“Zakarius...”
I can feel his hand inside my nightgown. Napakapit ako nang mahigpit sa mesa nang maramdaman ko ang kamay niya sa dibdib ko. My body is shivering against his touch. My mind is still stopping me, but my body is in control right now. My body wants his touch and kisses.
“Z-Zak, touch me,” I murmured when his hand started fondling my breast under my nightgown. He's avoiding touching my nipple on purpose, he's literally teasing me.
He's gently bitting my lower lip while touching me all over. My body arched when I felt his hard on crushing on my womanhood harder. I released a needy moan and touch his broad shoulder. Sobrang nanghihina na ako, pakiramdam ko matutumba ako kahit nakahiga naman ako sa mesa.
“So sensitive,” he whispered huskily and played with my nipple using his thumb. My toes curled, my mouth agape while I'm trying to catch my breath. I'm literally sweating but he doesn't seem to mind.
He sucked my lips and kissed me savagely again. I responded with much need and desire. We kissed open-mouthed, we're both panting as his hands worked, doing wonders on my body.
Pakiramdam ko ay malalagutan ako ng hininga sa halik niya. His kiss was hard, then gentle, then hard again, like he's a hungry beast and I'm his prey. I almost lose it when his kiss became slow, wet, and coaxing. This is surely the hottest kiss of all time. I can't breathe properly right now, wala pang nakagawa nang ganito sa akin noon... Si Zakarius pa lang.
My back arched once again when his thumb and index finger starts playing with my nipple. My eyes dilated as his mouth moved down to my slender throat, he licked my skin there and gently bit it. Tila nakuryente ang buong katawan ko sa ginawa niya, hindi na 'ko mapakali.
I start gripping his arms, then his shoulders, then his hair. Hindi na ako mapakali dahil sa sensasyon na ibinibigay niya, nagiging malikot na ang katawan ko.
Zakarius held both of my hands and pinned it on the table. My lips parted when he started grinding his hips again. I spread my legs wider and moved my hips against his. My heart beats faster when I heard him released a manly moan, I never knew someone's moan can be this sexy. Zakarius is a walking temptation, no one can resist this man.
I bit my lower lip, my wet womanly center pulsated and tingled with pleasure against his hard shaft covered with his pajama. I tried to calm myself, I couldn't think properly anymore. I'm so desperate to release this heat building up in my body. I desperately need him.
Binitiwan niya ang mga kamay ko, agad akong napakapit sa likod niya nang maramdaman ko ang kamay niyang bumababa hanggang sa pagkababae ko. I catched my breath, he puts his hand inside my underwear. My toes instantly curled when I felt his rough hand on my soaking feminity.
“Fuck, you're so wet for me,” he mumbled ina sexy hoarse voice and gently stroked my folds using his finger.
I made out with my past boyfriends before, but I never let them touch my private parts. I don't know why I'm letting him touch me all over as if my body belongs to him. This is insane, I'm insane.
“Aahhh, Z-Zak...” I moaned and spread my legs wider when his finger starts playing with my slippery core.
His finger found my throbbing nub and tease it. My lips parted, trying to catch my breath when he gently rubbed it using the tip of his index finger. My whole body is literally shaking, my body can't contain the sensation anymore, it was too much to bear.
He slightly spread the folds of my core and rubbed his finger there. My eyes dilated, my pulse raced as my back arched. I can't keep up with his expert fingers anymore. Mababaliw na yata ako sa ginagawa niya.
I raised my hip but he held it using his other hand. He started swirling the tip his index finger there, teasing it, making it wetter than it already is. I can feel something building on my belly, I couldn't explain it. I just want to release something, I just want to release this heat because I can't take it anymore.
“Z-Zak, oohhh... P-please, touch me, please,” I moaned. I'm literally begging him to touch me more. Hindi ko inaakalang magagawa kong magmakaawa nang ganito. I'm desperate, I want him.
My eyes widened when he removed his hand on my core when I was about to release something. I felt so frustrated, I want him to continue, I want him to touch me more. Why the fuck did he stop?
I gasped in shock when he grind his hard groin on my wetness again. My mouth agape when I realized it was his bare c-ck. He didn't remove my underwear but I can feel his bare hardness, it's hard. I'm currently fighting the urge to stroke it with my hand.
“Aahhh...” I gripped his hair when he started thrusting his hip. I can feel that he's still wearing his pajama, he just took his c-ck out. I can feel his bare c-ck grinding on my softness beneath my underwear, it feels so good... The tingling sensation and electricity are rushing through my veins. I'm about to lose my mind right now.
Zakarius licked his lower lip and sexily bit it. He gripped the table trying to stop it's movement, the table is literally creaking right now, hindi na ako magugulat kung bigla na lang itong bibigay dahil sa paggalaw niya sa ibabaw ko.
I enjoy staring at him, he looks so satisfied. Just like me, it looks like he was about to lose his sanity too. Namumula nang bahagya ang mukha niya habang nakaigting ang panga na tila ba kinokontrol ang sariling emosyon.
His blue eyes met my brown ones. The intensity of his eyes are too much, the dominance it screams is too much to bear.
“Z-Zak, the table... The table will break, I-I'm sure,” I stuttered. I held his shoulder, trying to stop him.
“It won't,” he murmured and continued rubbing his shaft on my core. I just closed my eyes and bit my lower lip. Tila na-blanko na rin ang isip ko. I just moved my hips against his, keeping up with his desperate movements.
“Fuck,” he moaned and held my legs tighter. He crushed himself in between my legs harder, he's now sweating but it just makes him hotter and sexier. Damn it, I want more of him.
“Z-Zak, s-stop. There's something, aahhh...” I gripped his arms, my nails digged on his muscled arms but he doesn't seem to mind and just continue grinding himself on my softness.
Powerful sensations start building up amd throbbed on my belly. I desperately moved my hips against his when I felt something, I want to release this flaring heat inside my body.
“Ahh, fuck. Z-Zak, oohhh...”
I grabbed his hair and pulled him close as I writhed beneath him. I felt something coming out of my wet core. I moaned when I finally released the heat inside me, my whole body is convulsing in much pleasure. I feel so sticky and wet right now, but Zak is still moving above me, he's still grinding his hardness on my damp core. Hs's literally gritting his teeth, the table is creaking loudly, sigurado ako na masisira na ito maya-maya lang ngunit tila wala siyang pakialam.
Zakarius' groans and heavy breath is turning me on. I already had my release but he looks so hot while moving his body in much need and desperation. I suddenly felt so desirable and wanted.
“Damn, so good,” he murmured sexily while thrusting his hips.
I bit my lower lip while staring at his handsome face, I can feel his c-ck convulsing on my lady part. His face screams pleasure and desire. His blue eyes are on fire while staring at me. I held his face and moved my hips against his even though I felt so weak all over.
“Ah, fuck...” he moaned and gripped my shoulder tightly. His body shivered and his movements became slower.
My lips parted when his hot seed coated my belly as he came. He closed his eyes and bit his lower lip. He's catching his breath while stroking my waist. That was so intense, he didn't penetrated my womanhood but that was so good.
“Fuck, I never came this way before,” Zakarius murmured while caressing my arm.
The hot load feels so sticky on my tummy, but oddly, it doesn't feel disgusting at all. I find it satisfying and hot.
Zakarius stared at me, I bet I look like a wasted and drunk woman right now. Nag-iinit pa rin ang mukha ko dahil titig na titig siya sa 'kin. I want to wipe my sweat but I'm too weak to do that.
“Stay there,” Zakarius murmured and get off the table.
I just nodded and closed my eyes while still catching my breath. Bumalik din agad si Zak. He wiped my stomach using a tissue and fixed my nightgown.
He carried me off the table, pinaupo niya ako sa upuan. Nanginginig pa rin ang mga hita ko dahil sa nangyari.
I gasped when the table suddenly collapsed. Sabi na nga ba at bibigay ito, inaasahan ko na 'yon ngunit nagulat pa rin ako. Buti na lang wala na ako sa mesa nang bumigay 'yon.
I bit my lower lip while avoiding Zakarius' intense gaze. The atmosphere suddenly became awkward from intense. I don't know how to face him now, pleasure blinded my mind. Nakalimutan ko kanina ang lahat ng bagay, mukhang gano'n din siya.
“Angel.”
Natigilan ako nang tawagin niya ako. Tila hindi makapaniwalang napatingin ako sa kanya. I don't know but I think this is the first time he called me by my name. He always calls me ‘woman’. I think my heart is about to explode right now.
“I know you are aware that we're both consenting adults. We were just carried away by emotions, I know you're open-minded about these stuffs.”
Ang kakaibang emosyon na nararamdaman ko kanina ay tila gumuho. I looked at him, I tried to remain calm and didn't react with his remark. I know what he's trying to say.
“So, you want me to forget everything. That's what you want to say, right?” I asked. Pilit kong pinigilan na mautal, pinilit kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko kahit nanginginig ang mga kamay ko.
Good thing I'm an actress.
He didn't say anything, he just remained silent, but I get it. Naiintindihan ko kung ano ang gusto niyang mangyari.
I bit the insides of my cheeks, pinipigilan ko ang kakaibang emosyon na umaakyat sa dibdib ko. I don't know why but this situation is hurting me. Pinipigilan ko ang sarili na maiyak. I won't cry, I'll do anything just to stop myself from crying in front of him right now.
“Of course, Zakarius. Na-carried away lang din naman ako. You know, I just missed having sex with someone, I'm just a woman with active sexual life. Pinagbigyan lang natin ang mga sarili natin, but don't worry, I'll forget everything, ni hindi nga tayo nagsex, e. It's fine, kakalimutan na lang natin ang lahat, that's the best option. Good night.”
Kahit nanginginig pa ang buong katawan ko, pinilit ko pa ring tumayo at iwan siya sa dining area. Agad akong nagtungo sa kuwarto ko at dali daling sinara ang pinto.
I slumped on the bed and covered my face. Ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan ay agad na kumawala. Dumapa ako sa kama at tinakpan ng unan ang mukha ko habang impit na umiiyak.
I shouldn't blame him for this, I let it happen. Ginusto kong mangyari 'yon. I should've stopped myself, dapat pinigilan ko ang sarili at ang emosyon ko.
But still, he's a jerk. Damn him. I will never forgive him, I will never let him touch me again.
* * *
“My goodness, Angel. Ano na naman ba kasing drama ang pinanood mo at namamaga ang mga mata mo? Hirap na hirap tuloy ang make up artist mo kanina,” panenermon ni Chan sa 'kin.
I just rolled my eyes at him. I don't have energy to argue with him right now. Ilang beses na akong napagalitan ng direktor dahil nalulutang ako at tila wala sa sarili.
“Just shut up, Chan. Baka masisante kita sa inis ko,” pananakot ko sa kanya saka tiningnan siya nang masama. Natahimik na lang si Chan at tinakpan ang bibig niya.
I sighed and tried to relax. Just stop thinking about him, Angel. He's a d-ck, hindi niya deserve na isipin ng magandang tulad ko.
Napairap ako nang makitang papalapit sa 'kin si Cassian. Nakakunot ang noo niya at nakikita ko ng sesermunan din niya ako.
“The director said you should take a break, Angel. Magpahinga ka muna at mukhang wala ka sa sarili,” nakakunot-noong sabi niya saka agad akong tinalikuran.
Buti naman at hindi na niya ako binira nang maraming sermon. Mukhang napansin niya rin na wala ako sa mood kanina pa.
Agad akong tumayo at lumapit kay Castor na abala sa pagbabasa ng libro. This man loves reading books, that's admirable because of that, he loves reading books about mystery and crimes, sometimes he reads fantasy books too. We are alike when it comes to that, I love reading fiction books too. I read fantasy and mystery novels too, but I like reading romance novels more, especially stories that tackle up about real-life sufferings and experiences.
“Castor.”
Natigilan si Castor sa pagbabasa at napatingin sa 'kin. He smiled and put his book on the table beside him. Tumayo siya at humarap sa 'kin. One thing I like about Castor is that he knows how to deal with women. He can be playful, he can be naughty, he can be a gentleman, depende sa mood ng babae.
“Why, Angel?” he asked and stroked his hair using his hand.
“Do you want to have a dinner with me?” I asked while curling my hair using my finger. Halata namang natigilan siya sa tanong ko.
“Woah, that's so sudden. Ano'ng meron?” tila natatawang tanong niya.
“Pumapayag ka ba o hindi?” I asked and raised my eyebrow at him. He just laughed and gently pinched my cheek.
“Okay, mukhang kanina ka pa wala sa mood, siguro nag-away kayo ng bago mong ka-date. But well, let's have a dinner if that will make you feel good,” he said and smiled at me. Bahagyang ngumiti na lang din ako.
This is right, I should distract myself on other things and stop thinking about him. That's the right thing to do.
Wala pa si Chan nang makarating ako sa parking area. Malamang kinakausap pa ito ni Cassian. I just shrugged off and was about to enter the van when someone pulled my wrist. I already know who it is.
Agad kong inalis ang pagkakahawak niya sa 'kin at tiningnan siya nang masama.
“What the fuck are you doing here, Zakarius?!” I asked and pushed his chest.
“I told you that--”
I immediately cut him off.
“I won't go back to your house again, Zakarius. I have my own house, I have my own life. Jaze will come back if she wants to. Try finding her on your own and don't bother me again. Isang lapit mo pa sa 'kin, magsusumbong na talaga ako sa mga pulis. Fuck off,” I said with finality on my voice. I stared at his blue eyes and as usual, I can't see what he's thinking right now. Hindi ko na naman mabasa ang emosyon niya.
“Angel? Director Cavalcante, namdito ka pala.”
Napatingin ako kay Chan na kararating lang, agad ko siyang tiningnan nang masama.
“Get in the van. I want to go home, Chan,” I said and immediately get inside the van. Wala namang nagawa si Chan at sinunod na lang ang utos ko.
This is the right thing to do. I should stay away from him, being with him is fatal... Walang magandang idudulot sa 'kin ang pagigng malapit sa kanya.