It's not cloud nine. It's not the feeling of being so high up in the clouds. Because I'm with an evil, and evil don't get a chance to step in heaven.
"As of now, the Ferrer are still trying to cover up their filing of candidacy. Dad is a bit hostile about their idea but for them it's a good strategy."
I happily play with the food on my plate. It's dinner time.
"For sure your dad knows best, they should listen to him." Erato said seriously and emphatically.
I glanced at him secretly.
Earlier, my older brother and I were talking about things I didn't understand. I saw him glanced to me which made me cleared my throat. Alright, I thought that was a dream too. Whether he was jealous or not, for me that was my interpretation.
My cheeks heated upon suddenly thinking about what happened this morning.
"Dad will for sure oppose the Ferrer in time, but either not in favor of them or not he can do nothing about it. It's his last term."
"Then why not just run for vice?" said Erato. Jax chuckled.
My brother did not answer Erato's question. My forehead frowned. I don’t understand what the two of them are talking about, but I know it’s about the coming election.
"What a pity, his son is an asshole." said Erato.
I glanced at him again. My eyes nailed to his lips, I remember nibbling it this morning. I wonder when I can kiss those lips again.
"Fvck you," his older brother simply said and continued eating.
The two remained focused on the table while I was still staring at Erato. My heart is beating fast. Why is it that just staring at him makes him feel like this to me?
"Jade, eat your food. Erato might run out,"
"Huh?"
Jax chuckled, I glanced again at Erato and saw he has this ghost of evil smile on his lips. I cleared my throat and smiled raw, I touched my food trying to think of some topics, so that my older brother wouldn't notice my glance at Erato.
"Island hoping we're tomorrow?" I offer them.
Jax shook his head.
"We're going home tomorrow."
"Huh?" I panicked.
"Dad needs us back in Manila, some political matter."
"Us? Why me too?" I wondered.
"Not you. Him." he pointed to Erato.
I raised an eyebrow. I turned my head to Erato and saw that he's busy eating his food. I wanted to ask but I felt like it was a small thing and I couldn't understand it so I just ignored it. After dinner I locked myself in the bedroom.
I don't know where their friends are because since what happened earlier in the kitchen, I've just locked myself in the room. I didn't seem to be able to present to Erato so it was even a miracle that I was with him at the same table.
Around 9 PM when I decided to go out of that shell and walk to the seashore. This is my last night here which means my summer vacation in this island is ending. I'm just testing. Even by the sea the breeze is not so cold. Just right, neither hot nor cold.
I walked to the shore barefoot and just wearing my racer back crop top and a loose pants that's reaching the sand.
"Why did you just come ou?"
A quick thump on my chest reigned again. But even so I tried to calm down. I glanced at him, I saw him approaching me but he did not continue, he stopped about a meter away from me.
"Just resting." I say briefly.
"All day?" he raised an brow. I bit my lips, looking for another reason.
"You're shy."
My breath came out of my nose. I immediately averted my eyes from him. I didn't even want him to see how much I was affected by what happened earlier. I wanted to act cool but it seems like he's just gonna keep on teasing me until I reach my line of embarrassment.
I slowly sat down not far from the water. I sighed looking at the lights from a far. To my eyes they were just like round lights because of the ambiguity of my eyes. I stiffened when I I felt his presence beside me. I didn’t look at him even though I wanted to explode. It will still tease me for sure. "
Where's your courage, Jade?" he asked with a monotone voice.
Not loud, just right for me to hear. I sighed without answering him. If I answer him with the truth, it will be a disgrace, and if I answer him with an excuse, he will surely find a hole to make me angry.
"I guess I hear different news about you." I quickly turned to him.
What? Maybe he saw the big question mark on my face so he smirked even more. The smirk never left him.
"Jade does the first move. Vixen Jade. Jade is bold," he smirked not looking at me. I didn't answer, he turned to me.
"What else?" I pursed my lips.
"Why can't you show me?" My lips parted as I'm having a hard time breathing finely. I swallowed once before sideways taking my eyes off him.
"You hear those? From who?"
"You boy toys?" he uttered. I rolled my eyes without looking at him. Cause it’s the truth. I'm that Jade.
"You want that side of me?" I asked him with casual tone.
He was silent for a long time before answering.
He chuckled, "Right. No need to show me."
I glanced at him again, wondering what he said. He licked his lips and it lingered outside a bit before he spoke again.
"I'll discover it myself." His eyes were gloomy as he looked at me.
I gritted my jaw and removed my eyes on him. The silence of the two of us was embarrassing, I felt like he could hear my heart beating with its super loudness. How can I tell him that I'm really different when it comes to him?
I looked back again as he moved from his seat. I thought he would stand up and leave me but he didn't. I felt him warm up on my back, I looked at his thighs on either side of me and his arms curled around my waist. I'm almost hysterical, I don't know how I can handle all this.
I gulped an bit my lips, "You're too near."
He chuckled and uttered, "There's more to come here, Jade."
I don’t know what he’s saying. I couldn't process that anymore especially since I could feel the heat of his breath on my head. Gradually I weakened and gave up. I leaned my back on his wide and elegant chest, now I could feel his face on the side of my head.
Here is another feeling that cannot be compared to heaven. Very far.
"My brother might see us."
"It's dark. And he's in his room."
I pursed my lips trying to hide the smile on my lips. I'm fooling myself, I don't even care if the whole world sees us. He's the only one I think about.
Aren't we just up to here? A long silence enveloped us. Only the waves and cricket in the knuckle trees could we both hear. I felt so free and calm, this feeling is beyond what I've dream when I was still young. I didn't think it was this delicious.
"Oh my!"