This chapter has triggers, I don't recommend you read it if you have any kind of psychological problems!
I returned to the party noticing that everyone was apprehensive but just getting calmer with my return, Mariana hugged my mother while my son was held by Saul, he had every chance to be a father but I didn't have such a vocation. I stayed a little longer at the party until tempers calmed down but when it was close to midnight I called for Nina who was talking to her parents.
- It's late, take the boy and let's go!
- Yes!
Nina's father held my arm, receiving a stern look from me, who does he think he is?
- Nina has been complaining about the way you have been treating her! I won't accept this!
- Yes, you will, you know why? Because you sold your daughter for prestige and a good position in the family, don't forget that I never laid a finger on your daughter but that several whores died for her to be alive and without any bruises, don't pretend you don't know me! You know very well what I am capable of, your daughter should be grateful, after all she is the next lady of the mafia, thanks to me. So please don't ever bother me with this kind of useless and unnecessary conversation again!
I leave without paying any more attention to this idiot, I feel like beating up that spoiled brat but I can't do that so I just pick her and the boy up and take them to the car without saying a word.
- Did you talk to my father?
- Yes, so we have to talk!
We were already in the apartment while she put the baby in the crib anyway - it might seem like me but Nina doesn't like her own son.
- Nina, when your father signed a contract with my family, he knew he would get a lot out of it! A win-win contract, in the one year you have lived with me I have killed more prostitutes than before I married you but you have always been protected because of the contract since your father has always known the man who gave up his only daughter but he has never cared that much because he has earned so much from selling you to the Albertini. I never promised you eternal love so much that you continued to satisfy my insane desire with the whores you killed but insisted on wanting something from me that you will never have! I don't love you, I always saw you as a spoiled woman full of desires, the only thing that was imposed on you is to have a child but you didn't even know how to do that right since it's clear that you don't take care of this boy. So I just want you to know, your complaints have no basis whatsoever, I don't love you to be honest I hate this damn marriage as well as this child that I was forced to have with you because I had to give up the only thing that really made me happy to keep this shitty marriage.
Nina started crying like a little girl, but that scene didn't touch my chest one bit. I hate this kind of melancholic scene, what does this woman want?
- She made you happy, didn't she? The tramp you bought at auction and kept in your mansion! I know about her as well as the whores before her and now, you are a sick sadist.
Nina went to one of the drawers in the closet and took out a small caliber gun pointing it at her own head. This woman is crazy!
- I thought that by marrying you, I would be the future lady of the Mafia, being bigger than Bettina Albertini, but I was wrong, wasn't I? Every day I noticed his lack of love and affection for me, moving away and looking for prostitutes to continue with their disgusting games but still believed he could love me, it was all a big illusion because Dario Albertini is incapable of love, when I got pregnant I thought I could have love for me because of that brat, but nothing changed only served to move further and further away from me, I'm the most beautiful and well born woman of the whole Mafia and expected a child from you, but that meant nothing because he still had no love for me. I always had high blood pressure and could never have had a child but my mother said that this was expected of me so I did as everyone wanted but to no avail. She continued to treat me as a means to an end, never forgetting that woman even after learning of her death.
How did Nina know about Cecilia's death? This is very strange!
- Surprised? It wasn't difficult to know that you had left the poor merchandise you bought at the brothel in the center of town, I went after her to understand all the fascination you had for her but unfortunately the poor thing was already dead. That Cecilia was very lucky that she didn't have to live long after you abandoned her like she was nothing, she was a lucky bitch since she will never have to see you again but soon I will also be that lucky!
- What are you going to do, Nina? Drop that gun now!
It was clear how mentally unsound Nina was but it was too risky to try to take the gun away from her without it going off and hitting her, me, or the baby.
- The funniest thing about this story is that you don't know or don't want to admit that you fell in love with the tramp you bought, but the great Dario Albertini would never confess his love for some nameless girl with no Mafia blood running through her veins, would he? I feel for you, but I certainly feel more for me who believed that it would be an honor to be your wife and the mother of your child, but there is no honor in that! You deserve to be miserable for the rest of your damn life for what you did to Cecilia but unlike her you'll die of remorse for what I'm about to do!
She looked at the cradle only giving a wave of her hand as if saying goodbye to the child she never wanted to have, Nina stepped away from the cradle ready to end her own life. Before I could advance on her to take the gun from her hand, Nina shot herself in the head in front of me and the baby who, as soon as she heard the sound of the gunshot, began to scream and cry. She killed herself without a second thought, I grabbed the child on my lap and left the apartment like a madman, Nina went crazy! I sat outside the apartment for an unmeasurable amount of time.
A few minutes later the soldiers who lived in the apartment next door for protection reasons heard the gunshot together with the baby's crying and went to see what had happened but even I couldn't understand, I just sat on the floor in front of my apartment door rocking my son, the boy stopped crying but didn't take his attention off me as if he was meeting me at that moment for the first time.
- Hello, Valentino! I'm your father, let's talk a little bit!
The boy is quite smart as my mother described, looking at me waiting for my next words with attention.
- First I need you to know, I'm not a big fan of yours, on the contrary, I think you represent everything that has ruined my life, but I'm the one who chose to have you, and it's nobody's fault but my own. Valentino, to your mother killed herself today because she like me was miserable and couldn't stand to live with it like I do every damn day of my existence, but listen to a secret I'm only going to share with you, I'm a fucking sadist who deserves to suffer but it's not your fault, the fault is only me who will carry it. I didn't love Cecilia, I didn't love Nina and they all died horribly but you won't be like me, Valentino! I swear on my blood that you will not be like me!
He took my dagger making a deep cut in my right hand near the scar of the first cut I made for the blood pact, my son will never be like me even if I have to take him away from me and everything he represented! Valentino will not have the same end as his mother, this is a promise that I will do everything to keep!