I could no longer stand this place; everything was irritating me tired of lying in bed looking at the wall or looking at my iPod and seeing the news I had to run after Valentina since Henry did not bring any news.
While I changed my cell phone aroused all the time on the bed when I looked was Cecilia threw him again and the door opens and there was Henrique and he came in all excited, smiling and still almost threw me to the ground slapping me on the back.
"You want to kill me? I haven't even recovered yet; you're already trying to kill me again.
"Wow, you're very dramatic, my little brother. But let's get down to business,
Unfortunately, Carol said she doesn't know where she is, she just disappeared, but I think you must go back to your normal life and see what you can do.
"I've realized there's no way at all, I'm going to have to go after Valentina because not even to get a news from her you provided.
"Wow, you came back with all the arrogance, that's my brother. Welcome to the world.
"But let's get down to business. Get me out of here and I can't stand that smell.
Hours after arguing with him that I had to stay home looking at the wall, he left after I convinced him to drop me off at the office and I stood here looking at the rain. Sitting there in my living room, I looked and I feel alone, I closed my eyes, I came back that late afternoon that I saw her smiling and I bet that's when she found out she was pregnant she would jump for joy and I looked at me with such naïve, so innocent. When Cecilia came and stuck to my neck and kissed my smiling lips and I looked again she just shook her head, it's bitterness. That eats me, but it's the guilt of knowing she left because of me.
I let this all happen.
"Don't touch me Cecilia, I can't now, and everyone is looking."
I needed to know everything right away and I went to the canteen and knew someone was going to tell me something.
I realized that some things were already changed since now I'm no longer one of the presidents they've already changed a few things including my room got smaller and I heard the, stirs around the halls everyone looking at me sideways and I surrounded Carol.
"You mean you don't know where she is? Carol.
"No, I don't know, and I already told Henry.
"I'll find out and it's no use hiding. Then get back to yours, work. And she kept staring at me. "And what do you keep looking at me?
" Enzo? She said it and I screamed.
"Mr. Moretti. I'm just telling you to go back to work.
I went to Antunes' office, and I was going to find out something and I had almost a month without news of it.
- Antunes knows about Valentina, I need news.
"I haven't spoken to him in a long time, and from what I've known, she doesn't want to be found. And don't take this the wrong way, leave it alone. I was going to fight him, but I was leaving. "You've done her too much harm.
I was going to go out and look at him and
I didn't want to say anything, but I knew someone would say when I was leaving his office desperate to hear from her.
"Mr. Moretti... I'm sorry, can I help you?
"I was just looking for Valentina and all.
" She asked for the bills, and left the company, she is no longer part of the company.
What do you mean? I said scared, I get up against the wall scared.
" She asked for two days ago this
"You didn't know? And her friends sure know that they've been gone a few days.
"I have to go but thank you.
I went out, slammed the door, when I came into my living room, I threw everything I had on my desk on the floor, angry. She asked for the bills and right now I'm like? Suffering, bitter and thinking where she is. Afraid to go my way and I knew she was running away from me.
After all I've done, she's right.
When I got home, I already went looking for what she took and some clue of what left me. I looked everywhere, all her things were in the room, still caressing and the dresses, smelling. When I go to the closet, I realize that the only thing that was missing there were little things of her particular, I looked at the little box of scrambled jewelry and the jewels were all there.
But the pendant wasn't. The pendant I gave her in the shape of a heart she took. And I run to the box where she kept the baby's things, and I saw that the shoes weren't there.
So, she took only what mattered to her. And the rest stayed. I wonder where she is. I need to know.
I couldn't keep my mind busy. I couldn't pay attention. And none of what was going on there at that moment. I was just wondering about her. And where she was walking and my phone rang and I threw it on the bed, I didn't want to talk to anyone. When the bell rings I run to answer waiting for it to be her, but when I open it was Henrique.
"Really, Henry? I don't feel like it. You came here to speak in my head. I don't feel like talking and I want to be alone.
"I know you want to be alone. But you can't give in to loneliness. You knew depression kills.
"But I'm not depressed, I just want to be alone, I just want to think about my life, everything I've done and stopped doing.
"Why don't we go to the beach and Carol's coming with us.
"No, please, I don't want to talk to anyone, I want to stay in mine, I'll go back to my work tomorrow and so will be fine.
He went into the living room, took the bottle of whiskey, and sat on the floor near my bed and kept talking about his trip with Carol. And I kept looking and paying attention. But remembering her the longing was killing me I needed to talk to her to see the smell I fell asleep, while he was there talking. I didn't even see the time he left. When I woke up in the morning, he left a note.
"I'll come back tonight and go out drinking."
But I just didn't answer, and I don't want to know, I gave in to my work and my life. I went back to work. I worked day and night to forget all that to forget her. I gave myself to meetings to new projects. I didn't go to fight. For losing his job. Backwards.
"Grandma, please, I'm fine and I've been working hard.
"I know Enzo but come on the weekend we talk.
"I'm not going to be able to tell Mom that I love her, but I can't go.
I gave myself to my work to let her live her life was late at night when I was leaving my office I took a bump, I got scared when I looked and didn't believe it.
"You around here, Enzo, we haven't seen each other in a long time.
"I was going to come to you to talk about the projects, but I heard it was passed on to someone else.
"Yes, wow it's a shame you lose Valentina, she's wonderful, I loved her ideas and now we're trying to put it into practice, but it's hard.
"Yes, she left the company, she went to work elsewhere. But we have great professionals here.
"It's a shame. I really wanted to work with her because I loved the way she worked. It is practical, fast and I hope that one day you discover the true meaning of love my companion because then you will know how to deal with a bride with a bridal necklace because it all has to come from feeling understood.
I just shook my head and listened to him say everything and knew I was the biggest culprit of my life falling apart.
"I'm so sorry for everything. It's a thousand apologies for what happened, but I'm sure whoever you're with is going to do a great job.
"I wish you good luck, see Enzo? May you truly understand love.
"All right and thank you very much.
I shook my head and he left. What was I going to say? That I didn't know how to value her. He was right. I made a mistake; I was a fool. But I'm paying for my mistakes. I came home hoping she'd show up. But just the days, the nights. Every moment I've lived thinking about her. I totally gave myself up to work. I forgot about my particular life and that I had to have fun. I wasn't even going to go to family dinners, it was a day after day, I was working there looking for what I lost.
Did Henry happen anything? I thought you were traveling with Carol?
"I'm going to need to tell you something, but don't tell him it was, I please. He still walked around and pulls me. "She's leaving and the flight and tonight.
"What time?
"At 9:00 at night and Carol's going with her, but don't say it was, I.
When he said that I look at the watch and I see that there was little left I turn off the phone and run as fast as I could. You run everybody over.
"Please excuse me!
I ran as far as I could and arrive at the airport without air and ran out and I left the car open and run so much that I forget to pick up the phone and when I arrive at the place of embarkation I get there desperate looking for her.
Where are you, Valentina? I run to the main hall and had to do something crazy and I did I play in front of the carts and get in front of the boarding line.
"I'm sorry, lady, but it's a matter of life and death. And I scream into the microphone. " Valentina my love forgives me I love you and do not live without you please. I'll go down my head and everyone's screaming and laughing. " Valentina?
I open my eyes and I see Carol shaking her head and she left without saying anything and I stand there the tears roll in my face and I see that I lost her. She left me alone.
Valentina left and left me alone and I searched her everywhere I spent days and nights walking behind her and couldn't find her.
I don't know if we'll ever see each other again, but I'm going to wait here waiting for her.
"Don't please let me... I cry crying: "I love you Valentina and I will wait for you.
CONTINUE... Next book.