Is Stefan a demon? She asked me back, I frown, knowing that these people will not help me. Only you could tell what he is, even I don't know what I am, when you found out, then I too will find out what I am. She pulled slowly from my gaze. You should wait for the alpha and please, don't let him kiss you, he might hurt you.
Wait!!! I said again but she didn't wait, she open the door and left, she got me confused, my head spun, worries overtaken my system, the height of wanting to know who is the man I am madly in love with is what makes me Gaga, I might not be able to have a nice sleep if I don't get answers to my multiple questions.
The door opens again, and this time, it's Stefan, he is standing at the door, his appearance is different, his face is handsome yet like the devil himself, and his expression is unreadable like I have never been able to read his expression, the more I try the more I seem lost, he is in world of his own again, still, I don't think he is communicating with his wolf, it's like his body wasn't his, he is having a memory, memories only he wanted to keep to himself, memories I wish I could share with him, a problem shared is a problem half solve. I want to share his thoughts with him, I want to take part in his pain like Sarah said, all alpha kill, and those souls they killed weren't innocent as we call them. If they aren't innocent then I will not judge him, I will not criticize him, and I will never make them feel worthless.
I killed Luna, Luna Berry, Leonid's mother. My foot moved from him involuntarily, at the mention of those words, I hate the fact that he had to kill someone again, even though I tell myself so many times that, I will not judge him if he kills someone but here again my action is judging him. Then I remembered Sarah's words, he is an alpha and he is made to kill people.
Are you hurting because you killed her? I asked moving closer to him.
No! I am not, I am perfectly fine, I don't regret ever killing anyone before now and Berry wasn't an exception. Killing had become my everyday life. He looks at his hands, and even though he is saying that he doesn't regret it, his actions show that he regrets it. Do you know how many this hand had slayed? With my paws, fangs, and claws, I have made them breathless, those weapons were only for formalities, I don't need them to kill humans or wolves like me.
His words were more of pain, than of pride that he could kill his enemies, I don't know what Berry did but I know that this is going to cause trouble for Stefan and the pack might revolt about it and might come after him, the highest an alpha could do to a Luna is to banish her not kill her no matter her grievous her offense is, yet Stefan had killed her.
By the law of the Pack, all Luna is supposed to be killed by just the moon goddess, not the alpha made by the moon goddess, I pulled his hand and hugged him, he needed one, I know he is troubled, Berry must have anger him so had to kill her.
Fiona, you should leave me, I am not the man that you will love to be with, the deserving man, the man that you dreamed of having as a mate because I am a complicated creature, I don't even know myself.
And me, do you think I know who I am? He looks at me and the next thing, I kissed him, and he pushed me with all his strength.
Fiona please, not now, I don't want to hurt you, now that my demon, beast, wolf, and wizard are now at the surface. I stared at him confused, so confused, I was confused or bothered, yes, that is the right word, I am bothered with the tone and the use of his numerous words. Suddenly I felt hot, choking inside that I am going to get consumed with pain, yet again it wasn't pain but needs, the need of the touch of this man in front of me, needs that, I wanted him to touch me, to finish what he started in the morning, I don't know where that came from but I suddenly want his touch even with the warning from Sarah, I didn't want to listen, I want to kiss him even when Sarah said I shouldn't kiss him, he is mine, I want to unite with him, I want us to be together and that could only happen if we finally have intercourse together, his nude body against mine is the only thing that could put this fire away from me.
Still, I am not going to force him, if he doesn't want to, I will learn to control my urges, I move from his sight and sit in front of the mirror, grabbed the comb in anger, brushing my hair, while staring at my reflection, how red I had turned because of heat, I have forgotten totally what Stefan told me. How selfish I was? I was supposed to be thinking about Leonid, how is he feeling now that Stefan had killed his mother, how is feeling right now, in a short period he has become an orphan.
I tied my hair in Ponytail, I was applying scent on my hair and wrist, then my neck, and from the mirror, I noticed that Stefan had stood from the bed he was sitting on when he walked passed me.
Wifey! His voice came up and arose heat in my body at the same time, this tormentor, my lips parted unknowingly, my breath came out, and he move closer with his eyes not leaving me, I turned from the mirror because I can't see the reason while I am staring at the mirror, it looks like I am staring at him. Why do you torture me with every action of yours?
Am I torturing you? I asked he nodded, and I become nervous under his scrutiny, he stand a distance, and I felt sad, knowing that he had to stop hand length from me. It shows I didn't please him.
You please me, you know that. His gaze met mine, the distance is not that much. Don't you know that I am pleased with you