~ Helena ~
I gasped. The ache was no more. What happened to me? Realizing that Ethan was waiting for me to answer his question, I said, “Strange, when you touch it, the ache is gone.”
Ethan removed his finger. “Thank goodness. Maybe you should rest more. Go to sleep. After dinner, I will bring you home.”
The relief lived shortly. Since the pain came again, I screamed, “Ethan, argh! It hurts!”
Ethan grabbed my body and held me in his arms. He kissed the mark. “Does it still hurt?”
“No ….”
“How about this?” He touched my cleavage with his finger again.
“The ache is gone.” I glanced at Ethan. It was the first time a man touched me so intimately. My face was hot. “What happened to me?”
Ethan sighed. “I think I know what happened.” He opened my bra and panties and started touching me.
“E-Ethan?” What was he doing to me? But I didn’t want him to stop. It was amazing. I felt burning inside, and his touches torched the flame bigger.
“Trust me, mate, I won’t hurt you.”
“I-I trust you.” Though I trembled since it was my first time with a man. Would it be hurt like a lot of people said?
Then Ethan kissed my lips again. I moaned, and the fire rose within my chest and spread to my body, especially to my lower private part. I closed my thighs to ease the burning, but it worsened. “Ethan ….”
“Yes, darling, hold on. I will help you.” He caressed my neck, right on the bite mark, then kissed and licked it. “Do you like it?”
It was ticklish, but it was also burning my desire higher. “Uh-huh. It’s good.”
“How about this?” Ethan grabbed my mound and massaged it.
“Oh! It’s….” I was sure my face was crimson right now.
“Do you like it?”
“Yes ….”
Ethan smiled. “Then I think you will love this.” He sucked the top, and I screamed.
“Ethan!
He didn’t stop and kept sucking it. I was panting. It was like a rush of fire invading my body. So, I grabbed Ethan’s shoulders and scratched them with my nails.
Ethan stopped and looked into my eyes. “Do you want me to stop?”
I said nothing; I couldn’t! But then, I grabbed Ethan’s head and directed it to my other mound. I wanted him to do the same thing as before.
Ethan lifted his head and then grinned. “Yes, madam. I know you will love it.” Next, he gave the same sensual torture to my left peak. He sucked it hard and toyed with it using his tongue.
I grabbed Ethan’s head and stroked his hair. “Ethan … don’t stop ….”
“I won’t.” He caressed the first mound while he kept sucking the second. The fire spread to my other orb and then to my lower body part.
I squealed. It was so good but tortured me too. I wanted Ethan to end the torture, but I moved restlessly when he stopped.
“Calm down. I won’t leave you unsatisfied, my lady.”
He kept teasing me with his tongue and fingers. Then somehow, my body was tensed. I was afraid that something terrible would happen to me. But then, after a while, I came to my release. It was amazing! My body was exhausted, but I wanted to hum joyfully.
He smiled. “How are your feelings right now?”
“I’m good, more than good ….” My voice was hoarse because of too much screaming. “I feel sleepy.” I closed her eyes, too tired to even open them.
“Good, then sleep, my mate.”
He picked a blanket, covered my nakedness with it, then kissed my forehead.
Feeling Ethan went away from me, there was a pang of loss I couldn’t explain. It was cold and lonely. So, I called him, “Ethan?”
“Yes, darling?”
“Can you stay here with me?”
Ethan sighed. He sat beside me, then grabbed my hand and held it. “Yes. Sleep now. I’ll accompany you.”
It was the reassurance I needed. Having Ethan’s warm hand held mine, I drifted to sleep only after a few minutes.
***
~ Ethan ~
Helena’s breath was calm. Finally, she was asleep. I went to the bathroom, showered with icy water, and let out a long sigh. Helena’s state of burning was because I had marked her. In the werewolves world, usually, the ritual should follow the sequence: marking then mating. However, with my situation, I couldn’t mate Helena ultimately. What we could do was only outercourse. It satisfied the demand after the marking but did not genuinely satisfy the mating process. I cursed silently under the heavy, cold shower. My lack of control caused suffering for Helena.
Typically, it was only she-wolves who would experience things like Helena did. However, Helena is a human. So, why did she experience stuff like that too?
I shook my head again. “Yeah, I know I screwed up! But I couldn’t undo what had happened. I have marked her. So, I will take care of her for the rest of my life, even without mating her.”
After a few minutes in the cold shower, it helped release my body tension. The wolf inside me kept urging me to take Helena and mated her completely, but I knew I couldn’t do it. Not if I want to regret it for the rest of my life, just like what happened to Lynnette.
I sighed and shook my head. “No more! I won’t be responsible for more guilt because of my foolishness!”
Then I turned off the shower, dried my body, and wore my clothes again. I walked back to my room, but Helena was still asleep. She was smiling in her sleep, and I couldn’t stop myself. I approached her and kissed her lips tenderly. “You are my lovely mate. I will protect you with all my strength, even from myself.”
I caressed Helena’s hair. Then, since her fragrance filled my nose as if calling me to claim her, I let out a long sigh. Next, I picked Helena’s scattered underwear and dress on the floor, folded and placed them on the table next to the bed. Then with long steps, I left the room.