Maki usually get high on music. It was like an aphrodisiac, listening to music, playing the instruments and singing. Kapag nasa mundo siya ng musika ay nawawala na lang siya sa sarili at parang tinatangay siya sa ibang mundo.
And now, she was on a different high. Pero wala siya sa isang symphony orchestra concert o hindi siya tumutugtog instrumento at kumakanta sa harap ng maraming audience. Si Benedikt lang ang kasama niya. And the wicked things he did to her body was taking her to different heights. He was drugging her senses. He was driving her mad. Deliciously mad.
He was like an orchestra conductor, commanding every part of her body like fine instruments. Bawat haplos nito ay libo-libong sensasyon ang gumagapang sa katawan niya. He could make her body sing in a music as old as time. And she was helpless to stop him whenever the sensation was way too much.
Mas kilala ni Benedikt ang katawan niya kaysa sa pagkakaalam niya. He touched parts of her body that she never thought were erogenous. Malinaw kung gaano siya ka-inexperienced pero hindi siya nahihiya. Si Benedikt lang ang nag-iisang lalaki sa buhay niya at masaya siya na ito ang nagtuturo sa kanya ng mga bagay na di pa niya alam.
Her hands clutched the bedsheet when two of his fingers scissored inside her feminine core and his tongue was playing with her little bundle of joy. Pakiramdam niya ay may presentasyon ng Musical Pyrolympics sa ulunan niya dahil sa libo-libong iba’t ibang kulay na nakita niyang sumabog at sa musika na di niya alam kung saan nanggagaling para lang malaman na ungol pala niya iyon. But Benedikt didn’t stop torturing her. Orgasm with his lips and fingers were nice but she wanted the real thing. Mula nang itali siya nito ay wala na talaga siyang magawa kundi makiusap dito pero di naman nito pinapakinggan.
“Benedikt, just take me now. I am dying.”
“You will live. Trust me.”
He curled his fingers inside her and she show fireworks once more. “H-How many more small deaths?”
He suddenly stopped moving and loomed over her. “We can stop this if you are not happy about this. Do you want me to stop?”
“No. But I want you to finish this. Gusto mo lang yatang i-torture ako.”
Pinunasan nito ang pawisan niyang noo. “This is also a torture for me. But I want to make it good for you. I want to prepare you on what’s to come.”
“I am hardly a virgin.”
“You are practically a virgin. You are so tight.”
“It has been so long,” aniya at iniwas ang tingin dito dahil naiilang siya. She was sexually inexperienced. Kahit nga sarili niyang katawan ay di niya alam kung paano iha-handle sa ganitong mga pagkakataon. At ang lahat ng ginagawa ni Benedikt sa kanya ay malayo sa noong unang beses silang nagniig.
She was almost virgin without the maidenhead but with cobwebs instead. At ibang Benedikt na rin ang kaniig niya ngayon. All those women while she was gone. Naiinggit siya sa mga babaeng nagbigay ng experience dito. She couldn’t even compare.
Kinintalan nito ng halik ang dulo ng ilong niya. “Hey! Don’t be shy about it.”
“Maybe you want a more experienced lover.”
“You are the one I want. And I am glad, selfishly glad that I am your only lover.”
Then he claimed her lips and she tasted her essence on him. It was wicked and exciting. She never thought she could feel this way. That Benedikt would claim her again. Hindi niya ma-imagine ang sarili na ibibigay ang sarili sa ibang lalaki o makakaramdam ng ganitong klaseng intesidad gaya ng nararamdaman niya kay Benedikt.
Her nipples became pebbled peaks against his chest. She could feel his arousal silky, hot and hard at the same time against her stomach.
“I wish I could touch you,” bulong niya kay Benedikt. “Let me go.” She was really craving for her freedom. Her frustration was driving her mad.
“Next time,” sabi nito. “Just give me this night. Let me take care of you.”
“Benedikt!” angal niya.
“Next time,” usal nito at may kinuha sa drawer nito. Akala niya kung saan ito pupunta. Then she heard the rustle of foil wrapper. “Protection first.”
Her eyes when as she watched him donn the rubber over his arousal. Nanuyo ang lalamunan niya at muli lang siyang na-frustrate. He was beautiful. “Mukhang pinaghandaan mo ito,” sa halip ay pabiro na lang niyang sabi.
“I am a Boy Scout,” puno ng kompiyansa nitong sagot.
“Expecting another girl…”
His eyes became dark and sharp. “Do you see another girl in this room?”
“N-No,” aniya at umiling.
“It is just you and me, baby. At habang magkasama tayo, ayokong may iisipin ka pang iba. Not another girl, not anything else. Gusto ko na ako lang ang iisipin mo.” She sucked in her breath when the tip of his finger lazily trailed her left breast. “And as much as I want to take you without any barriers between us, I know I must protect you even if it kills me.”
Protection. Rubber. Pregnancy. Saka lang niya unti-unting naunawaan ang lahat. Hindi niya naisip ang proteksyon kahit kaninang nakita niya. Mas nakadama siya ng selos sa ibang babaeng dumaan sa buhay nito.
She didn’t want to feel anything between them either. At nag-flash sa isipan niya ang isang batang lalaki na mas batang version ni Benedikt. Pangarap niyang maging ina ng mga anak nito noon. A part of her still had that wish. Pero sa sitwasyon nila ngayon, magiging unfair para sa kanilang dalawa kung magkakaroon ng bunga ang pagsasama nila. Ilang araw lang ang mayroon sa kanila. Pansamantala lang ang lahat. If only they had forever…
Her eyes rolled when he started teasing her entrance with the tip of his arousal. Damn him for teasing her. Hanggang kailan ba siya nito tutuksuhin. She was more then prepared to take him. “Benedikt, stop teasing. Oras na makawala ako dito, sasakalin kita.”
“Remember that patience is a virtue,” anitong nanunukso pa siyang nginitian.
Naubos na ang anumang virtue na mayroon siya. Kamay lang naman ang nakatali sa kanya pero malaya pa ang binti niya. She wrapped her legs around his torso and pulled him closer. Nanlaki ang mata ni Benedikt. His shaft nudged an inch inside her. “Maki!” anito sa nananaway na boses.
“Please,” she pleaded sweetly.
He held her leg to control her then he started possessing her. It was agonizingly slow as if he was taking forever but the pleasure was tormenting her in such a sweet way. Mariin niyang kinuyom ang palad hanggang halos bumaon na ang kuko niya sa balat niya.
“Benedikt, let me go,” pakiusap niya dito.
Umiling ito habang patuloy ang marahan na paggalaw. “No. Baka iwan mo ako.”
His eyes were glassy with desire but there was also fear. At saka niya naalala kung paano niya itong iniwan noon matapos nilang magniig at di na nagpakita pa. Hindi niya inaasahan na maririnig niya mula dito ang takot na iwan ulit niya ito.
“Saan naman ako pupunta?” tanong niya. “I want to feel you, Benedikt.”
“Just this once, I want to make sure that you won’t leave me. I need that assurance. I will make you mine, tire you, drive you mad and sate you until both of us can’t move. Para hindi mo na gustuhing lumayo sa akin.” He pulled back until only his tip remained inside her then he pushed inside her with such a force that rocked her world. “Mine.”
“I had always been yours. Only yours.”