Luana
I woke up totally dazed again in a hospital bed feeling a horrible pain in my stomach and throat, I looked to the side seeing Tomas with a desolate face and my mother beside him crying, all I didn't want was to see them suffer but I couldn't bear the idea of being united with Caetano for the rest of my life.
- Maybe it's just as well! No one can know about this, we managed to hide it the first time, we will hide it again unfortunately Caetano saw everything knowing that fox I know he will find out what happened so the best option is to send her there.
Where do they want to send me, what is going on?
- Yes, there is a perfect place, calm and without worries, Luana will be fine, son.
- Mama!
I called for my mother, who came kissing my face in a tender way that showed her fear of losing me.
- My bambina, I should have taken better care of you, my love, I can't believe I let it happen again, I'm so sorry!
I took a deep breath to try to talk to her because my throat still hurt so much. She was not to blame for anything, the only one to blame was me for being so weak and not being able to face that damned wretch.
- Mama, it's my fault, it's always my fault! I am a burden in your lives, I just don't feel like living, I am tired of everything, I just want to rest.
- Little Sister, tell us why are you trying to take your life? We can help but first we need to know what is happening, Lu!
They can never know what happened, Thomas is hothead will want to clean my honor with the blood of that monster but I know that now with the support and protection of the Don, Caetano will kill my brother without thinking twice in addition to mama will suffer to know that that damn abuses me for three years and could not do anything to protect their youngest daughter, I turn my face to the side closing my eyes, the best thing to do is to stay silent as the first time. I must face my destiny which is to marry that monster, without complaining or running away it is clear that I have no escape.
- Daughter, mom understands that it is difficult to say what ails you thinking that we will take you to a quiet place, where you can rest away from everything and everyone. It's a place that your brother bought some time ago for us, so you can stay there, in peace and away from everything that's troubling you!
- Mama, but what will they say when they ask about me?
My biggest worry has a first and last name, Caetano Pacino will never stop disturbing my life. He is obsessed with me and crazy enough to go after me even in hell.
- Don't worry about it, honey, we'll take care of it, just relax and get some rest.
- Mama, thank you for taking care of me and I apologize for being such a disappointment to you.
My mother stroked my hair tenderly and kissed my forehead, she didn't deserve this but unfortunately I am a cause of worry and sadness for her.
- Bambina, there's no need to ask forgiveness, please, I just want you to take care of yourself while I'm at the farm, when this wedding frenzy is over, I'll come too, to be with you. I owe a lot to the Albertini's, that's why I can't go away, but I've already talked to Mrs. Bettina, she has already dismissed me from my services, she just asked me to help her with the wedding.
At that moment it was inevitable not to think about Cecilia, I noticed the gleam in her eye when she spoke of Mr. Dario. My friend will suffer so much when she finds out, but the way she is so intelligent, I know she has already noticed that Dario is engaged to be married.
- Mama, may I talk to Tom alone?
I needed at least a way to protect someone who in such a short time had become important to me. I knew what Cecilia's end would be, but only my brother could help her. Mama left somewhat annoyed but she said she would go to the dining room.
- Thomas, I have something important to tell you, but please don't fight with me! While I was cleaning up Dario's mansion I ended up making friends with the girl I lived with there, Cecilia is a good girl who unfortunately didn't have any luck in life so I need you to keep an eye on her. They will not accept this, and I am afraid for Cecilia, she is an innocent girl who had no choices in life and on top of that she is in love with Mr. Dario. So if she asks you for help at any time, you will help her, promise me that you will protect her?
- Sister, I've never seen you defend anyone like this, this girl must be very special, I know very well what will happen to her, so I promise you that I will help her only if she asks, otherwise I won't do anything! You know how dangerous it is to go against Dario's orders but something inside me says that I will not regret helping this girl. Pray that she asks for my help, otherwise I won't do anything to protect her, I'm just a poor soldier, if they find out, I'll be in deep shit!
From what little I know of Cecilia I know that she will ask for help, my friend will smell danger and will not fail to ask for help. I can only pray that she manages to escape, and that like me she can find a refuge away from all the evil and cruelty of this world.
Cecilia
My peaceful attempt to get out of all this shit had failed, I know Dario thinks I am incapable of escaping but something in him is clinging to me unfortunately it is already too late.
Sooner or later someone will find out about my insignificant existence and use this against Dario or he himself will put an end to it all, on second thought it's good that he does, it will be unbearable for me to know that another woman will have him as I do or that she will be treated in a very different way than I am today.
It seems that I am living in a bubble that will soon burst, I always wanted to be protected and loved in a way that I already knew would never happen but over the months I thought I would have this with Dario. It was a bit of naivety on my part or even the fact that he was by my side every night even if it was in that wild and aggressive way but my fallen angel was with me, now I know that Dario doesn't care about my feelings nor the fact that he never knew the outside world moved him, on the contrary I saw the shadow of fear on his side, fear of losing his precious toy.
Now reflecting and meditating on everything I see how cold and selfish his heart is even though he knows he is getting married, he can't even give me the freedom or let me go out at least once in my life but he is not like that. Dario wants me to stay here beautiful waiting for him while he has a happy family as it should be, I hate the fact that I love that man also abhor the fact that he has so much control over me. If I could rip my heart out like he did his, then I could stop feeling love for someone who doesn't love me and only wants my body for a few hours.
- You are an idiot, Cecilia, what did you think? That Dario would change once he found out he was in love with you? Wake up!
I hit the back of my hand on my head to see if my mind was working as it used to, I had once heard from Lucrezia that loving a man made you weak, she was certainly living experience of this, now I am one more victim of this destructive feeling.
I took a deep breath starting my daily meditation, I need to clear my mind so I can think of a way out of here by other means because the way I thought it would certainly not work. There was a possibility of something terrible happening to me but I prefer to put that thought out of my mind, after all thinking about bad things attracts bad things so I need to repeat to myself that I will be able to escape and start my life again away from all of this, I need to trust that.