When aunt left with Benny, Jasper walked towards me and he just grab me by my forearm and said, " Come on, Aisling you need to help me out."
I was mortified by him and don't know where he wants to take me and kill me. I don't know whether should I trust him with my life or not but if he wants to kill me he could kill me in the attic he didn't do it which means he genuinely does not want to me or at the very least I can only hope for it.
He gives me a nudge to move. And I took a breath and tried to stay optimistic. We both walked together to my only favorite place in this house...
Everyone has a place where they go to escape all the pressures and worries of life. A place that makes them happy. There is always that one spot that can soothe all your problems and troubles in times of stress. For some, the woods, the beach, or the park is the place to go. For me, it is simpler. I go to the library to cure all my problems to calm down and feel happy. A library is a quiet place. Not church-quiet, or even theatre-play quiet, but a library-quiet all its own. I entered the library through its familiar large doors. I took my first step in and looked around. I could see there are huge windows at the back of the library that gives a magnificent and outstanding look, while also bringing in a powerful light into the library. Artificial trees and plants stand in almost every corner of the library, giving it a unique and beautiful look. Books mumble to each other through the dust motes and shine, telling stories, observing the weather, and gossiping. Upon, Entering the hall full of the smell of paper and magic is a treat for the mind. I can drown in the ocean of tranquility. The whole aura of space is as peaceful as nature. A long stretching room full of piles of information captured in the pages is truly mesmerizing.
But soon, my peacefulness disappeared when I looked toward jasper.
" What now? are you going to kill me?" I asked him nervously.
" What? No! why do you just keep saying that?" He said.
" You have attempted to kill me before so, I am just protecting myself from you."
" And how you are going to protect yourself? you are a weak omega. Don't forget that and if you want to protect yourself then just shut your mouth and let me just think for a moment."
" It is all your fault. You didn't let me tell this to an aunt and she already left me alone with you. Who doesn't even know how to control his power."
" It's better for you that she left you alone."
" What do you mean by it? and What are you two talking about? I heard her saying to you that you need to finish the work."
" Oh, you are too noisy Aisling. And she was talking about fixing the shed. Nothing else."
I don't believe it. I don't think, they were talking about fixing the shed because aunt sounds so mad why they were talking behind closed doors? He must be hiding something from me but what could that be? it could be related to me who knows but right now, everything is irrelevant because I need to escape from here. But how?
A few hours later, Jasper sent me to my room and instructed me to not open the door for anyone besides him or don't even take a step out of my room and he didn't tell me anything. Maybe he was thinking about my escape plan or planning how to kill me.
This is the way it has usually been in my life. I lie down and get comfortable and ready to sleep, and my brain refuses to turn off. Instead, my thoughts go wandering into the shadowy corners where I have tucked worries of all sizes. I pull on the smallest. Am I handling the situation the right way? And, the bigger ones follow them out. Am I able to protect myself from this lurking danger? They are all attached and usually go in order from small to universe-filling. It has been this way since I was young enough to have sentient thoughts. I have come up with a sort of solution; I never go to bed until I can’t stay awake. I am a little less tired because I don’t stress myself into insomnia. Maybe I will figure out a more perfect solution like controlling my rampaging anxieties, but for now, it is late nights and no caffeine after noon.
Or maybe, just a little bit couldn't hurt me but Jasper strictly told me to not take a step outside of my room but the only danger is from him. I peeled myself out of the bed and put a fluffy robe on myself because I was feeling cold.