Ryan POV:-
"Please.. I beg you... Don't be an animal."
Her words brought me to reality as I realized how much of a corrupt act I have committed.
“Please, stop. Please.”
I stood there motionless, feeling degraded by my sin. My heartbeat became feeble, my senses were turned in a blur.
‘What the hell have I done?’
A heavy breath escaped my lips as I was so ashamed that I couldn't even look her dead in the eyes.
“I.. Re.. I..”
‘I couldn't meet the gaze of the person I hate, the person who betrayed me.’
The sound of her cries rang in my ears as the image of how she wiped her lips in disgust flashed in my mind.
“Don’t do this…”
Not being able to bear this affliction anymore, I took a step back and turned and left her alone.
“What the hell was it?”
I walked out of the room and stormed into my studies.
I slammed the door behind me and grit my teeth in irk.
“How can I do something like this? Dad never taught me this, he always taught me how to respect women. What.. Took over me?” I trailed off, unable to look at myself.
“Did the rage blind me that much? Okay, I get it I want to make her pay, I want to get revenge but.. This is not the right way.” I whispered, running my hand in my hairs, making them messy.
...On the path of revenge, you have to throw away the righteous…
I exhaled to show my frustration as I ran my hands in my hair. I felt humiliated, that's not me.
'She deceived you'
My mind tried to justify my act but it cannot give me any consolation as I felt utterly disgraced.
“SHIT!” I threw away my dignity, just in hatred. I groaned in annoyance, my mind was clouded with mixed emotions of contamination, hatred and sadness.
‘Please someone guide me before I lose my track of virtue’
"FUCK!!" I shouted, slamming my hand on the desk.
Feeling like my exasperation is on its peak and I can't think properly as the emotion which is affecting my mind the most is loathe.
“Sir-”
This emotion is like a blindfold which is turning me oblivious of my other emotions and not letting me think straight.
“Leave!”
I continued to comfort myself but, to no avail as a sudden lull took over me because of having a tiresome- mournful day.
The day I was supposed to marry the love of my life but instead got fooled by her family.
I found myself losing in that peace, earning a short-lived reprieve from this bitter reality.
My eyes fluttered as I woke up gasping.
“Please let it be a dream.” For a second, I felt like what happened was nothing but a horrible nightmare.
“Please be a-” But I was brought back when I saw the wedding ring on my finger.
“Fuck…” I ran my hand in my hair making them messy. I loosen my tie and took it off as I opened a few buttons of my shirt.
I took off my coat and decided to change.
I went to my room. I entered and saw Rebecca sitting on the ground while her chin resting on the bed while her arms folded around it.
“What the-” My cold gaze softened for a second when I looked at her.
The truck of realization hit me, when I remembered when Marianne told me that she is afraid of being alone.
“Great. Now, babysit a pathetic loser.”
Even back at home, she opened the door of her room and slept with her lights on. It must be hard for her to sleep in darkness and alone too.
“Damn woman.”
I have indirectly known a lot about her. I cannot forget the talk because they were spoken by Marianne but I always considered them irrelevant.
I never thought they would become something- never mind. It's still irrelevant, I don't care about her.
“You deserve it.”
I ignored her presence and went to the closet. I took off my casual shirt and trousers and went to the bathroom to have a cold shower.
I walked out with water dripping from my hair, wearing my clothes.
I spared a final glance towards her slumbering form and walked to my bride still dressed in black.
“Hey, wake up.” I called but she didn’t even flinch.
I stood in front of her and bent on one knee. I narrowed my eyes on her.
‘Did.. she passed out?’ I thought, scanning her form.
“What you sacrificed? When you are the one who cheated me, how come you are a victim too?” I asked, noticing dried tears I induced which ruined her makeup.
I had so many questions.
What tragedy happened to you that you are that insensible ..
“Or perhaps you sacrificed your life for the sake of your sister? But why?” I whispered.
Who is the victim here?
“Why did you do this? Are you happy now?” I asked, unsure what to do.
I don’t know if she is a heavy sleeper, hearing my talks or truly unconscious.
Questions roamed in my mind. I sighed and shook my head, it's no use, what matters is that my life is bound to the woman I least wanted to marry.
From what I heard about her, she is not my type.
“Stop acting.” Being emotionless is the trait I never want in my wife.
I cannot even divorce her.. For now. For the sake of the name I spend years gaining.
“Didn’t you hear me?” I stared at her, my eyes scanned her from top to bottom, feeling nothing for her.
“Pathetic.” Sighing, she truly passed out from the fright of being alone last night.
Her hairs were messy because I pulled them and my heart constricted upon seeing it. I moved my hand close and untangled her hairs.
“What a pain.” Her veil fell letting her raven hairs to let loose. Her hairs were long, stopping at her back but they were greatly taken care of.
A strand of her hair fell on her face. I brought my hand close to her face, wanting to tug it behind her ears.
I was about to touch her but stopped midway.
I curled my hands in a fist and pulled my hand back.
I sighed and slid my hand around her and picked her up like bridal style.
I placed her on the bed and backed away, taking off her shoes and other accessories, putting the blanket over her.
I sat on the sofa as I laid on it and drifted to sleep.
The next day, I woke up before her. I got ready and was about to leave for work.
I know I can't avoid her forever but I will for as long as I can.
I went to the hall and went to Jen; Our maid.
"Jen." I called her.
"Yes, Sir?" She asked.
"Shift Rebecca's stuff back to my room." I ordered. Now, that's a problem, I cannot leave her alone.
She is scared.
"And yeah, from now on, you will not leave her side. From the moment I leave the house till I come back. You will not leave her side even for a second. Got it?" I explained.
"Yes sir."
Don't get me wrong. I still want my revenge, I want to make her miserable but I will not do this but using the most obvious thing.
I'll use ‘my ways’ to break her.