I was astounded and shocked by what had happened. My eyes were filled with emotions I couldn't put into words as I slowly started to leave the room.
His statements did not in any way make me feel better. They actually harmed me. It was clear from the way he ended his sentence that I had no influence. I was required to carry out his instructions in full. I immediately questioned how it was possible for anything to appear so calm when everything around me was collapsing—a blatant contradiction to my situation.
I stood there just gazing at the door while Sin grinned and closed the door on my face.
It didn't take long for me to start feeling sorry for myself. Despite the fact that he had spanked me with both of his hands and I had never been so punished in my life, I got the impression that I was constantly on the verge of happiness.
Although I had considered myself to be strong, I was unprepared for this.
I started to cry. I held my chest in an effort to contain the tears that were streaming down my face.
I despised him.
He was everything that I despised. I wanted him. I needed him.
I tried to accept the truth that he had broken me as I sobbed while opening my mouth and licking my lips. I knew that when he had broken me with agony and pleasure, I would never be the same.
What was his purpose?
He pretended to want me one moment, and then suddenly seemed unimportant. To him, was it all a game?
I laughed indignantly. Of course it was a game. That is what he did. He tried to make me look bad, and this is what he did. He merely wanted to play with me and then throw me away.
I was nothing more than a pawn in his hands. I had to walk carefully as a result. I would participate in any game he was playing since I had to leave this place alive in any manner.
"Mani," a voice called from behind me suddenly, causing me to yelp, snapping me out of my thoughts.
I swiftly turned around to discover Luca standing a few steppes behind me with a perplexed expression. His eyes swept over my scruffy body, noticing my unruly hair and Sin’s shirt. I blushed as I unconsciously took a defensive stance by encircling my body with my arms.
I could see the concern and realization on his face as he stated, "I didn't think you were up this," and it made me want to cower in shame. "Are you alright? Should I go get Zoey for you?" He spoke once again, his face contorted in sincerity.
I sucked in, moistening my lips. "I swiveled around quickly to see Luca standing a couple of steppes behind me with a puzzled look on his face . His eyes scanned my disheveled form, taking in my wild hair and the sin shirt that I had on.
This made me blush as I subconsciously wrapped my arms around my body in a protective stance.
" I didn’t think you were up this, he " he said, taking a step closer to me, I could see the concern and realisation look on his face which madee want to cower in shame. " Are you okay? Do you need me to get Zoey?" He spoke again, his face shunned with sincerity.
I gulped, wetting my lips. " No, I will be fine." I was nervous enough that he had witnessed me in this state. The last thing I wanted was for Zoey to see me like this.
I didn't want to tell Zoey what had happened, at least not today. She would likely press me to do so.
" You're rattled" he continued. I look at my quaking body. "I can see why you're concerned about Zoey seeing you in this way. Why don't I brew you a cup of hot tea to help you relax?"
"It's fine, you don't have to bother," I said. I stumbled uncomfortably. " If it's okay with you, I just want to rest. "
" If you want to, sure." He sighed as he said it. " Why don't I walk you to your room?."
" You don't need to...."
"I insist," Luca uttered , which left little space for debate, and I sighed and nodded in agreement.
Standing beside me, he smiled softly, and I cast one more glance at Sin's door before we started walking towards my room.
Knowing he had won the wager and that he might have easily taken me, how was I going to deal with him the following day? I was embarrassed by how well and how quickly my body betrayed me.
I could almost say I didn't want him, but he was fully aware of the fabrication. He had no reason to consider my feelings as i lied about something he was certain of.
" Try to get a decent night's sleep and try not to dwell on today's events too much" . My thoughts were interrupted by Luca's words.
I turned around to see him standing at the doorway. His arms were crossed over his chest, his muscles bulging.
I swallowed hard against the lump growing in my throat. When I nodded, he gave a small smile, stepping back and closing the door.
I sighed in relief when I lay on the bed, my body curled up like a foetus, feeling feeble as tiredness clouded my vision.
The silky comforter was soft under my hands and all I wanted to do was sleep. I snuggled deeper into the soft mattress until my body felt limp, my eyes slowly drifting shut, the memory of today long gone.
At least for now.