Scarlett
Pain shimmered in his eyes and I felt a clink of guilt but I had to let it out because I was feeling used and insecure. Nobody wanted me, all the mysteries that my family and my mate had brought into my life, I was becoming more insecure and scared of the surprises they might give me and treat me like trash and will tell me later that it was for my own good.
Shouldn’t I at least have the right to decide what’s good for me and what's not?!
“I’m sorry but I can’t tolerate this. I can’t withstand you disrespecting yourself,” he opened his mouth again when I didn’t respond to him. “You know, my family had asked me to do what you mentioned and I fought with them not to insult you and I’ll never do that to you.” He exhaled through his mouth before adding, “but my mate herself doubted me again and I must say that it fucking hurts coming from you. You shouldn’t have called yourself that, Scarlett. In the end, nobody cares about the men’s pain. Men get hurt, too, they don’t want just your body, they want your faith, support, and understanding just like girls.”
His voice was shaky as he took deep breaths in between to calm his nerves. Sometimes you focus on your pain solely so that you forget how much pain the others are going through and you feel guilty when the reason for that pain is you.
“I’m sorry, Klaus. I was so engrossed in my pain that I didn’t realize how much I was hurting you. All I wanted was just you, not a fucking position. I feel hurt and dejected when you make decisions on my behalf,” I said, extending my arms to cup his cheeks but he took a step backward.
“I won’t touch you. I won’t break my promise, I’m sorry,” he muttered in a low voice, he sounded so much in pain and helpless. "I thought that everything will be alright if I make you my Luna. But when you decided to leave, I became desperate to stop you anyhow and I'm sorry for that."
Retrieving my hand back, I pressed my lips hard, feeling guilty. He turned his face before flashing me a saddened look and started walking away.
“It’s you who made him take this step. He came here for you only,” a voice in my head rang which seemed so weird but at least I had someone to guide me and help me.
“I couldn’t see him with someone else,” I retorted back in my mind. “Will he leave me here alone?”
“Please, follow me. I’ll drop you home, you shouldn’t be here alone at night,” he said through a mind-link, not bothering with turning to face me.
“A gentleman never leaves his girl alone even when he is hurt or mad,” my subconscious said and I felt my stress reducing.
My mate was perfect, the only wrong thing was that he had to marry Amber. I shouldn’t have overreacted. Removing my barrier, I allowed him access to my thoughts and my brain. Maybe I shouldn’t have put a barrier at all, he would have read my thoughts and the problem wouldn’t have been created.
“How could she say that I loved just her body?” he thought in his mind. “I wanted all of her, not just her body. It’s hard to have trust issues, how could she doubt my intentions when I was ready to die rather than living a life without her?.”
His last sentence made me drench in the pond of guilt. How could I forget that?
Moving my pinky finger unhurriedly to touch his hand, I closed my eyes, wishing that he wouldn't protest. My finger brushed against his hand and he shoved his hands into the pockets of his tux suit.
“Don’t test my patience, Scarlett. I’m a fucking Alpha and it’s hard to remain in control when you have found your mate. I can’t help but have the horny aspects of the Alphas because it’s in my genes,” he growled, his brown eyes turning to the darkest shade of brown. The lust and desires flickered in his eyes.
My breathing slowed dramatically, the rapid fall and rise of my chest made me feel like my lungs were on fire and they needed more breath, and he…
The heat clawed in my body at the wrong time again and earned his attention.
“Scarlett,” he gasped. “You’re sweating…you…you’re in the heat.”
Leaning my body to him, I pressed my body hard against him, clutching the fabric of his jacket in my fists. Before he could push me away, I cupped his cheeks with my trembling hands as the heat got intense and I couldn’t stand still.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have…” I couldn’t finish my words as I had to gulp due to the thirstiness in my throat.
I was feeling too hot to wear anything, I needed to be out of this fucking gown.
“What should I do? Should I carry her into my arms? Should I touch her or not? What about my promise? How will this heat end? Her first heat was nothing in comparison to this one, she’s losing control over her body.” His thoughts echoed in my mind and I couldn’t bear the voices anymore.
“You…” I swallowed a lump in my throat and added, “You won’t touch me unless I ask so I ask you to…” my shy nature stopped me from saying further but the desires in my body took control over me and I whispered in a breathless voice, “to touch me, punish me for my mistakes.”
I couldn’t believe my own voice and words.
“Oh, my Scarlett. Remember that you asked for it, then,” he asserted with a smile before engulfing me in a warm hug. His warmth against my skin made me feel hotter than before. The sparks spread in my body like a fire, putting my body on fire.
He pulled me away and crashed his lips against mine in a demanding kiss. My lips savored his sweetness hungrily. I didn’t fight and gave in to the desires as the last heat’s memories pooled over in my mind. It was futile to fight against my desires and him.
I needed him as much as I needed the air to breathe.
“It’s full moon night. We should make love tonight,” he whispered in my ear before lapping my jawline and moving his lips and tongue to my bosom.
His hands found my zipline and he undressed me deftly, picking me in his arms so I could push the dress off my body and feel the fresh air caressing my exposed body. I felt a bit shy as I remembered that I hadn’t worn a bra beneath my dress and his lustful gaze stared at my boobs before taking one boob in his mouth and cupping the other one with his massive hand.