Ding!
‘Thanks papi for the vacation… and I forgot my panties’
Shocked
A random text shows up in his phone, just minutes after having sex and suffering from an unbearable pain, his phone is locked, what’s his password, I try Adonis, it doesn’t work, trying his birth name and family name, doesn’t work either
‘Perfect’ comes to my mind, I tried it and it worked, rolling my eyes, he claimed to be perfect in all way,
Adonis is taking a shower now, as I went through his text message with this lady, previous chats weren’t deleted, she forgot her panties?, scrolling down, I see a message sent from the other end.
It was a picture of a red panties , that’s all I can see
Tears well in eyes again,as my head beat rapidity, a silent prayer begins in my mind, it shouldn’t be what I am thinking , I scroll down, seeing their previous chat breaks my heart she knows about me , checking her profile picture I have seen her before,
The receptionist!!?
I hear the shower turned off and I clear the chat history, putting his phone back while pretending I had slept off, he comes out picks the phone then replies that message with a smiling face.
Takes a peck at me, then back on his phone typing, I stare at him, his damp ruffled hairs Falling down to his forehead, dripping off water and steam, I had known him for so long , I haven’t had any external relationship than the one we had, how easy was it for him to move on so quickly?.
I could feel tears drop on the sheets, and I sniffed to stop more from gushing out, as my heart constricted, thinking of the moment we shared together, the times I left home just so I could stay with him in, no one loves me, no one cares about me, they are all asshole.
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I just want to sleep and never wake up. I am tired of holding my heart in my hand and begging to feel loved. I am tired of fighting over him, he’s just like everyone else.
Sniffs
“ babe!!, shit something came up”
“ what is it this time”
Dressing up almost immediately
“ babe, I know you would be sad, please don’t be, I would get you those flower collections you love, just send me list of everything you need I will get them for you, I promise please don’t be angry” he said placing kisses on my cheek, the fire I had nurtured slowly dies as I let my tears fall freely.
“ don’t cry” he said, hiding a devilish smile behind those perfect teeth, he holds my chin up, kissing me passionately, I could almost say he kissed me lovingly but he’s going to see another woman
Just a week in Makawao, Maui, I would get you stone carving and other silly things you love so much” he lied, I smiled weakly, “ sure thing, Adonis” I said, the arches a brow at me, a notification shows up in the phone, he stares at it, smiles then places a kiss on my forehead hurriedly.
“ dad, you know our parents can be” he said, I smile weakly, resting on the bed, “ close the door” I said burying my head under the duvet, I had one month semester break from college and a part of me wishes I never even attempt coming back to Los Angeles, here a familiar monster resides, always ready to tear me apart.
“ ok I love you so much,never forget that, don’t let them get into your head, remember where we are going right?”
He said resting on the bed besides me, I could bet am he’s smirking knowing I can’t see him, “ sure, I love you too”
More tears drop from my eyes and I just want to cry my eyes out.
More notification drop, followed by a call
“ I am coming, on my way to the airport” he said then ended the call, obviously, “sure things dad will be there soon”,
Smart move hansley… smart move
“ Ok bye, daddy calls”
Kissing on me through the blanket I hear his rapid movement, as he leaves the hotel room.
I don’t let myself hide the pain anymore, as I let myself cry all over again, pain jolt down my thighs, he had sex with me, in another ladies panties, is that how he sees me, just a fuck mate obviously I am nothing to him, I take it off, throwing it on the floor, as more tears stormed down my eyes, he didn’t even ask how I felt after having sex with me, in the most unremorseful way.
He didn’t ask how I am coping with the rumors, neither did he ask if I would miss him when he travels, he didn't ask if I needed pain relievers either he doesn’t care he is a monster, and my dumb self know this all too well.
My legs switch sides as I try to Stand up, I feel so dizzy, the hotel room is pinning again, as my subconscious mind get sucked into a vacuum,
“ help”
Whispers
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Waking up to several calls and voice messages on my phone all from mom, I observed the time on the header, it’s 7am already, I blacked out, again.
My insides feel hollow but I can’t stay here anymore neither can I board a flight back to Australia, its better there,than here everyone here are lies, I am done.
Picking up my phone I took my bag out of the hotel room, there’s a new receptionist in the foyer, I bet it’s one of his bed mates,” good day ma, do you need any help you look disturbed “ she said.
I could feel my swollen eyes above the eye sack, I don’t feel alright neither do I look at it either, but who cares, every woman wants to bed my man, she’s calling me to mock me.
They were two behind the desk, one brunete and a red haired, I would make that lady pay, walking up to them, “ who knows the lady that did the afternoon shift”
They both looked at me, “Mr black gave all the workers one day break, no one was here this afternoon “ dumbfounded, I stare blankly at both of them, they might think I am mad.
Adonis is up to something for sure, “ thanks so much, tell the workers to clean room 309, it won’t be of use for a while” I said grimacing at the thought going through my head, I have been used for a fools for so long,
My phone buzzes again moms calling, I don’t want to talk to her
She called three times in a row. I had to answer,what’s all this fuss about ? , “ xup mum, do you want to freeze my account again?” I asked rolling my eyes, mom had earlier sent me to a psychiatrist's home, for talking to her in this manner, but I don’t care anymore, her punishment doesn’t scare me.
“ where are you, you know how the paparazzi behave I don’t want you out like that, knowing how things are” she said like she cares
I am too weak to talk back, and maybe for the first time, she’s right, I don’t want a problem with the paparazzi, I can’t be dragged down with her, never.
Boarding a cab, with an old man as a cab driver, what’s with these cab drivers and unnecessary conversation, “ you live around here?”
I don’t say a word,
Looking at me through the display mirror, I had my hoodies up, and a dark shade glass over my eye, shading my red eyes from the world.
“ Well you heard the news about the Brandon’s,funny right?”
“ I loved that woman, like look!” He said pointing at mom's electric s advert board on the road, she looks so good, she’s a monster inside, I scoff, just thinking about how everyone is fake.
“ She's so good, and the first woman to thrive in the estate company and marketing industry, but I guess physical needs come first, right?Money is not everything” he said, nodding his head.
Sliding down the car as he blabbered about mom being an inspiration to ladies and how disappointed they are, makes me sick, I wouldn’t dare be inspired by her, she’s famous for so many good things it just makes me want to puke.
Getting home I see mom pacing he around and her fuck boy seated on the chair, we share a glare, I guess he had told his lord the final result on spying on me, I don’t care if her company cut on fire I don’t need the money anyway.
I just walk inside before I went inside, dropping my bag I take a warm bath , waiting for whatsoever god's name they want to torture me with this time around