CHAPTER 54
MONTANA'S POV
Alpha Lincoln stared at me stunned. For a moment, he looked as if he did not know what to say until her told me, "Tame your tone, Montana, know your place."
He growled lowly, "Know. Your. Damn. Place!"
I know I was at the brim of tears, I felt so much anger but this was not the place or time, "I will be leaving, you can bring the kids back with you later", I turned and started leaving.
I was already with all my stuff, so need to stop at where I was seated.
"Montana you are not leaving until we are all done, especially me", Alpha Lincoln said stopping me in my track.
I turned and looked at, "Well, I am done, and I am leaving, you are free to fuck anyone in pants here, free tables to lay them on, you are free dear Alpha Lincoln," I said to him mockingly, turned and left.
I heard him calling out to me, "MONTANA!", I know I should listen because I had too but I just, I just needed to leave.
I was not sure if anyone has noticed our little argument and on the other hand I felt like it was noticed by just few people.
I got out, got a cab and went back home. There in the ride, I was trying so hard not to break down. I wiped my eyes furiously and when the driver reached a certain destination, I can down, paid him and left.
Shuts my door!
Finally, was now in my room, alone. I still haven't cried, I was just so filled up with different emotions and pent-up anger.
The way I have been feeling all these time and trying to understand him, it was coming out with full force and I just wanted to let it all out.
Who would have thought he would have followed me back home when my room door opened with him even knocking or asking for permission.
"How dare you defy and embarrass me, Montana? Did I not win you before we left for that party?", Alpha Lincoln yelled at me.
"You did that to me first in the worst way possible, and I only reciprocated that in that little way," I said back to him.
I knew both of us are furious presently and if we talk like this, I do not think anything will get sorted out. I really wanted to have that discussion about us.
"I'm sorry, okay? Let's just talk, Lincoln."
"It is Alpha to you, Montana," He warned me, "Really do not piss me off, I won't hesitate in activating my ruthless side."
"I am sorry Alpha, I only reacted that way because I was Jealous", I finally said to him. Whatever that happens I'm just going to let my feelings out, I am tired of holding back. Whatever will happen will happen.
"What do you mean Jealous, Montana? You have no right to be, and I can sleep with anyone I want, so can you", he gritted his teeth, "This is not a real marriage, it is a motherfucking contract and there were rules in the contract."
"I know I know, but I could not stop myself, I tried, but I could not. I fell in love with you, I'm in love with you", I finally said out loud.
This was the last thing I thought I would ever do in my life. Confess to a man first, an Alpha for that matter, but here I am, doing it.
Thanks to wherever that audacity and confidence came from.
"What did you just say?", He said calmly, but he did not look so calm.
"I umm, I said I am in love with you, I fell in love with you."
"You cannot be in love with me Montana, wake up from your delusions, this is reality, not a fairy tale. Soon the contract will be over, and we will not have to see each other like this again. So pull your shit together because you do not love me," He said to me so harshly, dismissing my feelings.
"You have no right to tell me how I feel, I am in love with you, but I think you feel the same way, although you are holding back. Why are you holding back Alpha?", I asked him, getting tired of the whole thing, it was so confusing and exhausting.
He literally had no idea how his actions were affecting me.
"I do not love you, Montana, I do not have any feelings for you, whatsoever," he said.
"Then why did you kiss me that night, why did we make out? Why are you throwing mixed signals at me?", I asked him, searching his face for some sincerity.
"Look", he rubbed his face, "I have been meaning to tell you this, but I have just been waiting for the right time."
"Tell me what?"
"That night, was a mistake Montana, I wish it never happened, I should have not done that, and I apologize for leading you on," he said to me but averted his gaze.
"You are lying, look at me Lincoln, look at me when you say the first night we spent together was a mistake. The spark that was there, you did not feel it. Look at me when you lie to my face," I said to him angrily.
"I felt nothing for you Montana, nothing," he shouted at me, his voice booming in the room and sending shivers down my spine, "I AM THE ALPHA, I AM YOUR ALPHA MONTANA. I feel nothing for you, I was stressed and needed a relief, Ava was not around, and you were just someone who covered up for her."
I shook my head, I will not believe this. Not only that, but I knew he was just saying all this to hurt me and even though it was hurting, and I knew it can be true, I did not agree to believe him, "You are lying", I muttered, "you are just saying all this to push me away, stop fighting what we have please, you make me sound and look so desperate when we both want the same thing, you confuse me, is all this pain you're making me feel worth it?"
I quickly wiped the tears that rolled down my face, "Do you enjoy hurting me this way? I can see that you do not want too, so please just let me in, I am so tired", then I asked something I wish I had not asked,
"Or is it because of your first love? Is she the reason you do not want to love again, or scared to?"