Stefan... I called him trying to take his hand, but he withdrew his hand and glared at me, I signed and turned my gaze to Leonid that is grinning.
You can go be with him, it's all a mistake, Hazel was right... Stefan's words hurt, I hit his face, and I run to the door, Leonid held my hand trying to stop me, Stefan take one last look at me and Leonid's hand on mine, and he pulled the doorknob.
Let me go, Leonid, I am sorry but I can't be with you, As the Luna of the Shadow Moon Pack, I, Fiona Oliver, hereby solemnly reject you, Prince Leonid, as my mate."
Leonid stared at me blankly, I know he wasn't expecting I will reject him openly, he should have seen it coming, my actions had rejected him but this is the height of it, doing it openly is one thing, I never thought I could do. I felt bad for hurting him
"I, prince Leonid the son of the deceased Alpha of the Shadow Moon Pack, hereby accept your rejection."
He said as he pushed the door and walked away, he didn't throw an eye at me, Stefan stared blankly at me, he too was in shock, I know he wasn't expecting that.
Fiona, did you realize what you just did, you rejected your mate because of the alpha, an alpha that doesn't care about you, why are you as stupid as your mother? I look at father, did he have to bring my late mother into this? Fiona, from now on, you are no longer my daughter.
This time, my tears drop, I felt broken, everyone is right, I am turning my back on everyone, just to be with a man, whom I have no idea where I stand in his life. I run out as well, dad never loves me, he stopped loving me right from the moment I didn't shift, I have to live with that pain in my heart for these years, never have I ever thought that he will disown me because I rejected prince Leonid and I am going to be heartbroken as a result of this, I know he won't be mad at me, for picking Stefan, if he had not stripped him of his position. All hope isn't lost because he is the father of the Luna, what more can he ask for? Yet, he is still very much mad at me and not happy with it.
I want to be left alone, Stefan is the last person, I wanted to see right now, I sat in the garden, burying my face in my hands, as streams of tears falls from my eyes.
Luna! Is our Luna crying? That voice, that mocking voice is from Kira.
Go away, I just want to be left alone. I said.
Poor thing, I heard your almighty alpha didn't claim you, he didn't mark you because you are not his mate and he can never love you, even those that aren't your mate, they claimed you because they wanted to be one with the woman they love, they want to share a strong bond...
I stared stupidly at her.
Oh, poor thing, all men in your life, can't love you, they can't give you that perfect picture of you having a loving and caring mate. Even your precious mate, can't give you that.
Yelling at her face to tell her it was not true is the only thing I wanted to do but then, her last statement got me. Does it mean that Leonid doesn't love me as well, he is only after me because I am his mate, not that he loves me because he would have not thought twice before he picked the woman, he loves and making her, his luna if he succeeded in make Stefan leave the pack. My gaze move to Kira with so many thoughts in my head, so many regrets and pain in my heart, that I wish to drown myself, I have no idea what possesses me at this point, and the only thing I thought of, was death, maybe, that will give me solace, I run through the wood, I ran as fast as my legs could carry me, with each wood piercing my skin, I run to look for anything that could hide me from the world, I needed myself to be buried somewhere that, no one will found me.
When I get tired of running, I crawled on the grass, I have no more strength to run, I have run a great deal, and my hands and knees become sore, from crawling, it was painful but the pain in my heart is much, I felt like a puppet, and death is my only escape root.
Everything seems to be mad at me, the stones, wood, the sky, because it suddenly starts raining, I sat under a piece of wood and cry when the pain becomes unbearable, I wanted it to end, I wanted the pain to go away but it didn't, streams of tears rub down my face.
The howl of the wolf starts becoming stronger, I am going to die today, I wanted nothing but death but not in the hands of those rogues, I don't want my body to be disfigured in death, I picked myself, even with the pain in my foot, I want to run before they could smell me.
I don't want those scavengers to hunt me down, I listened carefully to the sound and traced where is coming from, to know where to turn to, I felt at ease, when the sound dies off, raising my eyes, the Pack river is not far anymore, I increase my step, I have to get there in time, I am sure no one will be there. How stupid of me, I am the one who hurt Leonid, but still I am the one who wants to end my miserable life.
The moon goddess must be so mad at me that, she gave me a complicated life, a life that I have no idea of. I heaved standing in front of the Pack river, for the first time, my wish could be granted, which is death.
I am sorry Leonid for rejecting you and Stefan, I am sorry for loving you blindly, for thinking you are my dream come true, I set you free, and dear moon goddess, if ever I come back to life, please don't forget to grant me all my heart desires. slowly I closed my eyes, I pulled myself from the ground while I leap into the deep side of the river. The water takes me in whole, I have no idea that it's that deep, I only know that, year in and year out, people get drowned in this river.
Taking too much water, I find my breath becoming unstable, and all of sudden I don't want to die, I want to live, I try to swim but I can't, the more I try the more I get sink, my eyes that have fled open as a result of my jumping into the river, close slowly as I lost every strength in me.