Kailangang may maglilok sa lalaking ito. Lalaking-lalaki ito. Hindi niya mapigilan ang sarili na haplusin ang kalamnan ng braso nito, ng matipuno nitong dibdib pababa sa sikmura nito. Pinagmamasdan lang siya nito habang pinaglalakbay niya ang kamay sa kamay nito at wala itong sinabing kahit na ano.
And then she went lower until she reached his male member. She had seen pictures, movies, sculptures and other works of art featuring that specific part of male body. This was the first time she had seen one…
Tumaas ang kilay niya nang tingnan si Vance. “May I?”
Tumango lang ito at napansin niyang hindi ito humihinga. Ganoon din siya. He held her palm under its length. Naramdaman niya ang init ng mga mata nito sa kanya. She heard him hiss. At nakita niya ang pagpikit nito. And the sound excited her. She felt oh-so-powerful at that moment. She was holding the symbol of his male power and he was vulnerable. Nakadama siya ng kuryosidad nang haplusin iyon. She was in awe when it surged in her hand in a silent demand for more.
Ngumiti siya. Alam niya na marami pang magagandang mangyayari sa gabing iyon.
“You can fist it,” wika ni Vance.
“What?” tanong niya at nagtatakang inangat ang tingin dito.
“Close your hand around it.” Magaan niyang kinuyom ang palad dito. “There.”
Saka niya naalala ang isang sinaunang aklat mula sa isang sinaunang sibilisasyon kung saan sinasabi kung paano pinaliligaya ang mga Pharoah. Bukod pa doon ay nakabasa na rin siya ng mga libro mula sa India at Arabia kung paano magpaligaya ng lalaki – kasama iyon sa aralin nila sa unibersidad. Dati ay wala siyang pakialam doon. She was not interested in sex after all. Now she realized how useful those books could get.
She became bolder and she fisted his shaft. “Do you know what you are doing?” skeptical na tanong ni Vance habang nakataas ang kilay.
“What do you think?” naghahamon niyang tanong.
“You tell me.”
“I think I know a bit. Let’s see, shall we?” Then her lips touched the tip of his member. He hissed once more, longer than the first time she touched him. Then she lightly scrapped her teeth on the surface of his shaft.
“No!” sigaw nito na parang nahihirapan ito. As soon as her lips let go of him, he threaded his fingers throught her hair then brought up her face to his.
“Did I do something wrong?”
“You will be the death of me,” he said then then covered her lips with his.
Hindi na niya naitanong kung tama ba o mali ang ginawa niya. She didn’t let go of his shaft then slightly squeezed and stroke him. Hinawakan nito ang pulsuhan ng kamay niya at hinatak palayo ang kamay niya para bitawan siya nito. Itinulak siya nito sa kama at tinakpan siya ng katawan nito.
His shaft surged between her legs. He teased her. Hanggang manginig siya sa matinding pangangailangan na angkinin siya nito. Ang halik nito, ang paraan ng paglalakbay ng mga kamay nito sa katawan niya ay nagpapahirap sa kanya. Dahilan para tumindi ang desperasyon niya na maging isa sila.
Then gently parted her thighs with his hand and slid his palm against her aching sex. Nanlaki ang mata niya nang maramdaman iyon. The sensation was alien to her. Bigla siyang kinabahan.
It was too intimate. Something she had never felt before. His finger was huge. Isa pa lang iyon. Hindi niya ma-imagine kung paano siya nito aangkinin. He was well-endowned down there.
“Relax. It will fit,” bulong ni Vance sa kanya at hinalikan ang leeg niya. Animo’y naramdaman nito ang takot at agam-agam niya.
“How?” tanong niya na parang inosente sa mundo.
“Our body is made that way. You will see. I will just prepare you for now.”
“Will you take me?”
“Soon.”
His wicked fingers did things to her body. It was enough to drive her mad. Di niya alam kung kailan siya nito aangkinin. She could hear herself begging for him to take her. Kailan pa ba siya magiging handa? Subalit ang ginawa lang nito ay halikan siya at haplusin siya dahilan para maglagablab ang buong katawan niya. Pakiramdam niya ay sasabog siya. Hindi niya iyon mapigilan lalo na kung paano nitong manipulahin ang katawan niya. Pakiramdam niya ay pataas siya nang pataas hanggang wala na siyang pag-asa na kontrolin pa ang nararamdaman niya. Sumabog siya at pakiramdam niya ay naglalagablab siya.
“That isn’t so bad for your first orgasm,” may pagmamalaking wika ng binata. Nang dumilat siya ay nakangiti ito habang pinagmamasdan siya. “You are like a work of art when you explode.”
Hindi niya magawang sumagot. Hindi niya magawang magtanong. Pakiramdam niya ay lumulutang pa rin siya at walang buto sa katawan. So that’s what an orgasm is. Naririnig niya iyon na pinag-uusapan ni JK at ng ibang kaklase niya noong college siya pero wala siyang ideya kung anong pakiramdam. She thought it was overrated. Pero di mo pala mapapaniwalaan hanhang maranasan mo mismo.
She felt his erection pulsing hard against her hip as he leaned into her. He eased two fingers inside her. He was cruel but she couldn’t tell him that. Baka bigla itong tumigil sa ginagawa nito. Ang nagawa lang niya ay suminghap ng hangin at sana ay hindi maglaho ang sensasyong nararamdaman niya.
Muli ay pumailanlang siya paitaas. Bumulong ito sa kanya. “Let go, Phoenix.” Then she exploded when his thumb circled her sensitive nub that she didn’t know existed.
Napahawak siya sa balikat nito. Kasabay ng muli niyang pagsabog ay inangkin siya nito. One thrust then two until he was all the way inside her. Naramdaman niya ang sakit pero sandali lang iyon. Parang saglit lang naglaho.
“Nasasaktan ka ba?” tanong ng binata sa pagitan ng naggigiyagis na ngipin habang hindi ito gumagalaw.
“N-No,” usal niya at hinaplos ang labi nito. Nakita niya ang pagpapawis ng noo nito. As if it was a huge effort on his part not to move. “Take me now, Vance. Huwag kang matakot. I am not vulnerable anymore. I can take it.”
Hindi nito inaalis ang tingin sa kanya habang dahan-dahan nitong hinuhugot ang sarili. Then he slowly slid back in. Napaka-makapangyarihan at emosyonal nang mga sandaling iyon. It was supposed to be just sex. Dapat ay gawin lang niya ito para mawala ang trauma na dinanas niya sa araw na iyon. Para makalimot. But there was more.
“Phoenix…. Phoenix…” he was saying her name like a mantra. Naririnig din niyang may boses ng babae na tumatawag sa boses nito. Only to find out that it was her.
Ito si Vance – ang lalaking minahal niya. Ang nag-iisang lalaki na gusto niyang umangkin sa kanya.
It was supposed to be her honeymoon with another man. Now she was making love with her enemy. Mali ito pero wala siyang pakialam. It felt so good. She felt so alive.
Dahil kahit gaano pa niya kamuhian si Vance ay mahal pa rin niya ito. At hindi niya ito naramdaman noong kasama pa niya si Nelson. Kahit ang isipan niya ay nag-shut down na sa sensasyong nararamdaman niya. There was nothing between them. Walang kompetisyon, walang proviso ng testamento na nagsasabing magkalaban sila hanggang isa sa kanila ang magtagumpay.
He was just a man. She was just a woman.
Hindi niya makakalimutan ang gabing ito. At kung posible lang ay ayaw na sana niyang matapos pa.