"Go! Go! before she returns from my room." he gives me an order and I don't know why he thinks that I am going to take his order.
" Why don't you go first? and then me."
He looks at me in a way that he will take no time to rip me apart and I was just scared the hell of him but what he did next was completely unexpected for me.
" Fine! I'll go first and you come down a few minutes after me so nobody could see us together."
I nodded my head in agreement and not asked him too many questions because I can see he was getting irritated by my question.
He turns around to face, I mean backward to step down on the old broken ladder which was saved according to Jasper and I highly doubt it. I hold the ladder for him so he could not fall. And I can't believe I am helping my killer.
Step by step, he finally reaches down and looks up at me, and gives me a thumbs up.
Exactly, just then after aunt Fiona stepped out of jaspers' room and see him standing at the bottom of the ladder, looking up.
" Jasper! what are you doing?" The aunt said and Jasper just jerks off like he see a ghost.
" Nothing, Ma'am... nothing... I was doing nothing." He stammers and his face is turning pale I can see that from up here. I don't think it's jasper's fault to be afraid of aunt. She is a scary-looking woman and even I am afraid of her. She moves forward towards jasper and Jasper stands still like a stone statue.
She stops in front of him and as she lifts her head to look up. I immediately, back away from the door. I nearly got a mini heart attack from it but I dodged it.
" Why is the attic open?" I heard her asking Jasper.
" Umm, I-I... I put my old clothes there. I don't have space in the closet." he replied.
But I don't think, Aunt will be convinced by this answer. She is not a fool. She is watching him the way he is acting nervously. And seeing jasper like that gives me anxiety. The thoughts overwhelm me, Consume me, and eat me alive, I try to fight back, but I fail hopelessly,
A glimmer of positive light appears,
I grasp at it with all my might,
The inner demon is stronger,
I see all hope I had to take flight,
I reach out, but the light is so far,
Dark thoughts overtake me,
I desperately try to fight this cycle,
"Have you done your work?" She asks him and I again move to the edge to see what is going on.
Jasper nods his head and a crook smile appears on Aunt's face. Which makes me cringe and I couldn't stand terrorizing poor Jasper.
" Good job, Jasper but don't forget about the work you have to do for me," she said and I wonder what work she was talking about.
" Yes, Ma'am." He replies.
" Have you seen, Aisling? I am looking for her."
" NO!... No, I mean I have not seen her. Maybe she is downstairs or in the library. She spent most of the time there."
" Oh, you know more know about her than I do. "
" Not really, Emily told me that. I didn't know it."
" Very well, I need to talk to you... alone." She emphasizes words alone and grabs Jasper by his forearm which made him scream in agony I don't know why? she dragged Jasper by the arm and went inside his room.
And I fear, maybe aunt sensed that he was lying to him. Fuck me, It's happened because of me... Why did I make him go down first? Now, He is in trouble because of me. No, it's not my fault that he tried to kill me neither it was my choice to come here... stop regretting something which I never did.
You're right, Aisling, anything can happen, anytime. But what goes wrong isn't your fault. You can't spend the rest of your life tiptoeing around to try and avert disaster. It won't work.
I quickly turn around to get down and see what was going on inside, Jasper.
I carefully place my feet on the step of the ladder and try to balance my weight because it was wobbling and I don't want to fall and make myself known to an aunt that I have been hiding in the attic and heard everything she said to Jasper.
Slowly, I reach down on the final steps and felt a sense of relief in my chest I tiptoe to make my way to the jasper room, and the door is closed.
What else I expected? They're not stupid to talk to each other with open doors.
And secondly, I am not going to just stand here and do nothing. I move closer to the door to hear something.
I drew my ear to the crack of the door to hear clearly what they are talking about.
" How could ignore something like this? It's an order and if you don't do it tonight then be prepared to face the consequences of your actions." I heard aunt's voice on the other side of the door and which makes me wandering what order she gives to him. And why she sounded so mad?
" Aisling?" I heard someone say from behind me. And I look up and thought Dear good luck, we’re not playing hide and seek, I searched for you for many years, It’s time to come out now. Not many people have had as much bad luck as I have, but not many people have had as much good luck, either I don't know whether it's going to help me in any shape or form. I gathered my courage to look around who was that?