"Just get naked in front of him, that would do the trick," she said, taking a sip of her drink and not choking on it this time.
"You think that is going to work," I implored. Silence fell before us when a waiter passed by. I stretched my arms to take a drink from the tray before the waiter left.
"It's undoubtedly going to work, or you could just give him a preview
, if you know what I mean," Samantha said, winking at me. This time, I was the one doing the choking.
"What..." I whispered quietly, my face still red.
"Give him a blow job, trust me; you will have him speaking in so many languages at one time, girl." She smirked, clearly enjoying my reaction.
"I don't know how to do that; I have never given a blow to a guy before," I said unsure.
"Can you be less cute? It's easy to get on your knees, take off his pants, get his dick out, and suck." She stated in a matter-of-fact tone, like it was that easy.
"Relax, everything will be okay. I don't think Sin can stay mad at you."
"I hope so; I’m going to the terrace; I need air," I said, standing up.
"Do you want me to go with you?" Samantha asked, rising up with me.
"No, I will be okay. If you are worried about what happened yesterday, Sin already assigned me my own bodyguard," I said, pointing at a big, scary guy at the far corner of the room who was staring in our direction.
"Okay, if you need me, I will be right here."
"Thanks," I said quietly as I left the hall, walking out to the terrace.
The voice drained out as the silence of the night flowed around me. The terrace was empty; I stood at the edge looking down the backyard, where there was a tree with lanterns hanging on both sides. It was beautiful.
I stood there for quite some time, watching the clear sky. I think of how my life was before all this drama, and my family and I miss them terribly. I was getting used to smoking even when I didn’t want to, and I couldn't seem to do anything to prevent it. He was right when he said he wanted to possess every single thought in my head, and he is doing a perfect job at it.
I can’t help but blame everything on myself; I blame myself for letting Stephanie talk me into going to his club that night. I blame myself for putting them in danger since they were under Sin's constant watch. I blame myself for wanting sin.
"Amore" Sin's soft voice startled me out of my thoughts. I quickly composed myself and turned around to see him. "What are you doing out in the cold?" He stood next to me, staring at the lanterns on the tree.
"Needed some fresh air," I replied and looked away. I felt his hand tuck a strain of my hair behind my ear and rest the back of his hand on my cheek. I remained still, looking ahead.
"Are you still mad at me?" I asked anxiously. "I’m sorry, Nikolai."
"I was freaking out when I thought something bad was going to happen to you," he replied, agitated, and I could almost see a hint of fear in his eyes, but maybe I was just seeing things.
"Nikolai, I'm fine, you saved me," he cursed and pulled at his hair, and I pulled him towards me, "Nothing happened, and that's all that matters."
"If you notice, Mani, I'm not great at controlling my anger when it involves you," he groaned, frustrated.
"I'm fine. His hands didn't leave any prints on my face, and the scar on my forehead is barely visible. So you don't need to beat yourself up, Nikolai."
His eyes scanned my face, probably to see if I was lying to him, and I was sure he got his answer; he let out a sigh of relief. He leaned in and kissed my cheek.
We were interrupted by Samantha, who was laughing at something Luca said. Sin muttered something under his breath and made his way to them. I watched them talk among themselves. I looked at Luca, and he waved at me before coming over and leaving Samantha, Sin, and Jason alone.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Luca asked before standing at the same spot Sin was a minute ago.
"This is just not my scene." I shrug, staring deep into the night.
"I know about what happened last night; I'm not going to ask if you’re okay because I'm sure you are tired of being asked the same question. I'm just glad you are alright." I smiled at him, and he smiled back at me, then gave me a pat on the back.
We were back at the hotel; we left early due to the fact that we were leaving Paris the next day. Sin was in the bathroom, having a shower. I swallowed a ball of nerves; my palm was sweaty. I can't believe I'm going through with this. I was excited and anxious at the same time. What if I don't do it right?
I took a quick breath to calm my nerves before stepping out of my dress. I removed my bra and pants, then walked into the bathroom. Sin turned around in the shower, surprised to see me, clearly not expecting me to stand naked in front of him against my will. He had confusion dancing in his eyes.
I walked up to him and placed my hands on his chest. I lifted my legs up to kiss his jaw and neck.
"You are playing a dangerous game, amore. I would stop if I were you because I promise I won't be gentle." His grip was tight on my arm as he spoke his warning in my ear.