, you're shaking.
"They wanted to rob me, do something to me. I threw all my stuff on him, and I ran so much. I trembled and felt like pissing through the legs of so much fear and when I sat down, I laughed nervously. "I'm legs tight, I almost fall.
"Calm down, breathe, breathe, come. We're going to sit here in this café and so we talk, breathe, and look at me, I'm here. I'm going to help you.
He's very caring and kind, worrying about me without knowing me.
"Please, two coffees and two waters. So, tell me what happened? It's only natural that you're like this until I got scared.
I don't know, I don't know. I have a totally destroyed life. Everything in my life goes wrong. I'm having too much of a time.
"As it happened and stay calm that passed.
" I was coming with the packages the things I bought for my baby, and I got a fright when they stopped in front of me. And I didn't wait, I threw everything on them in fear.
"Someone had it done for sure because if it was a robbery, he would have taken your purse.
- I'm afraid I’m going to come home and happen again.
"I'm going to take you home. And then you'll be safe and tell me where you live.
"I've been tied up my whole life. I don't even know what to do. The only thing I've been doing lately is crying.
We so much like we knew each other for so long, he has a different conversation from all the men I've met and the best he hasn't even asked about my private life. I, who am too needy, already go out telling everything and still stare at him with a offered look. We both went out talking in the streets and we walked to the aparthotel, and he made me laugh and told me about his work and Me looking at how kind and beautiful he was.
We arrived at the door of the building, and I was embarrassed because I didn't want anyone to see it with him because of Enzo. And I stop and he smiles.
"You've been wonderful to me, Noah. But you're always around.
"I work in the back street.
"Really? I live here and when you come through here again, we have another coffee.
"And so, you thank me more calmly. I try to hide the surprise by the invitation. "What do you think?
"Of course, I did, and it was a pleasure.
"Do you mind if I get your phone number to make sure everything's okay with you?
Of course, I do. He gave me his number and gave me a beautiful smile in the middle of the sidewalk. And he hugged me and squeezes me. And I feel safe with him, and I smiled and surprisingly he strokes my hair smiling and I'll say that beautiful smile.