I never cared about holidays, let alone Christmas. And the new year for me was made to travel, like and forget everything I've lived all year, it was always a tiring year where I had my parents' billing and right after everything that happened in my life was a little more difficult.
I'm planning my life today with more responsibility I see the whole family reunited with Dulce's parents after everything that happened maybe it's a teaching to my life because I leave everything in the hands of others and trust people who were untrustworthy and I believed it was my world.
The breath fails to hear her voice and my world was so far away from me I walk my hands over my hair and breathe.
" Mia? Where is it?
" To hell Max.
-Santoro? Where is it? I know that name.
She won't let me finish and screams from the other side I try to walk away so my family wouldn't hear, and my jealousy was visible.
"Don't you dare be another Mia."
"Leave me alone Max. Merry Christmas!
" Mia? I scream and she hangs up. "I love you.
I look and my mother is all happy does not even know how to express so much happiness they have traveled all this time spending money by the casinos and are living life.
Today they are right and the wrong one is the one who let slip the love of my life by thinking too much and thinking about my inheritance.
"What are you doing out here alone?
"Thinking about my life, it's a new year that's going to start, it has to be different, doesn't it, Mom?
"Yes, and we will stay in the making for the arrival of our grandboy.
Our Little Netinho saw the wedding ring and realized that everything was wrong, but maybe it's not the wrong situation, it's me.
I made the wrong choice and what's the point of having all the money in the world and not being happy tonight I've had about three shots of whiskey and smoked non-stop.
Christmas lights all lighted to the Haras outside Christmas decoration with huge horses with huge trees red balls. Look up at the sky and I took a deep breath, do I still have the right to santa's mother's request?
"No matter how old you are you will always be entitled to an order, my dear son.
"Who knows my love back.
"If that's what you want love back. Don't think twice, throw it all up and you'll live that love because then you won't get the second chance.
She hugged me, put her hands on my hair like she always did and gave her best smile.
"You wonder if she marries someone else.
"I would die if she were someone else's. Imagine getting married. She left and left me with that doubt that kept hitting me in the head pounding.
And if she gets married turn herself in to another and if she falls in love with another of mine, that's what a horrible feeling. I'm feeling incompetent, I don't know how to run my own life.
"Come on, baby, let's toast it's our first Christmas together. Have you forgotten we have an announcement to make?
Of course not.
They all gathered happily drinking talking about family business and future and I quietly wondering what my future would be like. I looked at my cell phone screen, it was time to be with her, maybe she was right, I'm weak and I got carried away with the money. I don't definitely deserve it.
"The family of all of you gathered here, Max and I want to give you firsthand the news that we're going to have a little girl. They all celebrated the happiness of a girl at home, and I shook my head gave a simple smile, my, contradictory even not for the baby but for me.
"A little girl. Like being a girl's father? Everyone laughed and after the toasts and hugs there's that little father-son conversation that always picks up hard I still remember my Christmas conversations that he grounded me maybe for a small slip too big.
"It all worked out. Happy, but there's going to be a girl?
"You know very well that I am not the father of this baby, but I will raise you as my daughter and swear to you that I would be the best father in the world for her. I'll never be what you are in the little girl's life.
"Don't be fooled, Dad. I'm the opposite of you.
"Don't be fooled you Max.
I felt like pulling those words out of his mouth, and I breathe and look at Dulce who laughed by opening the presents.
"I've been through everything you're going through. I left my great love for money. He turned the drink and this story I didn't know. "I pay the price for getting her pregnant and marrying her mother for money.
Does that mean I'm not your son? I look at him smiling.
"Father is the one who creates.
He went out and left his poison to make me feel. I couldn't stand that disguise anymore, i kept away from everyone, but with my heart and a distant mind wanting to be with her as soon as I left the celebration. I went to my room with a bottle of whiskey, sat facing huge balcony watching the horses run through the Fields hit sadness longing for her and couldn't resist. The snow took over the fields and you could hear the noises of the bugs. I turn the whiskey and that night a lot was changing and now another little girl in the family.
I put my hands on my hair and feel the need to touch it, close my eyes and let the cold bring your memory into my life.
"Merry Christmas my love next Christmas we will be together I swear. I'm not going to lose you. That was my request to Santa to have you back and I'll have why I believe in Santa Claus."
MIA
Between celebrations, celebrations, decorations, exchange of gifts, affection, a beautiful smile, a real family, I stood looking at only four people and it was such a quiet Christmas, so tasty, so full of love, so full of affection they have a wonderful family. I've always dreamed of this because I can't give love a chance to start over?
I don't want to miss again, and then all that story my mother used to say. Mia err is human as long as you live on this earth you will err we are so made to err and to fix. I gave my best smile and I see Santoro all smiling opening his greatest gift. Seemed to have a letter of alforria he looked at was something very important to him is a good person handed me a glass of champagne and hugged me we looked at the fireworks at night was beautiful. All the neighbors went out on the streets singing Christmas music, it was wonderful the city where Christmas lived.
"When I have my children, I want them to spend all Christmas here, family and everything.
"Yes, but it's wonderful your city well you said. It's perfect right. "How are I tell your heart?
"It's quiet, everything that had to happen happened. What about you?
"I'm more relaxed she made her choice; I can't make choice for her just as you can't make choice for him the choice is everyone's.
"I see you love.
"Love is little maybe she wanted much more than love she always told me that I had to be her superhero I still remember when we climbed the tree and she kept throwing me up my sleeves and saying that I had to be her superhero that I had to hold all my sleeves.
"Seriously, that's crazy. Did she keep throwing up her sleeves?
"Yes, she would throw my sleeves and say that I had to hold them all if I dropped one, I couldn't kiss her.
"Was she your first love?
No, I’m not. I had a love before her, but life took me away, too. When I was going to bed, I wondered where I was wrong why I didn't,
could be loved and only used by them.
"Can I ask you a question Mia? I get scared when you talk and look at it and I see sadness in your eyes maybe they're telling the truth just like me.
"Would you fall in love with me?
— I would fall in love easy, you are a wonderful beautiful seductive sexy man, have a body and have a beautiful smile. Apart from your character you treat a woman as she deserves. I see you've only fallen in love with the wrong women just as I've fallen in love with the wrong men, and we make and make wrong choices.
"I believe it's time for us to start making the right choices. "Did you like your Christmas present?
Yes, I’m sorry. Do you know what that letter was?
I can't imagine. Your letter of care.
I smiled and he hit me in the arm and pulled me by the waist.
"I'm running for mayor of the city, my father thinks it's best for business, and I'd love for you to work with me on this new enterprise of my life. After all, we're friends.
"I don't know if I'm going to be able to leave the clinic to work with you. But I can help you with anything you need. After all, we're friends.
"Let's go to the city and see the celebrations you'll love.
Passing went around town for hours, every corner had a group of people singing costumed Christmas songs was a lot of fun. The city was a lot of fun, the kids playing on the ice rink and the elders sitting on the bench drinking hot and interesting chocolate is something you look at you say it's fairy tale. I never imagined there'd be a city like this, but it does. We walked in, we exchanged affections and friendships.
We exchanged dreams and handshake nothing more than that when he stopped me and stopped under a huge Christmas tree, he held my two hands and looked into my eyes the cold throbbed my face. My lips were freezing.
— Place a Christmas order and any request that is will be made.
" Oh, I’m sorry. That's a lot of kids. I don't believe in that stuff.
"I believe and I'll do mine you'll do yours. And who knows my request connects to yours and takes place.
"You won.
I closed my eyes I imagined him in front of me by shaking my hands I felt the warmth of his body and he touched my hair, and I made my Christmas order to my great father. "Noel who was the only one I've had for years in my life.
"May I have the opportunity to be loved someday.