"Stupid..." I whispered when I noticed that four more men approached me while I was alone in the corner where I was drinking.
It's far from everything. I'm like an idiot running while idiots are chasing me to give me trouble and trouble.
Say I don't want to be sad!I was irritated when I noticed that they were like fools, pushing to see who would come to me first.
Maybe the news reached the audience and the audience found out that my relationship with Edward has fallen apart now. Both of us are in a fatal situation now.
Stop ruining my night. Come on, stop bothering me and let me enjoy my solitude. "I complained to them and they started to undress.
Thank God they listen to me. Unlike Edward, he doesn't know where to stop.
He didn't know that forcing us to get along would be more damaging to us.
If I have a child with him at Ganto, there's a chance that I will accept that. But no, it doesn't matter anymore now. If I get tired and he throws shits on me, I won't let that happen.
Never..
Who is a stupid idiot going back to the person who hurt him before? I am not like the other martyred wives who chose to hurt themselves just to be happy with their life.
If you're bound to become happy, it will happen with no shits.
In other words, you don't have to be stupid to have fun; all you need is intelligence and fortitude.
For myself too,
Train yourself to accept all problems and circumstances that will happen in your life.
Be smart, don't be stupid.
"And why are you here, woman?" I looked at Barbara and she sat beside me.
She's Christ's sister, and they both don't normally think of her older brother. It runs in the blood.
"Why am I not allowed to drink anymore?" She laughed and gently pulled me away.
Nah, I'm going to ask if Kuya is hiding on your side. As you can see, I'm the poor one in his business. I burst out laughing.Barbara rarely smiled.
She smiles when she sees people suffering. That's why they call them an evil family.
Well, Christ is hiding at Lola's house.
"Really beaten up anytime," she laughs, but tries with almost sarcasm.
I don't know why my cousin blessed me like Christ and Barbara. Well, they also have kindness, but they never show it. They just make me feel that way.
Why are you here? Shouldn't you be hiding and crying in your condo? " I slapped her hand and smirked at her.
"Like I would, why should I be locked up there? I'm free again. "
Yes, you're free again, but not from problems and heartbreak.You are still imprisoned in those. "All of a sudden, I was struck by what he said.
I doubt for the first time, and I ask myself if I am really free now, or if I just need to be confined to all the problems before I can finally be free.
"Yeah, you're right," I smiled, and she gave me a shot of vodka for me.
Don't you dare use people just to make yourself happy. They raised you well, aunt. They never taught you to use other people just for your own good. If you want to make yourself happy, then work it on your own. In the end, you are the loser. More damage will be left to you. If you're not sure about everything, don't accept people who are willing to be stupid for you. In short, Elisha. Don't be a user. "I frowned at him even more.
She's far from me, but she knows everything that has happened in my life.
creepy, typical Santa Barbara
"Yes, you know a lot." He suddenly left me carrying two plastic cups full of wine.
"Fuck this life!" he shouted until he was covered by the dancer.
She changes a lot, like me. Too much is new and must change for me.
She's right about what she said. Is it true that I'm only using Oakley for my own good? Am I really just using it because I am damaged now?
This is really confusing.
Just yesterday, I felt like I was ready to go, let myself be happy and move on.
Do I really need him to move on?
If I really want to be happy, I must earn it by myself.
I alone put myself in pain and all sorts of problems, and it woke my senses when she said every single word.
Hit me, come on.
Often in the bones...
I'm going to explode now. I want to cry all of a sudden.
I took the last shot in front of me and stood up to go to the parking lot.
Oakley means a lot to me now, but I don't want to hurt him.
I also don't want to hurt him more. After all, he deserves someone who is much better than me.
I'm damaged. I need to fix myself. On my own,
"Elisha," a husky voice, makes me feel weak.
I know it's Oakley.
My tears were already warning me of what he was saying. I didn't touch him until I got to where my car was parked.
Please don't ignore me. Did I do something wrong? Please tell me, "his voice grew louder."
He's behind me now. I don't want to look back. I don't want to see him.
I am weak
"It's killing me, I don't want us to hurt each other" one by one my tears fell at what he was saying
How can he make this good even though everything is happening to us right now
"Oakley" i look at him and he look wasted now
I took a deep breath and close my eyes, to stop my tears for a while
"Stop pushing yourself to me Oakley, it's not good for us" fear changed his face earlier that he was begging me
"No Elisha, i don't care about the damages, or you're using me for your own good. All i care is i can be with you even this is hard for you to handle all of the baggages that you have. Look Elisha, i am very willing to be with you, to helo you just pleasw let me "
"But I don't want to, it's not right"
"It doesn't matter if that's good or bad Elisha i just need you in my life"
"Peeo I don't want to, I want to do it all by myself, if we're really for each other, even if I go through everything alone, you and you I'll come back remember that" I try to compose myself to prevent some emotional breakdown
But i can't, I'm so weak
"Even if one of us gets lost, if you're for me you'll meet and come back to me even if you don't insist Oakley" i try my best to smile
But tears came out
"I'm sorry, but I need to find myself by my own. I chose it alone, so I have to crawl back to where I used to be ..."
".... I lost myself when i am with you, i lost everything in a very short time but now i need to overcome all of this for own good"
"Sorry Oakley, but I want you to stop courting me"