The minutes passed by and we were still heading into the next destination. Hindi pa man kame nakakrating y kusang huminto ang sasakyan. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang rason ngunit nakaramdam agad ako ng kaba habang nakatingin sa kung saan.
"What happened?"
As I tried to calm my voice the driver look at me with a weird look.
"Titignan ko lang po saglit ma'am."
Tumindi ang kaba sa puso ko matapos lumabas ng driver.
"Naplatan ho tayo ma'am!"
Sigaw nito habang tinitignan ang gulong sa unahan. I felt relief when the driver said that. Bumaba pa ang dala para tignan ang nangyare sa harapan.
"Pasensya na po sir, mukhang hindi ko napansin kanina. Pero may gamit naman po sa likod, kukunin ko lang po."
As I tried to look at Calvin, he is sleeping like a baby. Even though he's asleep, I can see how happy he was. Inside my head, I am sad. I want to be with him with a new life but my mind won't be at peace without completing these things up.
After a second, bumaba ako at tinignan ang ginagawa nila. I am into cars but not into repairing it.
I look around the area and still feel the air around. I'm sure, will gonna miss this. Ito na lang ang mapapabaon ko sa kanila. If things have gotten worst and something happened to me, I know Rogen would take care of Calvin.
The only thing I became happy about this life was to have the freedom to see what is life like? I can finally figure out what I want to do but it's unfair that I can't do it anymore. As I'm prisoned in the past, I never thought the result was as big as I'd expected.
"Okay na?"
Hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto akong nakatayo at mabilis na natapos ang pag aayos ng gulong.
"Manong, paki check na lahat ngayon. Baka mamaya may aberya na naman."
Utos pa ni Hector na sinunod naman ng driver.
"Is something happened?"
Nang makasakay ay sakto namang pag gising ni Calvin.
"It's nothing. We still have thirty minutes to go there."
Sa buong byahe ay okyupado lang ang utak ko.
"Kuya! Let's go there!"
As I saw a breathtaking area, Calvin started to get excited again. We take our lunch in a restaurant with the Best Filipino delicious dishes.
"Can we stay here? Or I will talk to Director to have a near Hospital here! I should bring Yina here soon!"
Napakunot muli ang sarili kong noo ng magbanggit siya ng panibagong pangalan.
"Who's Yina?" Curiously Hector said while trying to tease my brother.
"She's also a VIP patient in the Hospital! Don't tease me, she will punch me and bleed my nose again!"
"Nice, just like your sister. Well, when I am trying to be a bully like this one, she might punch me too," Hector said while laughing.
Umiling na lang ako habang inaantay na madala ang mga inorder namin.
I'm not in the mood to disagree with what Hector has said and I was trying to hold back my thoughts because I don't want to ruin this trip.
As the waiters arrived, I felt my forehead crease again when I saw many plates.
Some of them ordered sweets. Although I love to eat that food, I am not the one who ordered it. I got the hint of something when I looked at Rogen.
Hindi ko alam kung ako ang tumakbo sa isip ko ng biglang magproseso ang isip ko sa isang alaala na marahil ay ngayon lang sumagi sa isip ko.
*Flashback
"Finally, I can sleep now. Those actuals really out of my nerves tapos ang seryoso pa ni Doc Lyka."
Nagstretching pa ako bago naupo sa vacant sit sa unahan ni Roge.
"That's why I brought sweets. Lagi naman kase ganyan ang nakikita kong kinakain mo sa tuwing pagod ka."
"Marunong ka naman palang mag effort! Did you bake those? Or do you even have the time to cook those? Rogen Rhem mag effort ka naman."
"I talked to her assistant but was not convinced. you got a high score than your hate colleague."
*End of Flashback
I've back to reality when I saw him arranging the food on the table. I can't take it anymore. Surprisingly I stand that makes them interrupt a moment.
"Just going to comfort room," I seriously said before leaving.
I even ask the staff to head me over to the comfort room.
Mabilis akong napabukas ng gripo bago naghilamos. I cannot do this anymore. I shouldn't try to bring this up.
I don't know how many minutes I close my eyes before heading to the door ready to face him again like something doesn't happen. But to my surprise, I saw him exactly, after the door waiting for me to open it.
I am breathing heavily just by looking at his serious face.
"If you think you can face everything along, then think about me. I've been avoiding your reasons why you need to change. I kept everything without asking. Matigas pa din ang ulo mo. Can't you please think twice? If you planned to stay away from us, do you we won't felt bad? Masyadong kang makasarili. While protecting us, hindi lo alam masyado na kaminh nasasaktan sa ginagawa mo. I am trying to hold my anger because of what you've been doing. Dadalhin mo kami ni Calvin sa states without you and then what?! For heaven's sake! If you want to kill yourself, then do it now! I am not leaving. We are not leaving. Deal it while I am still with you because I might do something not good."
I know it. He knows everything about me. He's trying to wait that I will tell him things. Susubukan ko na sana siyang habulin nang nanlaki ang dalawang mata ko ng may biglang may humila sa akin.
Sinubukan kong manlaban pero unti unti ng nilalamon ng dilim ang sariling paningin ko.
Bumigay lang ako ng makaramdam ng sobrang pagkahilo dahil sa panyong pilit idiniin sa ilong ko.