Rebecca POV:-
Ryan took it all wrong, I didn't mean it to do it. I can be anything but I can't be a cheater. His words hit me like an arrow as I felt I am immersing deeper into despair.
"You have proven that nothing but hate is present between us." He said and pushed me away.
“Mr Knight-”
Before I could say anything in my defense, he left. His tears..
He was crying.
I broke his heart. I destroyed the house he was trying to build. I shattered the dreams he began to think with me.
“What have I done?”
That moment, my mind was clouded with nothing but extreme sorrow as I felt so guilty.
“No.. I swear, I didn’t mean to..”
I stood there stunned as silent tears rolled down from my eyes without any intention of stopping. My lips began to quiver as I couldn't comprehend my surroundings.
“Please.. Come back.”
I felt like my mind was in a desolate place all alone with misery. My strength is deprived of me as I fall on my knees.
“Please…”
“What have I done?”
My whole body began to shake uncontrollably as I let out convulsed sounds. I put my hand on the floor as I lowered my head and let out a quiet whimper.
I curled my hand in a fist as tears fell on my hand.
‘When I don't care then why did his tears hurt me that much?’ His look of devastation stirred my mind drastically.
Lost in the abyss, I let out a sob followed by the deafening sound of it echoing in the room. I began to cry out loud, the sound was roaring.
“I didn’t mean to, I didn’t. Please don’t leave me too.”
I don't even remember when was the last time I cried like that. When I cried for someone else, not for myself.
I wanted to go to him and tell him that I am not a cheater.
But then- ‘What will I say?’
That I don't love Jayden but... him?
He, who loved Marianne; my sister.
How can I even think about Ryan like that?
“What is our relationship?!”
After crying my heart out I leaned my back on the bed as I sat on the ground while hugging my knees close to my chest.
I sniffed and tears still didn't stop. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back.
I remained like that for I don't know how long but then I slowly opened my eyes as my eyes fell upon a set of bangles fallen on the ground.
He got them.. For me… When was the last time someone gave me a gift?
I picked them as a smile crept upon my lips. In the set of 12, some of them were broken. There were only 8 left.
I looked at them for about a minute, feeling as if they were some treasure. I wore them. I then wiped my tears and stood up.
“I can’t lose you. I don’t have anyone anymore.”
I went to the dressing table and looked for the lighter. I have seen him smoking cigarettes often, there must be a lighter somewhere.
I searched a lot and finally found one. I gave a seething look to all those notes scattered on the bed.
‘I never thought that my notes of serenity would ruin me.’
I picked a note and burned it. I burned all of them one by one. My heart felt nothing. I thought I would cry but I felt nothing as ashes fell on the ground.
I burned all of them and stared at their ashes. I sighed and stood up. Should I go and talk to Ryan, but what will I say?
“Think, Rebecca, Say something.”
I leaned my back on the wall beside the door as I sat on the ground and hid my face in my knees.
I remained like that for a while and found myself falling into a deep slumber.
"What do you get?" A voice came as I shot my head and saw Jane.
My eyes widened when I saw her, she walked forward with that usual smirk plastered on her lips.
“J-Jane?”
Her raven flowing along the wind and hazel eyes, similar to Marianne. She stood in front of me and put her hand on her waist.
"What good did your possessions give you?" She asked.
A sad smile formed on my lips as I lowered my head and replied softly, "You."
"Then your love took my life."
"That's why I have decided not to love anyone." I replied.
"Him too?" She asked, looking in another direction.
My eyes widened when I saw Ryan crying. I was still unable to think and speak. “Mr Knight! I am sorry, please-”
Upon seeing him, I neglected everything else and tried to run to him but my body couldn’t move.
“Please! Listen to me, I swear.” I called desperately, hoping my words would reach him so he could hold my hand.
I don’t know why but I cannot allow myself to lose him as well. I don’t want to count him among the people I have lost.
I tried to speak but she snapped her finger and he was no longer there.
“Mr Knight-”
"Make him forget Marianne so that he won't bother her anymore." she said monotonously.
“Does he still think about her?” I asked, my heart stabbed to think.
“Why wouldn’t he? Just like you still about Jayden.”
“No! I don’t!” I argued.
“Control yourself, Rebecca before you lose, Marianne too.” She instructed but my heart shattered.
I looked at her as she continued, "What? You have lost me, you surely don't want to lose Marianne too... over a man."
I stood there motionless. Wake up This is not real, Ryan’s love for Marianne has ended, right?
"But that's who you are." She snickered and began to walk around me.
"Insensible."
"Loveless. "
"Undesirable." She then stood in front of me as she spoke her final words with intense hatred.
"Murderer."