Ryan POV:-
"Because you know you are nothing on your own."
I sneered at her which caused her to look at me in aversion and intense resentment.
“You cannot do anything, you are a nobody at this point.” I whispered temptingly.
From what I have heard about her from Marianne, she can even build an empire of her own by herself without any support.
“So, what are you going to do?” I asked.
Due to some tragedy she lost her will and her skills or else I would be interested to see her at her best.
She then narrowed her eyes at me and stood up, "Yeah, I know it. I am nothing but some worthless trash, so throw me out."
She spoke her ridiculous words which made me narrow my eyes at her as I pulled away. I leaned on the table and ran my hands in my hair in frustration.
“Stop this, Rebecca.” I let out a scowl, infuriated by her absurd words.
“This will lead you nowhere.” I turned to look at her, she seemed unaffected which fueled my anger more. I put my hands on the armrest of the chair as I hissed at her,
"You will lose everyone with this demeanor of yours, Rebecca."
She stood up and replied, raising her voice,
"I have lost everyone... except Marianne. So stop interrupting my life, Mr Knight!" She turned to leave as I shouted,
"Come back here, Rebecca. I am not done with you!"
She didn't speak another word and left. I sighed and rubbed my temples, that woman was unbelievable.
I walked after her as we both entered our room. She turned and glared at me.
"What do you want?" She asked rudely. I just looked at her as she continued,
"When you are not letting me live my life, then what brings you here? Or do you want to consummate our marriage? Do it.” She scowled.
“Because you are a beast, an insensible bastard who just wants revenge by crushing my every hope under his feet. Do it!" She spoke all those words she wanted to.
What was eating her from inside. She gave her final disgusted look and lowered her head.
“You know this frustration is the outcome of your choices and actions.” I said coldly, telling her the harsh truth.
I kept staring at her as abysmal thoughts came to my mind, crushing a disruption in it. I lifted her chin with my index finger, she couldn't meet my gaze,
“I know and I am so done with myself. Throw me away…” She whispered, her eyes flickered with the fear and regret of saying this.
She wanted to say 'please don't' now but couldn't.
“Why are you like this? What did you hope to gain?” I asked in a bare murmur.
The fright distraught her mind as the distress in them was clear. She instantly regrets saying that because she knows that I won't delay complying with her words.
“Liberation.” She gulped, not lifting her devoid eyes.
Her lips began to quiver as she was startled but hid that behind her posture.
“From what?” I asked softly.
Her quivering lips, uneven breath and the restless gaze trying to think of a way to get out of this tribulation.
“Myself.” She whispered which caused the absence of sound made the sound of her rapid heartbeat to echo in the room.
I leaned in and rested my forehead against hers. The sound of her breath filled me as I wrapped my hand around her neck.
“Rebecca.”
For an instant, everything stopped, her breaths, her loud heartbeat as a sudden lull took over. We both closed our eyes and a sudden and unwanted serenity filled us up.
“You will devastate yourself with this behavior.” I whispered, caressing her with my thumb.
This was wrong, it was illicit, I shouldn't do this but I know I cannot back away now, like some restraints wrapped around me and by each step I took closer, I cannot turn back.
“For whom should I live anyways? What is my reason to exist?” She asked, moving her hand slowly to my chest.
“Who am I?” Her breath mixed up with mine and it felt like our heartbeat synchronized.
“You…” I paused because what will I say?
The darkness lurking in the room somehow gave me eerie satisfaction. My lips slightly parted as I wanted to say something but I couldn't, like my voice is stuck in my throat.
“See… I am nobody for everyone.” She said, clutching my shirt.
A low yet deep breath escaped my lips as I moved my head and snuggled to her neck. My lips brushed against her neck and she began to pant.
“Rebecca.”
I moved my one hand to her hair while my other hand moved down and held her hand.
Her pants became heavy as she didn't dare to open her eyes or even try to push me away because she knows she is the one who invoked this.
“You hate me too.” She said and it constricted my heart unwillingly.
My breath lingered on her skin as I felt her shivers traveling in her, she brought her hand close to me and held my shirt as I could feel her convulsions.
“You are enough for yourself.” I said, a fake consolation.
I don't feel any love or lust by doing this. It wasn't that feeling of immense fondness that I used to imagine, it wasn't that desire to feel her too.
“Meaningless to you?” She asked which dried my throat.
But It was... solace providing.
“I.. don’t know.” I replied honestly.
I don't know how and when and why but it gave me tranquility. Like a source of equanimity for me.
I finally pressed my lips upon her neck and kissed it. The kiss was deep but held no emotions.
“R-Ryan..?” She was astonished by my action.
It showed hatred but it was soft. It desires lust but it seek comfort. It felt wrong but right at the same time.
‘Are you feeling the same as me, Rebecca?’
I sunk my teeth on her delicate skin as a soft voice of pain left her lips. A glint of distress and unfathomable emotions.
I moved my lips slowly and sucked the spot earning low voices from her, she was trying to deny. Her body became tense, she felt terror and consternation.
But that didn't stop me and I continued what I was doing and when I formed a mark, indicating that she is my woman and pulled away.
“Rebecca…” I breathed out for the last time and pulled away.
My chaotic gaze met her dismayed one and that's when I understood that she felt none of the emotions I did.
It somehow pricked my heart that she didn't feel any serene, that there was no calmness in her, all that present there was ravage.
“Don’t.” That’s all she said.
A destructive feeling which she hates, a strong feeling of repugnance. A mixed emotions of heartbreak, anxiety and fear.
“I don’t deserve you.”
But, I don't know, somewhere in my heart, I felt like all the emotions she is showing are not meant for me but rather her and what she felt for me, was hidden behind those thick walls of darkness and misery.
I got away from her and took a step back. She finally let go of my shirt as she hugged her sides and turned her head away.
"One day.." I spoke hoarsely and continued.
"You'll drive me insane." and left.