João Felipe
She soon spoke, getting up from her chair when she saw me approaching the table. He seemed uncomfortable with my presence and that intrigued me.
" Can I sit down? " I asked a little ironically.
We no longer looked like lovers but opponents, weapons at the ready.
She gestured with her hand, pointing to the chair across from her, and we sat down.
"I'm curious about this meeting," I said as I sat down.
Viviane started to speak, but the waitress arrived and I ended up ordering just a coffee.
" And then? Why are we here and not in our apartment?”
" There is no "our apartment," she said, making a gesture of quotation marks over the words "our apartment", accompanied by an expression of total displeasure "Just as there is no"us "."
Again the quotes about the "we".
" Continues…”
" The relationship we were maintaining until a few days ago, which I don't even know how to name, I don't want to continue to maintain. It's something that was doomed to fail from the start. So I just want us to carry on as we've always been, you on your side and me on mine. That's it.”
" I understand.”
I looked at her intently, trying to read between the lines of her words, to grasp what she wasn't telling me, but I couldn't conclude anything from her facial expression. She was indifferent and didn't seem like the passionate girl who was always with me in our moments together. And I had no idea what the reason for such a sudden change was.
" Then that's it. Life goes on, right?”
I said already getting up to leave, leaving the coffee that the waitress brought, completely untouched on the table. I grabbed my wallet and intended to leave some notes to pay for our consumption, but Viviane stopped me with a gesture.
" It is not necessary.”
" I make a point.”
I left the notes and quickly left the premises. I felt suffocated. I had a lot of things to talk about, but I wasn't going to humiliate myself in search of something that had so little value, that Vivi just gave up without even trying to talk. We don't rationalize our options and weigh the pros and cons before deciding together on the best way forward.
If she wanted to put an end to what we had, I wouldn't put myself in a situation where the person valued me so little. I would go back to the company and dedicate myself to work. I would follow through with my goals and as soon as the time was right I would find a girl who was right for me and then I could do my mother's will, which was that I build my own family.
Viviane
After finding out about the relationship between João Pedro and Jack and the current circumstances in which they found themselves, I decided that I would only talk about my secret when we had a position on the DNA result that would come out in a few days.
I believe that the fact that he no longer had to hide anything from me made him feel free to talk to me about everything and even told me about his adventures and everything he had experienced in recent years without me having the slightest idea. We laughed a lot at the situations he put himself in to disguise his escapades.
I was also very supportive of my friend Julia. She felt that all she needed at the moment was someone to talk to and express her fears and doubts about the uncertain future that awaited her since she was going to have a child alone, after all, in addition to her father being committed and having already left it was quite clear that she would not be able to shoulder the responsibilities of her own free will, she also had no family, just a few distant relatives who lived in the interior of São Paulo and with whom she had no contact.
So I was supporting my friends when I was needing support too. But the hardest part wouldn't even be telling everyone about the pregnancy, it would be telling people who the father of my child was. I wasn't ready to let the world know about my feelings for João Felipe.
We were complete opposites and he was unreachable from the top of his pedestal as a meticulous millionaire and cold businessman.
After a few days, with a cool head and controlled feelings, I contacted João Felipe and arranged a meeting.
I needed to put an end to what we had. I didn't like to leave things on hold. It was better to say clearly that there was no longer any possibility of continuing with those clandestine meetings and the time to put an end to it had arrived.
He was extremely practical and cold, nothing I'm surprised by, and succinctly accepted the breakup. He didn't even question why.
But I already knew how little I was worth in your life and if I accepted that for a while, now I wouldn't accept it anymore. I had someone who would depend on me and my strength to move forward.
After our parting in that cafeteria on campus, I didn't see him again.
We didn't even meet at the weekend on the property, which made me happy, because I didn't know if I was prepared enough to face him after all and even more carrying his child in my womb.
It was a delicate situation and the more days passed, the more I felt I needed to make some important decisions.
On Sunday, we all went back to César's house. Júlia had told everyone about her pregnancy and we were in this together.
" I only have one doubt in this whole story. Who will be the godparents? Because I think it should be me and Vivi. " João Pedro started with the implication.
He kept looking for subjects to make fun of and lighten the mood. Which was excellent. I needed to laugh.
" None of that! It will be me and Cecília " César joined in the game.
" You look like a quarrelsome child, me huh! " Julia said laughing.
" But tell me soon, will it be me and Julia or will you have the bad taste to choose these two, huh?”
" What is this story in bad taste? We are childhood friends. Of course, the godmother will be me.”
" Cecília, I can't believe you're going to get into this fight with these two big guys, can't you see, my friend? I haven't even adapted to this idea of having a child here, let alone choosing godparents!”
Júlia spoke, hugging her still small belly, without any sign of pregnancy. But the affection was already evident in the gesture she made.
When I realized, I also had my hand on my stomach, an involuntary gesture, but one that reflected the feeling that Julia was expressing at that moment.
Although my friends don't know it yet, there will be two moms in the next few months.