I touched my lips shutting it just so a sob won't escape.
I shut my eyes so tight because I can't forget how he played me so well. I kept comforting my self that I'm just drunk and it's all just because of the liquor that's why I'm being so emotional.
All of the days he's been so harsh on me, this is just a bit of it. Yes Jade! It's just your damn ego, what is more important to you?
Of course it's him. I liked him since the day I knew I liked him. What are his steps on me equal to the kisses he gave?
I convinced my self for how many times yet my heart still won't stop from aching.
His lips and his touch that reminded me of everything. The way he thought of me as a lousy kisser. I still have the courage to kiss him and prove that he is not good at kissing.
Fvck you Jade! I cursed myself more. I couldn’t hold back my tears and the sobs that were slowly fading away.
I heard Olivia grunting. The bed moved and I felt her stealing my blanket from me.
"Fvck Jade, lend me a blanket."
She moaned. I didn't do anything when she took the blanket from me. Coldness enveloped my system as I felt the wind coming inside my balcony's door and the coldness of the room.
And that's all I can remember from that special day of mine. Me sleeping in tears, curling my body because of coldness, not just the coldness of my room but a reminder of how cold he is.
"What about Chapter 4? Still for revision, right?"
My group mate asked us. We were in a cafe just near the university. We've been battling this damn hell week of ours since the year is coming to an end. I can't wait to finally graduate and spend the summer so well.
I no longer just blurted out and looked outside while consuming my frappe.
The clouds are dark, seems like it's gonna rain anytime soon. I sipped my frappe and stare outside.
I can't help but to think of what happened week ago. I remember myself waking up so late and so miserable. But he still managed to assume that nothing had happened. I went on with my life as if nothing in my life had passed with him.
Speaking of the devil, I haven't seen him yet since that night. And it's better that way, I'm not ready to see him anyways.
A child walking outside caught my attention. He's dragging a craft like box and he's a bit sluggish. He was also wearing dirty clothes and I knew immediately what he was.
I saw him sat in the concrete gutter, I could see how weak he would be. All of my thoughts are cut out seeing the child. I looked at my frappe and the unfinished macaroon in front of me. I sighed and stood up only having my wallet with me.
“Where are you going? " Olivia asked.
I just excused my self without reasoning out and went to the cashier to order food that I think will manage the child's hunger. I walk straight out to aim at the child.
"Hey," I said to caught his attention.
He turned to me and seemed surprised but I could see that he was weakening.
"A-are you okay?"
I asked standing in front of him. He sat down and offered his palm like he's asking for money or what? That's when I woke up and finally approached him.
I placed the paper bag in front of him as I crouched. He quickly searched it without saying a word and hurried to eat.
"Uhm ... you should go home?"
I said to him because I didn't know what to say. He seems so weak, is he alone?
"Where's your mommy?" I asked again.
He shuddered as he ate the sans rival I bought there.
"You don't have a mommy? Uhm ... it's okay, I don't have one too."
I smiled lightly when he looked at me. I don't know if he understood me. He seems so young.
"Are you sick?"
"I'm hungry. Thank you."
He answered which made my heart sunk.
"You're welcome. You should go home."
I said and looked at him intently while he's eating vigorously. He didn't seem to mind me.
"You should go home ... because it might rain." I repeat again.
"I don't have a house."
Now I confirmed that I'm the one who's dumb here. I felt sad looking at him. Just a few more minutes and the rain started to pour out.
"Oh my God," I uttered to myself.
The boy quickly turned around and picked up the cardboard he had been lying on and placed it on his head. He extended the box and I realize that he wants me to join him so we can escape the rain. I smiled wholeheartedly and join him.
I saw my body guard from a far. I saw that it was ready to approach but I told it not to approach me anymore. I joined the kid while he silently eat the food.
While I cry for a person who plays with my heart, there's someone out here who’s trying to make their ends meet. All nothing for me is heaven for them.
I always nag and complain but here's a kid who doesn't say anything while he doesn't even have a slippers. Not even have a home ... a family.
"Aren’t you too kind?"
I heard a deep voice. I peeked out of the cardboard we were holding over our heads. A tall guy in a uniform holding an umbrella. I could see that his uniform was slowly getting wet as he spread the umbrella over us so that we could take shelter.
My brow furrowed. Who is he?