She continues talking while I’m taking everything in. I realize I made a huge mistake. Everyone tried to warn me that I was going to be the downfall of our pack with my grudge. Yes, I can admit it now. It was a grudge. I see now that Seleste was born to be a warrior and if I would have listened, she could have made me better.
As a protector, she works to make all of us better. Now it makes sense why my father started letting her travel the world to train at such an early age. How could I have gotten everything so wrong? I should have taken her advice and thought about it, or maybe even talked to my dad or mom about what I was feeling. Now I know why I’ve been feeling so drained lately and why Convel has not been talking to me.
“I’m sorry Convel.” I link my wolf. “I will try to make our last days together better. I love you Con and I’m sorry for ruining things with our mate.”
“Alpha, because I love this pack, I will not let Trevor loose Convel. Although, he hurt me and made my wolf cry, I released him from the bond. I did not want Convel to suffer because of him. I stayed home over the past couple of days because I was letting Tamaska completely break the bond and heal. He will not loose Convel.”
“Convel, did you hear that? I will not loose you. Seleste is truly a better person than I am. She would make the perfect Luna. She always puts other people first,”
“I know. I felt my strength coming back this morning, but I was mourning the loss of my mate. I knew that me getting my strength back meant that Tamaska completely broke the bond. She really is not our mate anymore and soon; we will have to watch her be happy.” Convel says with sadness.
Seleste continues talking to my dad, but I feel every word she is saying now.
“After the things he said and did to me, I can never be with him and I’m ok with that. You know of the agreement the protectors have with the moon goddess about our mates. We can free them from the effects of breaking the bond and the moon goddess will grant us protectors a second chance, mate. I have freed Trevor and I am waiting now for my second chance mate.”
“What do you mean, second chance, mate?” I asked Seleste, but she just kept talking like she didn’t even hear me.
“Convel, was that what you meant when you said we will have to watch her be happy?” I asked
“Yes,” Convel whimpers.
“Since Mona is mated to Ben, I will not ask my family to leave this pack for another.” Seleste said to my father.
“Regarding choosing to stay in our pack. Since I am 18 now, the council will call on me more to serve and train, therefore, I will travel a lot and be away from the pack.” Seleste finishes.
I don’t know why it took all of this for me to see how perfect Seleste would have been as my mate, but like Convel said, I ruined everything.
“Thank you for having mercy on Convel, Seleste.” My father says.
“I just have one request. While you are traveling and training the other packs, can you return home every three months to update the training for our pack and renew the protection around the pack? It is always stronger when you are here.” My father says.
“Yes alpha, I can agree to that.” Seleste bows her head to my father in respect.
“See, son, respect is earned. After tonight, you will have to work on earning the respect of the pack.”
My dad is right. I have my work cut out for me. I have to mend fences and rebuild bridges. I’ll start by actually apologizing to Seleste. I owe her that and more.
“Seleste, I hope one day, you will forgive me. I am truly sorry for hurting you and Tamaska. There is no excuse for my behavior other than I let my pride impede my judgment. I know we are not mates anymore, but I hope we can grow to be friends again.”
“Honestly, Trevor, I don’t know if we will ever get to that point. For almost a year, I tried to bridge the gap between us, but each time, you were harsh and insulting to the point that I just gave up on us and our friendship. For now, I would prefer that we continue on like we were; having separate lives and spending time with our friends away from each other. As for forgiving you, I did that the day after you rejected me. You have my forgiveness. I just chose not to give you my time, thoughts, or energy anymore.”
“I will make it up to you Seleste,” I say as she walks back over to her parents.
Her father wraps her in a big hug. He is still glaring at me.
“Um Son. What are you going to do about this young lady?” My mother asked, pointing at Shana.
“Shana, I’m so sorry, you got caught up in all of this. I will take you home. We have a lot to think about.”
“Lets all go to our respective homes and try to get some sleep. We have a pack meeting tomorrow. I’m sure the pack will have a lot of questions.” My father says. We all get up and walk out. I just realized that all of my friends were still there. They were extra quiet, which is unlike them. I guess they were in shock. I know I will also need to rebuild my relationship with them. I know they are mad about me rejecting Seleste.