That was probably one of the bravest thing I've done in my life.
Number one is me- talking back to Erato. And second is declining his kisses on mine.
It took me so much courage saying those words from him.
Yes, I often do anything in my own way. Like I've always wanted to have the final say on everything specially if its about him. But still, I believe I'm still scared of him. I was still this child that used to adore him and admire him from afar.
I am hurt. Offended, I would add.
What does he think of me? One of his hoes? One of his fvck buddies who he can use any time he wants or play when only he's on mood? God, no!
I was even a little scared about what he's going to think about those words of mine. What if he'll hate me more? Or think I am assuming and way to proud of myself? I don't want him to hate me but I can't just help it. I am hurt!
The pain of seeing myself as if he was comparing me to others. The dinner started at it's resumed time. I just kept quiet throughout the dinner and tried not to stare into his eyes because my heart almost went crazy with a mixture of nervousness and pain.
I just keep on playing with my food, not in my best mood to eat. Because all I can think of is how confused I am with his actions towards me. He said that if daddy wasn't just looking he would have kissed me.
Why would he do that? To prove to me again that he's a damn good kisser or what? Or is it because he's just on a trip and seems to be just kissing whoever he wants?
"Still planning to have masters degree, hijo?"
Suddenly I stopped playing with food on my plate when daddy asked Erato. Earlier, it was the older brother they were talking about. And the quiet table has now robbed my interest.
I lift my head and had a glance on his seat and I saw him looking at me. I quickly took my eyes off him because my heart was beating fast again.
"I plan to."
He simply said.
"Does your plan includes your empire?"
I briefly looked up at him again. He had a sipped on his glass of wine. He quickly stared at me again and my system almost went crazy again. I stopped looking at him and played with my food again. I bit my lower lip, thinking why he's also looking at me.
"I haven't thought about it,"
His answer was contrary to what Olivia had said earlier.
I looked at Olivia as if she had heard nothing. It’s not like I’m too busy listening and seem confused by the information that is known.
"Of course he'll not interfere about it. His brother Clio is still on the line of the throne."
Now I finally looked up at my aunt. Clio is on the line? What happened with his sister Thalia?
"Clio? What about Thalia?" Daddy's asked curiously.
I gulped and a bit glad that he'd asked what I just had in mind.
"Oops. Sorry, I thought you knew."
Auntie said softly and sipped her wine.
Jax had a look of profound but remained calm and undisturbed while dad has a confused look in his face looking at Erato.
Then the guy I'm most confused of is gripping his bordeaux glass while everyone is waiting for his answer. His jaw gritted before answering dad's question.
"Thalia is getting married."
He uttered and my eyes went a bit wide. I looked at everyone and apart from me I seemed to be the only one most surprised.
"She what?"
Auntie's answer was amazing. She looked a bit shock too, but not like me who can find my own words. I thought she already knew but it seemed like the information she knew was also lacking.
The first thing that came into my mind was their principle. I'm a bit aware about it. I was in the early middle school when they announce that Thalia Asterial is in the line of being the president of their Empire because she was the first child.
They are a bit old fashioned and seems like have been still living at medieval era where there's still this king and queen and their prince and princesses riding in their horses, eating grapes and such.
Even their names, from their mother, father, and down to their children. they are named after the Greek mythology. Thalia, Clio and Erato. Nine musses. Ancient and so mysterious.
For me, their family are like unicorns. Everybody have heard it but I haven't seen it my own eyes. Their way of living are like in the middle ages that their principle is that the first born will always be the one in lineopf the throne.
And Erato, one thing I like about him is because he's different. He broke the stereotype of his family and decided to live the life he's always wanted. Very different from his family, and does not live by the dictation of anyone.
He'd always cause scandal and issues in their families, but with him being the black sheep in their family didn't even affect my adoration of him. I liked him more, I admire him more. Because I knew he's a man who's living a life that'll make him happy for the rest of his life and I wanted to include myself to that life he had.
But that's just my dream, not with his approval.
He did not answer that question and remained silent. Dad and aunt did not insist to get the answer from him. That's the right thing to do, to respect him and his family.
The dinner finished peacefully. I'm a bit sad parting ways with him because I don't know when will I ever see him again but then the rest of my vacation made me forget about that sadness. As long as Jax is his friend then I'm way too sure that I'll still see him.