Chapter 67
***Alvina***
Larissa. How I loathed that name. What I dreaded most was that her name was not only haunting my sleep, it was everywhere I went. News had spread that she was back and she was now the adored Larissa. The doctor they've always wanted.
That Larissa— the maid that always ran to my beck and call, that was terrified of me, was now the Larissa they worshipped. Anger bubbled inside me, how dare Logan bring her back? That meant he had never really liked me and regardless of what I did, he would never love me.
He got rid of me just to plead with her to come back? Although the theories weren't correct, different rumours had already spread like wildfire. Some said Logan brought her back, some said she was rejected by the rogues and she had nowhere to go, some said she was back for revenge while some said she had gone to the human world and was back with a cure. I didn't know which to believe although a part of me doubted Logan pleaded with her to come back. He was prideful. Another part of me believed he did, maybe all he wanted was to get me out of the picture but no, I wouldn't let that happen.
Derek didn't like me anymore. He didn't say it but the way he had acted made me feel as though I was forcing things. And I didn't want to come off as desperate although I wanted him. I had remorses and every time I thought about it, I detested Logan twice. I wished he had rejected me, at least I and Derek would have fled. We would have gone far away to start a life and oh! How he had loved me.
I needed to act now. I needed to find my way back to the house and make Logan love me. I needed him to accept me back, I wanted Larissa gone. I wanted her to suffer and worship me. I recalled the way she used to marvel at me then, I knew she wanted everything I had then and now she was getting it. She was all they talked about now.
To me, she'd forever remain a servant. She was nothing more than that, and a servant she will stay. Even if she built a tower for every single lycan, I would rather have the rogues hang me to death than kiss her butt.
I needed to get revenge for Derek and I. He had always been downtrodden by Logan’s aura and he didn't stop lamenting about how he felt cheated by him. Worse still he was banished! That was the most humiliating thing and it was my fault. If I hadn't been sending him those letters, Logan wouldn't have known anything. I knew I needed to make things right because it hurt that he kept me at arms bay. If only Derek had been the Alpha I would have had a glamorous life. No doubt.
I wanted to see what Larissa looked like now. To see if she had grown beautiful and powerful as they claimed. I wanted to know why Logan brought her back. It was a slap to my face that Logan didn't even give me a second chance but instead, he brought in the girl from the slums.
I went to my tent, grabbed a small bag and began filling it with clothes and every other important thing I was going to need for my journey. In the dead of night, I was going to steal away, the pack was quite a distance from here but before dawn, I’d get there. I couldn't let anyone see me trying to get in, that would be embarrassing. I already knew what I was going to do. Even though Logan didn't like me anymore, I was once his beloved mate and he would never want to see me stranded.
Everything was planned out, I just prayed the moon goddess was with me and not against me.
***
At exactly 1:00 am, I left for the pack. I ignored the cold that ate at me, I was driven by a tumult of conflicting emotions and it fueled my speed. I knew Logan was going to be outside at that moment. I never wanted to come across the guards. They'd have me chased.
Just wait Larissa, I'm coming to take that glory from you.
I traipsed, trudged, panted and groaned till I got to the pack’s territory. The place where I used to be adored. It was about 4:00 am when I arrived at Apex Howler’s Pack. I peeked from the corners of a tree and scanned the gates for any trace of bodyguards but I couldn't find any. I came out of my hiding place and rushed to the gates. I knew my way around so opening the gate without alerting anyone wasn't a problem.
The moment I crossed the entrance of the gate, the laser sensor alarm beeped loudly.
“Oh shit,” I cursed silently. I had completely forgotten about the laser.
Guards appeared from every angle seized me by my arms and confiscated my bag.
“Let go of me,” I yelled, “I need to see the Alpha.”
“You're a trespasser,” one of the guards yelled back.
“You dumb dog, I'm the Alpha’s mate! ” I said, “I need to see Logan.”
“I'm sorry but the Alpha doesn't welcome visits at inappropriate times,” said another guard.
I shrieked Logan’s name like a maniac as they tried to get me away. I couldn't let them run this for me. I had it planned out in my head. This was my only chance and I wasn't letting anyone have their way.
“Bring her to me.”
I leapt for Joy and almost squealed as I heard Logan’s voice. It felt good to hear his voice again. The guards brought me closer and brought me to my knees.
Logan’s eyes darkened as he stared at me
“What are you doing here?” he demanded.
I tried to get on my feet but Logan declined and asked me to remain on my knees.
“Can we get privacy? I can't talk to you in their presence,” I gestured to the guards.
After dismissing them and I was sure we were alone, I fixed my eyes on him. My eyes reflected a mix of remorse and desperation as I spoke, “Logan, I need to talk to you.”
His expression was a blend of scepticism and caution but he gestured for me to continue.
“I… I want to apologize,” I stammered, avoiding his gaze. “I'm sorry for what happened, but Derek forced me into it. I had no choice.”
Logan’s eyes narrowed as he listened, a storm of emotions brewing within him. “Forced you? Alvina, you're anything but dumb. I don't dare force you to make love with me. When you say you're not in the mood you don't let me come any close. How much more Derek??? We were family— you were my mate. Why would Derek do such a thing?”
I weaved a web of deceit with every word and responded, “He was angry. Humiliated too. He blamed you for taking what was rightfully his. I never wanted any of this.”
“But you still had sex with him. You sent him letters, Alvina. Within closed doors, you were moaning his name. I'm not stupid Alvina.”
I lowered my gaze, feigning remorse, “I'm sorry Logan. I just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. But please don't send me away, I have no place to go. No one is willing to accept me, please take me in. I'm stranded.”
Logan sighed deeply but he helped me to my feet. “You know the consequences of your actions. You've jeopardized the pack’s stability. As much as I want to kick you out, you're still family. But understand, trust needs to be earned back.”
I threw my arms around him, my eyes veiling a concealed triumph and I nodded appreciatively, “Yes. Thank you, Logan. I promise I'll do whatever it takes to make things right again.”
He nodded and withdrew from me, ”Come with me.”
“Would I be staying in your room? Does that mean you accept me back?”
He scoffed and walked away without uttering a word. He didn't have to say a word, I knew he couldn't accept me. At least, not yet. I was determined to get back with him either way. This acceptance was just the tip of the iceberg. Now that I was back, I was going to take everything from Larissa and destroy her.