I try to figure out where the blood is coming from, it wasn't from me, then my eyes move to Stefan, he is biting himself, how did his lips move from my neck to his arm?
Stefan, stop, you are hurting...
Fiona runs, you should run before I hurt you, go away.
His voice was frightened, full of pain, doing what he asked of me, which is to run through that door and never come back, was the only thing that I want to do. Still, the pain in his voice didn't make me want to go away, I want to be there for him, I want to help him, I stubbornly held his hand, and he pushed my hand off his.
You are not listening, I said run, I am going to hurt you and I don't want to. That last part was low, I could see the pain he is feeling trying not to hurt me, my hand moves to circle his neck but he pulled from me, like he was burning and he is going to consume me if I come anywhere close to him.
The next thing I heard was the loud banging of the bathroom door, he had run through that door, just to escape from me, not escaping, but to keep me safe.
He hasn't even had intercourse with me, yet he can't keep his demons or whatever it is that is making him not to be able to unite with me in check, the calling of his name had snapped him from his act, that was when he moved his lips from my neck and probably ended up biting himself.
Slowly my heartbeat goes back to normal, I sat on the bed and look at the door, the bathroom that he had gone through.
I pushed my hair back, knowing that, I am the curse of the pain he is going through, would he have killed me, if I didn't call out to him? Is there ever going to be a way that I and Stefan could have a normal life? I hope Stefan is not going to push me away completely this time, I know he is scared right from the onset, and right now, with the turn of events, I know this might push him more away from me. I don't want that, Maybe, Hazel could be in a better position to help me. Stupid of me, how will Hazel help me, when she wants Stefan all to herself?
I decided to clean up myself, I try to fix something on my nude body, searching through his closet to get some wear, grabbing one of his shirts, I wear it. The door cracked open.
Did I hurt you? He asked, my eyes move to him, his eyes are red but not like the previous ones, he must have cried and he is feeling guilty.
He is in his robe and his wet hair falling in the side and back of his neck, resting on his shoulder, his look is far from what I could explain, and I don't like it, I don't want him to tell me to go away, not after I have rejected my mate, not now that he had a voice it out that he loves and wanted me at the same.
No, I am not hurt.
His eyes were locked on my wrist, I was wondering why he is staring at my wrist. Oh! The wound on my wrist is what he is staring at, he rakes his hair back.
Of cause, you are hurting, you are not fine. He runs his hand on his face, inhales, and exhales, staring at me. I almost had you killed, I told you to run away whenever my demon surface. His expression was unreadable and raw.
You didn't and I know you will not
Fiona, stop it, I am not like those wolves you meet on a regular day.
Are you a demon?
I was supposed to meet the prophetess, she was supposed to tell me everything about myself but I didn't get to meet her.
Why is that? He looks at me, then runs his hand through my hair.
You, I can't stay away from you for so long, I can't stop thinking about you, I love you. Stefan coughs badly.
Are you alright? I asked, his eyes bulging, staring at his palm, I try to see what made him wear that look. Stefan...
Fiona, please stop, I beg you. Stefan was scared, I could feel it, he had never felt this scared. Maybe the thought that he could have killed me scared him to the bone, the wound on my wrist and his sudden cough, after he mentioned that he love me, I wonder what is in his palm that he doesn't want me to see. If I haven't bitten myself, I would had kill you and I will never forgive myself if I hurt you.
His voice is filled with emotions, I could feel it. Was he giving up on me right now? I don't know, I know, I should be scared of him right now because he is more dangerous to me than the picture everyone paints him. The funniest thing was I wasn't scared of him, I want him by my side, I want us to look for a solution to all the problems together.
So you are going to push me away? Stefan...look at me, I know you wouldn't hurt, we can work this out, you and I, if we work as a team, my heart is telling me that, you will not hurt me and my heart can't lie to me. Perfect, I got a plan... Stefan looks at me. Yes, we should stay together without sex. It's perfect, right?
His eyes didn't leave me, surprise is written on his face, with the way he is looking at me.
What do you think? I asked
You are crazy, did you know how much I restrain myself each day from eating every part of you? I am going crazy with each passing day. Trying not to pounce on you.
Stefan, please don't leave me. I said picking up his hand, this time, he didn't push me away, he hugged me, he was supposed to push me away, but he might be fighting himself badly and going crazy too.
I am sorry...
Stop apologizing, you and I know that, you didn't hurt me and will never hurt me, if hurting me will make the both of us, stay together then you should keep hurting me. I tease him, he pushed my head slightly, and he pulls my wrist to his lips.
What do you want to do?