I lean by the window close to my desk as the teacher taught in music class. A student was performing, playing the keyboard, a form of showing us some skills and what the teacher was saying.
My thoughts weren't in class, my mind was not there either, I was staring out at the birds that were soaring high in the sky while I thought back at Robin’s word.
Teach me how to love
The music ended and the loud applause drew my attention back to the class. I joined the applaud although I haven't focus in the class.
The teacher said a few words before we were dismissed. I gently closed my book and put them into my bag, when I looked up my lips parted to see who was there and my brows furrowed.
"Hi baby." Hinn said with a smile on his face, but there was none on my face, I could still remember the words he said to Robin.
You look pathetic Robin
I got up from my chair and hung my bag over my shoulder. "Do you mind Hinn Carlos? I would like to have a talk with you." I said seriously, arching my brows indifferently.
"Is there any problem?" He asked me but I didn’t respond, I just headed to class and followed me.
I took the stairs heading up to the rooftop in the A department. It was cold when we got up, it wasn’t raining, the weather was normal but not sunny either.
I shut my eyes as I still picture the sad look on Robin’s face that day he spoke with Robin.
"What is Ivana?" Hinn asked me as he stepped close to look me in the face.
I opened my eyes, staring into the eyes of the man I have adored for years. I still remember the first day I saw him on that stage at the villa. He was so happy and looked dazzling.
"Hinn Carlos, why did you say that to Robin the other day." It came as a shock to him, I was sure he was not expecting me to hear or see it. "What makes you think Robin Heisten is pathetic, why did you hurt him with your words that day, you were supposed to be his friend." I voiced out with a clenched fist.
Hinn exhaled sharply and walked over to the pillar, he leaned on it and took out a cigarette, he looked down at it and then smirked.
"There is more to Robin that you don't know about ivana." He looked at me as he lit the cigarette. I don't know Hinn Carlos as a person who smokes but I didn’t say anything.
"Tell me then." I stepped over to him. "What is wrong with Robin and why do you say those hurtful words to him that day?"
Hinn threw down the cigarette and stepped on it. "Robin’s past has been a mess Ivana, I wouldn’t advise you to find out, neither would I let you fall in love with him."
I parted my lips, I knew what was wrong with Robin must be something from his past, but now, why was Hinn saying he won't let me fall in love with Robin? Not as if I am in love with Robin.
"Tell me, what is wrong with Robin, what happened in his past?" I brushed his last words away, I was more curious to know about Robin’s past.
"That isn't my story to tell Ivana, I don't know much about that, the only thing I know is that Robin is a kid that hides in his shell, a person who craves affection but his heart is so cold, because it has been hurt before."
Hinn Carlos was speaking in riddles, I don’t understand what he was saying. Does it mean he doesn't know or he does not want to tell me about it?
Hinn touched my shoulder. "Don't do this to yourself Ivana, don't worry about Robin, be is okay being by himself, you should focus more on practice and also you shouldn't get so close as to falling in love with Robin, that place isn't good for you, you would only feel hurt and worry about him even more, just focus on being my girlfriend and singing on stage."
Hinn looked at me for a while and left my shoulder. "Seems we can't have our date today too, practice would start soon, so be down at the practice hall in an hour's time." He gave me a half smile and walked away.
I shut my eyes, Hinn Carlos has said the same exact thing Robin had told me. Focus on your dreams and practice and don't worry about others or their past?
I swallowed hard, why does there have to be a lot of secrets in people's lives? First was Katherine, Ryan and Hinn, now it was Robin.
I squat down, placing my hands on my head. This would only give me a headache, it would be better if I don’t find out about their past.
I would only use this silly excuse of making Robin love to learn more about music from him, I would stand on stage, reach stardom and then leave this school of secret.
I nodded and got up to leave when I came face to face with Clara who was staring at me with a dark expression.
"You startled me." I held my chest and looked at her with a frown. "Why do you stare at me like a zombie?" I asked her.
"I wish I was one, I would have torn you to pieces right now!" She growled at me.
"I am scared." I said sarcastically. "Say what you must, if not then walk along." I told her.
Clara scoffed. "Is it true that you are living in the same mansion as Robin Heisten?" She glared at me.
Damn it! How did this get to her ear?
"Everyone is talking about it, tell me is it true?" She asked again, this time she barked in anger.
"Who told you this?" I asked instead of replying.
"Ryan, he said you live in the same building as Robin Heisten!" Clara blared her teeth at me.
"Oh…" I mouthed, now I understand why Robin says Ryan talks too much. I wonder how a person like Ryan went up to stardom with his gossip nature, he should have become a broadcaster instead.
"Yes, I live at his house, why are you so worked up about that?" I raised my brows trying to annoy her even more.
"Don't you look so proud, Ivana?" I blinked, I never knew she knew my name, thus was the first. "First you are dating my cousin and also staying at Robin’s house, how sure am I that you don't cheat on Hinn Carlos."
I scoffed. I wonder who exactly she is fighting over, was it for Hinn Carlos or was it for Robin Heisten. She makes me laugh.
Clara laughed. "Robin would never look at you, why would he, I am sure he is offended with having a moocher at his place." Clara looked down at me, yeah, she must be trying to offend me now and it was working.
"Oh Clara, perhaps you don't know." I walked close to her. "Robin who you say all this about actually confessed his feelings to me." I looked at her face and it turned pale instantly.
Now I am winning
"That is hilarious, perhaps you don't know Ivana." Clara curled her lips up.
"Know what?" I was getting scared of what was about to come up from her lips.
"Robin doesn't love anyone else but one girl, and she is the person he misses and loves most in the world." Clara's lips curled up.
"Sorry Clara, your lies won't work on me, why because, Robin I know doesn’t have a girlfriend, he has not loved anyone before, a person like you will have no idea because all your life you only think like a boy and not a girl."
"How dare you!" Clara raised her hands to hit me but I held her hands and flung it away.
"Don't show how frustrated you are Clara, it isn't good for you, I know you have feelings for Robin, but who would want to look at a tomboy, dressing up like a girl too would still not make him look at you, so just continue dressing up like a boy, perhaps that way he would spare some time to talk to you."
Clara was speechless, damn, I was so good at annoying people too, I don't know why all these didn't come out of my lips when Katherine had first talked to me, or when Robin had hurt me.
"I would love to continue this conversation Clara, but we still have practice to do, perhaps, we can talk it over after the practice, plus you should be good to me, perhaps I may be the pass code for you to at least have one conversation with Robin again."
I grinned and shook my head. "Talking to you isn't so bad you know, I needed this chit-chat to get some thoughts out of my head, thank you Clara." I patted her shoulder and walked out.
"Asshole!" Clara shouted behind my back as I shut the rooftop door.
I wanted to do a happy dance, I was glad to have finally gotten Clara offended, I wonder what Katy would say if she hears this gist.
I walked into the practice room and all eyes turned to me, they were all glaring at me. Shit! I forgot almost all the girls in this school have fallen in love with Robin.
Now my name could be on their death list. I am doomed!