— I do not want to suffer more— his hand held my neck, sinking the
fingers in my hair, almost snored with touch. — I did not
would bear to lose you. By the Moon! What are you doing to me?—
whispering, squeezing my hair, touching our foreheads.
— I ask myself the same question— I replied hoarse, watching those
gray eyes that I loved to look so much, and nothing else mattered
At that moment, just him, us.
My skin shivered with the intensity of your gaze, the connection that
united us was so strong, enveloped us with strength. I noticed my breath
accelerated, I opened my lips, trying to breathe properly, but
It was hard to pay attention to anything other than Jackson.
— Stay with me— he asked suddenly.
— But I’m with you— let out a nervous laugh.
Jack shook his head.
— Not for power or dominance, but for the true feeling that
feel for each other, stay with me, Hayley, I want to live for your
side, I can make mistakes many times, but never doubt what I feel for you.
I knew what Jack was proposing, a real relationship, and I didn’t
for interest and power as before, but a chance for love.
My eyes burned and my voice got lost in my throat, I replied
not with words, but with attitude. I pulled him closer and kissed him.
The almost electric sensation hit our bodies in a brutal way, a
heat that burned me from the inside out, something only Jack was
able to wake up. I’ve been alone for a long time, lonely, until he
come into my life and make me want to live again, no
survive but enjoy my life and all she had to me
offer.
My heart was still overflowing inside my chest. Jack kissed me with
affection, passion, took my breath deliciously and destroyed all
barrier I’ve built around me in the last few years.
Perhaps we were destined to meet long ago. The
Moon predestined us for some reason and our union would be marked
in the stars for all to see.
I lost everyone I loved, my family, the place I called home,
but found it all again in Jackson’s arms. Because he had
made my safe haven.
And I was in love with the Supreme Alpha, Jackson Labonair, and
First time, that didn’t scare me.
— You know you don’t need to settle the pack matters far away, no
is it? On top of everything, I am calmer knowing that you are close— commented
taking the glass of wine to my lips, taking a sip and could feel the
sweet taste of drink.
Jack was lying on the shaggy carpet of the room, still before the
fireplace, I liked the heat coming from the fire. He was finally more
quiet, quiet, and I could breathe peacefully. The pain had no
vanished completely from his gaze, Jack did not try to hide anymore
that of me.
Something had changed between us that night, where he finally
was opening your heart to me, letting me see your
scars and inner demons. Jack was trusting his soul to me.
— I don’t want to bother you— he replied, making me roll my eyes.
— It does not bother me— I repeated kissing her lips quickly, seeing the
shadow of a smile go through your face. — Promise me one thing?—
asked.
— Something— kissed my chin and took a slight bite.
— Don’t hide anything from me anymore.
— We’ve talked about it, you’re their target— put a lock
behind my ear.
— I’ve always been a target since I was born and I’ve never been afraid, not myself
I chickened out, and it won’t be now that I’m hiding like a criminal.
Let them come, and I’ll tear you apart one by one.
Jackson was still not convinced, tried to hide his fear, but
I couldn’t fool myself anymore.
— Trust in me.
— I trust— guaranteed quickly. — I just don’t want you to get hurt.
I opened a small smile, brushing our lips, her gaze darkened in
same moment and he squeezed my waist.
— So, Supreme, stop treating me like a damsel in distress or me
I swear to God, I’ll rip out what’s between your legs.
For the first time that day, Jack opened a wide smile and I almost
I drooled at that vision.
— You’re gonna rip your favorite part out of my body?
I hit him on the shoulder, hearing his malicious laugh. I leaned over him
again, and kissed her lips quickly, pulling me away then,
hearing his grunt of protest.
— We’re a team, Jack. You and me, always.
Jack held my face, sliding his thumb across my cheek
blushing.
— I’ve been alone for so long, carrying all the weight and
responsibility alone, it’s strange to share the burden.
— I know— sighed. — But you are no longer alone, I am no longer
alone.
His smile was brilliant in response. And I couldn’t hold my breath
of kissing him until I lost my breath and that’s what I did, delighting me with their
kisses and their bold caresses. Jack lay on the carpet and covered his
body with mine, feeling his warmth. I hugged him when he pulled me
to your arms and rested my head on your chest, feeling the
heartbeat.
Your caress in my hair made my eyelids heavy, but
I fought to keep my eyes open.
— How did you manage to stand firm during all those years?—
I asked him.
I had Aiden, Rebecca and our family helping me continue
fighting, but Jack was left alone, without anyone.
— I suffered many attacks of rebels when I assumed the supremacy of my
Father, these were difficult times, especially after the rebellion. I needed
turn into a fortress of steel and iron to survive, to
endure the pain and loneliness that spread through my life after losing
my family. I gave myself completely to the inner monsters
that contained within me for years, anger and hatred, was consumed
for mourning.
Clenched my eyes, soothing that fierce feeling that roared
inside me.
— I managed to control the rebels and strays at great cost, were
days and nights of hunting, I did terrible things, I hung up
completely of emotions or feelings.
I licked my dry lips.
— I think we all did horrible things to survive— he said
shorty. — I don’t remember a time in my life that I didn’t have to
kill to survive.
Jack kissed my hair, he understood and did not judge me. Jack saw everything
that I was dirty, wicked and merciless, and yet did not turn away,
He didn’t care about that cruel and bloody side.
Victoria was fucking dead!
The world stopped around me when those three words escaped
from Ayla’s lips. The pain that spread through my chest was
overwhelming, the grip that arose in my throat prevented me from
say something.
She was dead. The wolf that had survived the abduction and the torture of
misguided, all abuses and violations, had plunged into the river of
city at dawn and did not return to the surface, drowned. His body
lifeless was found floating in the waters that morning.
I squeezed my eyes tight, feeling the first tear dripping down
my face, I choked a cry of anger and hate that went up mine
throat for more that death that I was not able to prevent. The blame
falls on my shoulders once again.
Victoria couldn’t take it, and so took her own life, drowning in
river and letting the waters take his life and his pains at once.
I didn’t know her, talked to her only once, but her story
suffered aroused compassion within me, empathy for her to have fought
to survive, even when I had no hope.
Jack closed the door of the room after asking Mark and Ayla to leave
after giving the news of the death of the female. I sank my face in the hands,
unable to hold the hiccup that shook my body, the sound
broken the silence that hung in the room. Tears wet
my hands and ran down my face.
— Wolf— Jack called me with his calm voice, sat beside me and
ran his arm over my shoulders, sank my face into his neck
and cried again for the death of Victoria. The wolf that lived a
hell in the last few months and survived until that day.
— She’s dead— I sobbed.
— I’m sorry— Jack whispered against my hair, squeezing me
more in your arms, trying to ease the pain in my chest. — I feel
much, my love.
I pressed my lips, trying to calm my cry. The burial of
Victoria would happen at night, near sunrise. Her body would be
cremated, following the traditions of our people and their ashes thrown
in the waters of the river that took her life. She deserved a decent burial
of his courage and bravery for revealing that he had a stray between
us. I didn’t know if he had anything to do with his death, but I swore the moon
that if he did, it would be one more reason to make his body in
pieces when he found it.
— Come, I’ll take you to the room, you need to rest.
I didn’t protest when Jack picked me up and pulled me off the living room couch,
walking towards the stairs that would take us to the second floor,
only hugged him tightly and inhaled his smell, closed my eyes to
lean my head on your chest, listening to the calm beats of your
heart. I let Jackson take me to my room and lay me down
in bed, I held his hand when he threatened to walk away.
I stared at him with tears in my eyes.
— It won’t go away— I asked softly, I didn’t want to be alone.
Jack held my hand and kissed her.
— I’m not going anywhere, I’m just closing the door, okay?— I waved,
letting go of his hand and letting him get up to close the door.
I lay down on the bed while Jack closed the bedroom door and
windows, pulling the curtains so that I did not see the uproar in
pack with Victoria’s sudden death. He took off his shoes before
lay beside me on the bed and pulled me to lie on his chest,
Jack wrapped me with his arms and squeezed me, trying to pass me
comfort. His hand began to caress my hair and mine.
eyelids weighed.
— I’ll make them pay for it, Hayley— promised softly. — Let’s kill
all of them, I will have no mercy.
I just hugged him in response, held on to the promise I’d made to
Victoria to avenge her, hunt and find who had done her harm and
finally give each of them a slow and painful death. I held with
strength that promise not to succumb to mourning, not to give in the pain of
loss. And mostly, I held on to what I felt for Jackson not to
Lose me once more or I’ll never find my way.
(....)
The tears had ceased.
I wouldn’t shed any more tears for Victoria’s death. My
heart still hurt, was plunged into pain and grief, but not
spent a second even crying. I knew the depth of the
dark well that existed inside me, a dark part of who
I was the one struggling to keep hidden, forgotten inside.
It was almost dawn, the whole pack was gathered on the edge of the
lake where Victoria had died. Her fragile body lay on a
raft of twigs, leaves and flowers in the river waters. A white and
smooth enveloped her lifeless body, her skin was as pale as
snow and purple lips.
I found Ayla next to Mark, the female was fighting her own
tears, knew Victoria more than me. Her gaze found me, me
I struggled to keep my face indifferent without showing the mess
inside me.