“Wait!” Gray pulled my wrist to stop me from walking. He was too fast to hold my hand and tightened his grip, so I didn't have any choice but to listen to him. “Let me explain, okay?”
“What are you going to explain?” I eyed him. “That, I am the other girl and you really have -” He kissed me, so I stopped. I felt a sudden bolt in my chest and it terrified me for I know that he really is capable of hurting me.
“Do you think you can make it up with a kiss and I’ll forget-”
“If you don't listen to me, I’ll kiss you over and over again!” He said in a desperate tone. “C’mon, listen to me. You are not the other girl. You are the only girl,” he begged as he held my hand.
“It was my secretary who received your call,” he started explaining which made me raise my brow. I mean, that reason won’t sell on me.
“And, your secretary didn’t inform you that your girlfriend is calling?” I hissed. “Wow! What kind of secretary would do that, you don’t even know that I called? Did you even check your phone?” I started bombarding him with questions that had been running in my mind since.
He added fire onto it when he told me that it was his secretary because my instinct told me that. It’s just lame. And, why didn’t he call back?
“Did your secretary delete my call into your log list or you just forgot to call back?” I impatiently asked. I may be exaggerating, but I believe I have the right to ask and know about it because he is my boyfriend. I am not making this a big deal, yet I know I won’t be able to sleep at night if I keep on thinking about it.
I need answers and I hate myself for not believing what he is telling me. Okay, it’s my fault. I really do have trust issues and ugh! Fine! This is not healthy for a relationship! What should I do? Should I believe in him?
“I texted you, babe! And, I am sorry for not calling back. I was busy at work and when I tried to call you back, you were out of reach.”
My face slowly lightened up when he told me that and I remembered turning off my phone. Yeah, how would I know if I turned off my phone and distract myself away from him?
I sighed. “I am sorry. I turned off my phone because okay...yeah...nevermind!” I turned my back when I realized how flustered I am by the thought of being jealous. That’s it. I am jealous and mad at the same time because I really don’t know anything about Gray, except the things he told me about.
This might be the disadvantage of our relationship since we just became a couple without truly knowing each other. I know it’s my fault, too, for making everything so fast. Well, I am not regretting it because we can find out about each other while we are together as a couple. However, there were times when I felt like we lacked communication. Maybe, it’s only been a month? Honestly, I don’t know because it’s my first relationship with anyone. I am really good at this and I don’t know what to do.
“Are you jealous?” Gray hugged me. “Sorry, for making you jealous. I didn’t mean to, okay?” He kissed my forehead. “But, don’t do that please. Don’t make me jealous because you are jealous! That’s unfair! I want to punch him in the face for having lunch with my girlfriend. I should be the one eating with you,” he pouted.
I chuckled a little and caressed his cheeks. “Sorry, it was actually the reason why I was calling you and your secretary...” I emphasized the last word.
I want to meet that secretary and confirm it, though, for now I would be trusting Gray’s words because if now, what’s the sense of everything we are trying to work on?
“Dave wanted to treat me to lunch and I was going to tell you but…” I stopped and wagged my head. “I no longer want to ruin the moment. So, how about we just eat?”
“You already had your lunch with him…” Gray rolled his eyes. “What else do you want to eat?”
“You…” I joked which made me blush so I laughed as we walked towards another restaurant across the streets.
“Don’t joke. I might really eat you.” He acted serious and eventually laughed.
“Why not?” I replied.
“We can eat each other later.” He winked. “For now, let’s eat real food because I am really hungry.”
“Yeah!” I nodded as we decided on food to eat.
There are a lot of restaurants around the university and Gray just can’t choose what to eat because he felt like eating everything. In the end, he decided to just grab some Mexican food since it was the area that’s not crowded. He’s so hungry, he doesn’t want to wait for food.
“I’m sorry for acting childish,” I said as we waited for food. He was playing with my hands while I leaned on his shoulder. “It’s just I am new to this and you are really my first boyfriend and I want us to work.”
“And, we are going to make it work. We just have to trust each other, okay?” He assured me. “If we want to make it work, we need to talk about the things that are bothering us.”
“You have to help me. I am not good at this,” I clicked my tongue. “I swear. Sooner or later, you might get tired of my cynical attitude. You know-” He kissed me and embraced me between his arms.
Gray sweetly whispered, “We will make it work. Don’t think too much. I am here.”
“You are just too good to be true,” I stuck my tongue out as he glanced at me. “What are the odds that we are going to meet?”
“Destiny,” he simply replied.
“Yes, it might be. But, come on!” I leaned closer to him and held his hand tight, afraid to let it go. I even pinched his arms because I might be dreaming. He chuckled a bit as I continued to pinch him.
“Hey, I am real. You are not dreaming,” Gray said. “You don’t have to worry.”
“I can’t help it. I mean, I’ve been waiting for you for years and now you are here…” I stared at his brown eyes and didn’t let go of it until we heard the staff cough. He smiled at us, with such envy in his eyes, while he put our food on the table.
“Have a nice lunch!” He smiled at us and went back to the kitchen.
I blushed. Ugh! Gray can make me forget things around me. I used to hate public displays of affection and now I am doing it. Well, not totally, but I felt like we are too clingy and corny in the eyes of other people. Although, it doesn’t matter. We don’t owe them our happiness. I should stop thinking about other people and just focus on us. There are a lot of people that would hate us and would try to ruin us, and it may be hard to do it, but I believe I should learn to trust Gray. After all, that is one of the elements of making a relationship work.
From now on, I will give Gray my hundred percent trust. It was really hard for me to give it considering I’ve experienced a lot of people who betrayed me in the past. But, it seems to me that Gray’s worth it for that. I just pray that he will not break my trust.
“Can you promise me one thing?” I told him.
He stopped eating, looked at me, and nodded.
“Go on. Let me hear it. I want to promise if I know I can keep it.” He chewed his food and added. “But, if it’s about trust, I think that’s not something you should promise, it’s something that must be done if you are in a relationship.”
“No, it’s not that.” I shook my head.
“Then, what is it?”
“Promise me that if things won’t work between us, we are still going to be friends,” I firmly said. “Can you do that?”
“Well, promise me this,” He seriously looked at me. “Promise me that even if it gets tough, we will make it work. Promise me that because I don’t want to do what you are asking me to do.”
“Fair enough,” I nodded in affirmative. “Then, how about this, promise me you’re still going to stay even if you hate me.”
“I’ll stay even if you ask me to leave,” he promised. For now, I can only hope for that promise to be kept.