VIVIANE
I left Felipe's apartment upset. His words hurt me so hard, and he wasn't even aware of the weight of what he said so casually.
I decided to go to Julia's house, to support her as much as possible. She was my friend and I knew, very well indeed, what she must be going through.
" How are you, my friend? " I asked as soon as she opened the door for me when I arrived at her apartment.
" Sad, but resigned. The certainty made me more relieved. That yes or no expectation was tearing me apart.”
She hugged me and together we walked towards the couch, sitting next to each other.
" You have my full support. Whatever is going through your head right now. I only ask you to think very carefully.”
" At the moment I'm just trying to absorb reality. Later, when I'm more emotionally in control, I'll think and weigh my options.”
" You are right! Nothing should be resolved without first analyzing all sides.”
We chatted while drinking coffee and Júlia told me a little more about the man who was now the father of the child she was expecting. A great rogue, who had already made it clear that he would not be by her side at that very delicate moment.
Then I thought about my situation and decided that I would take the test tomorrow. Felipe's answer to any doubt I might have about his position in a situation like that, I got tonight and I was able to conclude that the only certainty was that I wouldn't be able to count on him to stay by my side. The side of my pregnancy test was positive.
And regardless of the result, I knew I had to get away from Felipe. He said he was in love with me, but he didn't have the courage or the will to face anything in the name of our relationship.
When Cecília arrived, I had already cooked some pasta so that we could have dinner and when I realized it, it was after nine at night and my mother had already sent me several messages.
" I gotta go. I have class tomorrow and I still intend to organize some things when I get home.”
" You can take it easy, Vivi. Leave our friend here with me, I'll hold her hand all night" Cecilia jokes, trying to lighten the mood.
They were childhood friends and now they lived together, so I could live in peace.
" I know I'm leaving her in good hands. " I joined in the game and said goodbye blowing some kisses to both of them.
I got home and as soon as I opened the door I found my mother sitting on the sofa in the living room, and she immediately started questioning me.
" Where were you, Vivi?”
" At Julia's house.”
" Is something going on that you don't want to tell me? I've been noticing you very strangely the last few days.”
I stared at my mom, not knowing how to respond. I was exhausted and not at all prepared for my mother's interrogation at that moment.
" Mom, can we leave this conversation for tomorrow? I am exhausted.”
" Daughter, do you promise me that if something is happening to you, you will tell me?”
" I promise you, Mom. Don't worry, tomorrow we'll talk.”
" He is well. Your father and I are quite worried about your constant going out. I've also been realizing that you've been running away from us. Avoid even having meals with us!”
" It's not for that, Mrs. Lucia. I can even say that you are already being a little bit" I made a sign with my index and thumb, pointing to the maximum distance between the two fingers "exaggerated."
" Don't joke about serious matters, Viviane! " My father scolded me, and only then did I see that he was standing next to the door that led to the kitchen.
" I love them both, see. You don't need to worry so much.”
" Just a little, is that it?”
My dad joked, making me laugh.
" That's right. Worry just a little bit.”
I called them to me and the three of us hugged.
" We love you too, daughter. We only want your well-being. That's why we worried " my mother spoke and I understood her. Especially knowing that they might have a lot more to worry about than they realized.
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The next day, I decided that I would have a blood test to put an end to this doubt once and for all, and when João Pedro dropped me off near the classroom where I was studying, I deviated from the route I was supposed to take and took a bus to go to a nearby clinic.
The service was very quick and, after waiting thirty minutes, I was called to receive the result and opened it right there.
POSITIVE
Those words sounded even bigger than they did on paper, and they screamed so many implications that I was bewildered, not knowing what to do next. I ran my hands through my hair, feeling ungrounded.
I was terrified of what the future had in store for me, but one thing I was sure of: I would do anything for my son!
I was still sitting in reception when I saw JP enter, hugging Jack. He didn't see me, as I was in a more reserved corner of the huge reception, and they sat down, still hugging each other so intimately that I was a little bewildered, not knowing what to think until João Pedro gave A brief but tender kiss on Jack's cheek.
I got up, not even sure what I was going to do, and walked toward the two men. The expression of true horror that JP wore was such that I would have found it very funny had it not been for my state of stupor at the discovery I had just made. had just done.
João Pedro was gay!
How could I be best friends with JP and never suspect he was gay when all the signs were there?