"You knew my mate's name?... You said she spoke to you before!?'' I ask hesitantly for him to further confirm what I thought I heard him say.
''Yes, I know her name. She spoke to me once..."
My body seizes with emotions I can't put into words on hearing Kane. I feel elated and nervous at the same time. My wolf knows my mate's name! She even spoke to him once! I thought to myself in excitement.
What did she talk to my wolf about? I wonder. Very eager to find out.
"It was before the duel..."
"Before the duel!?" I cut in with surprise. So I met my mate before the duel when I've always thought we met after the duel. This piece of information further confirms to me the fact that the mate I know is surely different from the one Kane is talking about. Now, there's no doubt in my mind that the beautiful girl with hair the color of golden wheat field is my real mate.
Then who is the strange girl posing as my mate? How come she smelled like mate? Is she the one that made me forget my mate with sorcery? Where is my real mate in all this? We have a special mate bond, yet she kept quiet and allowed another woman to take her place!? I found that hard to believe but then, what happened to her? Why hasn't she shown herself to me? Was that her voice I heard crying when I was kissing Victoria?...
I know Eric has answers to all these questions bugging my mind but I have no intention of asking him. We already talked about it several times when I was feral and I agreed and promised him I would wait until the seer's given time so I don't end up making my feral state worse.
Even though I'm no longer feral, I know I have a better grasp on my emotions than before. I know Eric would still insist on waiting for the seer's time which will be over in two weeks. Didn't he even advise it when he was in my room, telling me to focus on the trial and not think about the previous night's event?
But I know I can never wait for the end of the remaining two weeks. Not with the information Kane just gave me and certainly not when I know my real mate is out there somewhere and not able to connect with me. I have evidence I gathered and already noted down. At the end of today, I will bring out all the evidence I have and figure out the puzzles myself. Then I'll find my mate and bring her home with me.
''Thor?'' Kane calls, snapping me out of my thoughts.
''Oh, yes! I'm sorry. My mind just wandered a bit.''
''A bit?..." He repeats, laughing at me
"It's not a bit, your mind has been working nonstop for quite a while now. Why don't you give it a rest for now and don't go overboard with the thinking? Your mind's still fragile you know and you can't afford to overburden it with the thoughts that might trigger angry emotions in you.''
''I understand... Uhm... Do you mind telling me the little you know about my real mate, though? You said you knew her name and she spoke to you before. Can you tell me what she talked to you about?"
''Okay but first, let me make something clear...Indeed,e I've always known about your mate and your struggle to remember. I chose to keep that information away from you, not because I was angry about not being able to connect with my own mate, but because it wasn't the right time.
Your mind was too fragile and you wouldn't have been able to handle it with everything that was happening around you all at once. It would have been too much for you to handle and it would have driven you over the edge.'
'I understand Kane. I'm sorry about your mate and I'll promise we'll find them soon, okay?
"Sure..."
I chuckle
"I'm just glad you aren't ignoring me anymore. Now, please tell me what I want to know.'' I say eagerly
'Alright. This is everything she said to me word for word...
'Hey, Kane.
My name is Ash.
I need you to sleep.
I want my man now and I need you to sleep and wait for your mate.
Please go to sleep.'
My heart races as I listen to Kane talk softly about what my mate said to him. It's insane how my heart can beat so wildly for someone I had no memory of meeting before.
Even though I had an idea of what the conversation was all about, it would be better if I heard in full detail what led to my mate saying such words directly to my wolf and what happened afterward.
"This is like one-sided. Can you tell me what happened between us and why she said those words to you?" I ask.
"Really, Thor?..." Kane growls. You truly can't deduce what happened from the little I told you? You want me to tell you in detail how you both were so in love and wanted each other so badly you couldn't wait until she's eighteen, the age that I will be able to connect with my own mate.
It was just a few hours to her birthday yet both of you couldn't wait! Because her wolf was sleeping, you both decided to also put me to sleep! Is that enough explanation for you!?"
I can't help but laugh out loud when he was done talking.
"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry Kane!" I say as I continue laughing, making him growl loudly in displeasure.
"Talk to you some other day!" He gruffly says and retreats into his safe place.
I take advantage of the quietness in my mind to repeat what my mate said to Kane to myself, thereby understanding his frustration better. I'm about to plead with him to come back so we can continue our conversation but my phone starts to ring then. I reach for it and see it's Eric calling me again.
When I answer it and hear him call me 'General,' I know he hasn't forgiven me for angrily talking to him because of Victoria.
"God, Eric! You're going to be a brat about this, aren't you?" I say
"Be a brat about what? What did I do? How did I offend you this time..."
"Ughhhhh... Okay, okay, I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier." I quickly apologize to get him to shut up and move on
"It's okay. Apology accepted, even though I have no idea what you're talking about." He says, laughing cheekily
"Asshole!" I reply and also chuckle "What do you want?" I ask. Glad that he's no longer angry with me.
"Oh, yes! I just want to remind you that Victoria has been waiting for over an hour now. I hope..."
"Oh shoot! I totally forgot about her!" I interrupt him. "I was busy with something here. Please tell her I will be there with her soon." I hurriedly say as I stand up from the sofa.
"Yeah, sure" He replies and disconnects the call.
While in the shower, my mind keeps going over the conversation I had with my wolf. Especially the last one before he went off in annoyance
'I already had sex with my mate!' I thought in excitement and my dick stirs again in response.
Right then, I hated myself for that decision I took in my bathroom. I wish so badly that I can remember, especially our love-making. As the shower rushes down on me, I lean my hand on the wall in front of me and tightly shut my eyes so I can thoroughly search my mind. Who knows, maybe I can remember something about that day but nothing comes to mind. It's no use.
Rather, the words she said to Kane come to my mind again. Blood rushes to my dick, fuelling my desire and I become so hard it's unbearable. From the description of her, my mind starts to conjure a naked image of a woman with golden tresses. Her face is blurred out but that is exactly what I want. I don't want to wank with another woman's face on my mind. I don't want to disrespect my mate in such a manner.
I imagine myself caressing the faceless goddess as I slowly massage my testicles to create some intense sensations in me. Then I move to my shaft, slowly stroking the length from the base of my shaft to the tip of my dick over and over. Faster and faster, building up my pleasure till I can't hold myself anymore.
I moan loudly as I orgasm and my sperm shot out of my dick in a series of spurts.