After few hours, I finally came back to my senses and found myself in the bathroom. I was washing my face, I began to cry. The tears mingled easily with the cold water, in the luminous, dripping crimson of my cupped fingers, and at first I wasn't aware that I was crying at all. The sobs were regular and emotionless, as mechanical as the dry heaves which had stopped only a moment earlier; there was no reason for them, they had nothing to do with me. I brought my head up and looked at my weeping reflection in the mirror with a kind of detached interest. What does this mean? I thought. I looked terrible. Nobody else was falling apart; yet here I was, shaking all over and seeing bats like Ray Milland in The Lost Weekend.
A cold draft was blowing in the window. I felt shaky but oddly refreshed. I ran out of the bathroom when I got out. I took the first-Aid kit and begin bandaging my knee. Every part of my body hurts. I took couple of pills to fell relief but relief word was odd in my life.
I placed the first-aid box back in to the drawer and I decided to change clothes into something more comfortable.
But I found nothing in my closet, all my clothes were gone but don't know where? As I was thinking about it. I heard the knocked on the door and aunt Fiona opened the door and stepped inside my room.
I close the closet and spun on my heel to face her and she scanned me with her eyes from head to toe.
" How is your knee? she asked me.
" It's better than before." I replied.
" You haven't changed yet." she asked me. And I simply replied by saying that I didn't found my clothes in my closet.
" Oh, I have forgot to tell you. I packed your clothes when you weren't here."
" Why did you packed my clothes?" I asked her confusily.
" Girl, did you not know you are going with me?" she said and I have completely forgot about that part. Father is sending me aunt Fiona.
" I thought, you have come to change his mind."
" Why would I ever do that?After what you've done in the past. It is better for everyone that you leave them for their good. And after what you did tonight, I've never wanted to see Caden and Cassy that side of your And God knows whom you with was?." She said in a way to humiliate me.
" I wasn't with anyone and I am not going with you aunt. I can't leave Caden and Cassy alone."
" You have sharp tongue. Brother was right about you. And why didn't you care about Caden and Cassy when you ran away with that mere wolf. What was his name? Ah, Azelaic... yeah. Tell me, Aisling why didn't you thought about them?" she asked me but I have nothing to tell her. I have no answer for her.
I became silent not because I have no answer. I have a answer but they'll never understand it. They all are filled with hatred towards me. They aren't capable of understanding me..
" What happened to you? you have no answer for it. Stop playing this nice girl game Aisling. I don't believe it and stopped using your siblings for your own advantage. No wonder, why azelaic left you alone in that house because he saw your real filthy face."
Aunt's words were as sharp as a broken glass piece and it was cutting through my heart but I can't do much about it except from tolerate all this alone.
" Your siblings are much more safer with your father than you. And get ready we are leaving in a hour."
She begin to leave my room but I don't know where cassy was? I stopped her by asking about.
" Where is Caden and Cassy? I want to say goodbye to them." I asked her.
" They both are staying tonight to their friends house and when they will come back you will be not here." She smirked and walked away from my room, slamming the door shut.and when I lift my head to scream out my fury, a million stars turn black and die. No one can see them, but they are my tears. I sat down on the edge of the bed, and thought of going with aunt, making me extremely worried and I thought about talking to father one last time but I know, their will be no use because he already made up his mind.
And I was left with nothing but hope. A hope that I will come back and take Caden and Cassy with me away from my father to far away. Where no one knows us and weren't bind by my father.
I promised to myself that one day I will come back and give them everything they've deserve and that they have no longer to be afraid of my father.
Aunt Fiona returned to my room, with my clothes and she handed me it to changed the clothes.
" Get changed quickly, taxi is waiting for us and our bus will leave in hour so be fast. And don't try to play games with me. I am watching you. " she warned me and I nodded quietly. She left the room and I lowered my gaze to the clothes in my hand, thinking their is nothing I can do except from accepting father decision and I have got change into the a black-pant and turtle neck sweater.
I threw a trench coat over it and tied my hair up in a messy bun. And I slide my feet in to the shoes.
And I look around to my room one last time, before leaving and I made a promise that I will come back one day and nobody is going to stop me.