ZOE’S POV
"Zoe, it’s our first meet and there are lots of things to be known about each other as friends. so don’t let these people affect you or us" his words kept ringing in my head like a mantra….
Hope…...hope was something I always believed in the case of my fate but it was something I never kept in any relationships, at the top, friendships. But now, I felt that the whole world around me was rejuvenating. Was I again beginning to believe in new relations??? Were things changing with his arrival??
Should I had to put my legs into the situation again?? Was I ready for a new relation?? Would this relation also end up like my past or would it get spoiled when he gets to know the so known truth and ditch me??
My anxiety attack was surfacing and my hands had begun to shiver. But then, I turned to me and I saw his charming face. Something somewhere about him was affecting me too much and without even realizing it, my anxiety had subdued. That’s a first!!!
I couldn’t believe what just happened to me and my mind was perplexed. Never ever had such a miracle occurred to me but whatever it was, I loved it. The cool breeze that flew above the lighthouse danced in our faces and we both closed our eyes to enjoy that breeze.
After that, we bid a good bye to each other and Mike had come to pick me up. The strange closeness between me and I had already spread around the area like fire and new gossips had popped up in just a matter of hours.
“Oh my god, what am I seeing?” after Zack left, Mike turned to me and acted shocked.
“What?” as he had already proved his acting skills before, I embarrassing me, I had nothing but contempt to his acting.
“Your lips just curved into a genuine smile" he cupped my face and though he was exaggerating emotions, deep indie him, I knew he was very much happy with my smile.
“Mom Dad Zoe just smiled…Zoe just smiled" more than me, it was Mike who was jumping with bliss to share the news with them and like thunder, mom appeared in the room stunned after hearing what he was screaming.
“Jesus Christ…my child, you look really beautiful" Mom came to me and hugged with affection when she also saw the glow in my face.
“where’s dad?” Hugging her back, I asked her and she told me he was upstairs.
“Dad" Mom had already began to shed happy tears and I left Mike to take care of her and ran upstairs to meet dad.
“My Zoe" He was in his chair reading book and I kneeled down to him he too saw my glow.
“Was he that special?” I knew he had heard Mike screaming and asked me with delight to know more about it.
“Don’t know. But one thing I’m sure about is that he’s different. Different from all the boys I have met till now?” I told him smiling and he held my hands on his.
“Then Jake?” the next thing he did was to bring out the topic and the smile I had vanished off into the air.
I gulped down and my breaths stopped for a second only to grow heavier in the next. Why dad?? Why??
“Zoe, I don’t want to see you suffering alone in dark by getting yourself I to things that you regret later. Be sure to tell him everything before you take him seriously and don’t lose your strength" he patted on my shoulders and walked off to downstairs.
He was right. I did feel different around I but it didn’t mean that it was for good. Whoever I had trusted blindly had betrayed me to such extended that rising from that was not yet possible for me. I was still under treatment and I knew my heart was not yet ready or so strong to take another hit. I got into my room and switched off the light to sit in the dark. The windows were wide open and only the dim lights of the street lights were inside my room and I laid in my bed thinking about dad’s words.
I really did have a great impression on me because he wasn’t judgmental and he was the only person who had taken a stand for me and called me a friend of his even after he go to know that I was a mysterious personality in the town. No one knew my story and whatever they knew were just rumors they had created with the fake story that my once BFF had spread around in my absence. Even if I tried to scream out the truth, no one would really care to trust that and why would I even try that?? I had left my past behind a long time ago and now I was only focused in getting back to my life as soon as possible.
From the next day, high school was not so shitty time for me as at least I got to spend the break time with the boys and that afternoon, Mike and Zack ended up drinking together and the bad boy Zack got high on vodka after which he met me in front of my house. To be honest, A drunk Zack was way cuter than the bad boy Zack and he laughed me to death with his crazy no sense jokes.
We spend some quality time together and I loved the way I laughed, an emotion that I had given up a long time ago. But who knew that one moment was going to be the entry of the worst days of my life again??
Came the car of someone passing by the street and it stopped in front of us. Mike had already joined us and he too was going to take the shock with me. Out of the car came Caroline, the girl who had turned my life into a living her, my so-called ex BFF!!!
She ran out of the car towards Zack and threw herself on him bewildering all 3 of us together. Zack was already drunk so how could he get to understand what the heck was going on and moreover, how did they know each other?? Was she his?? No way!!
She treated him very overwhelmingly and began to apologize a lot while I and Mike stood frozen not having a single idea on how to react. Mike was getting turned up by his inner hatred and frustration while I feared my anxiety getting out of control and reacting out badly. As she got down, she pounced onto us and shocked us with another fucking act of her.
She greeted us by hugging as if she had no idea what havoc she had created in my life and was behaving so innocent as if her actions were never tainted with back stabbing betrayal. I kept myself in control along with Mike, not wanting to react to her antics without knowing how she was related to Zack!!
Zack was behaving like he was hallucinating and slowly his body began to go drowsy and when we saw it, Mike helped him balance on his feet and suddenly, the great Caroline leaped into action by getting ready to take him to his house. Me and Mike didn’t want a scene to be created at that moment so we stayed back and let her takeover it.
In no time, the car drove off and I sat on the stairs having no clue of what the heck just happened with us. Was this any challenge of fate that I had to survive?? Of was this my real fate which I had to live through for the rest of my life. Why did it had to be Caroline?? Why?? Why was she back?? What was going on inside her head?? Was she back for I or did it have anything to do with me??
What horrified me the most was the thought of the past repeating just like it was yesterday it had happened. Her one action had d3stroyed many lives and she didn’t even care at all for it. She was such a girl. An obsessive freak behind an innocent mask!!
“Zoe, is she…” Mike broke the silence and began to say something and I knew what it was.
“I don’t know Mike. But one thing is for sure, if she has come back to spoil my peace, I won’t spare her this time" I clenched my arms and gritted my teeth when all the thoughts in me had cooked up into a shield with which I was ready to protect my family from her.
The whole night, I laid in my bed with the past playing in my head repeatedly even after I tried a million times to shake it off from my head. Helplessness and madness fogged inside me when I wondered if she was really repeating our past. When I couldn’t handle it anymore, I went to my cupboard and opened the locker taking a diary out of it. The diary was covered with dust and I hadn’t opened it in years….
The next morning, I was woken up by the sound of something hitting on my window. I woke up and came to check what it was, only to see Caroline’s face to be the first thing in the morning. Gosh, this was the worst beginning of my life!!!
I had no clue what she wanted so I walked downstairs to meet her in the lawn and was stunned to see her in a men’s top and shorts. Wait, was it Zack’s?? Did she last night???
I scanned her from top to bottom and she came closer to me playing with her. I felt a bit disgust with what she was doing but then, my eyes fell on a love bite on her neck and lips. Oh, so she was trying to show off what she did last night!!!
“Hey Zoe, see I had asked him a million times to control himself but see what he did to me" in a childish tone she began to complain to be and I had extreme contempt for her. It was high time she changed her old rusty and outdated strategies!!
“How on world would he know that she was sleeping with a slut??” I folded my hands in attitude and gave a reply which was not at all appreciated by her.
“it’s called true love babes. You would never get to feel that being you" she tried her best to show utter disgust she had on me but who knew her damn words had no effects on me.
“My love, I don’t have to use your cheap gimmicks to make a man surrender his heart for me and especially Zack. I believe you know that he’s totally different from the others “I made a step towards her and gave her a befitting reply making her fume. That’s what you get when you try to attack a wounded lion!!
“Zoe, don’t you ever think that you’ll ever get your hold on Zack. Did you really think I’ll let you have him like you had taken Jake from me?” her fume made her blurt out her real intention and I smirked. You haven’t changed a bit, Caroline.
“To be honest, I had no idea that Zack was your boyfriend. If I had known, I wouldn’t ever have imagined getting myself another day to see your bloody face ever in my life. But now that you have come back only for him, I can promise you one thing that I’ll never let the history repeat again" I patted on her shoulders and got back into the house while she stood puzzled thinking if my words were a warning or something else. Babes, the war has just begun…...